=In Passing=

got this from a friend... quite nice..

=In Passing=

In passing
I met you strangely
as you just entered and I left
as a wanderer searching for you
In passing
I found you
and you were so fascinating
and devastatingly beautiful
In passing
I fell in love again
with you my life began anew
with the frenzy of a thunderstorm
In passing
I wrote blindly
to you so far away from me
to draw you closer like a ghost
In passing
I dreamt madly
of you sweetly in the darkness
of the night kissing me silently
In passing
I told you my feelings
for you were there as I waited
for something to happen to me
In passing
I glimpsed the joy
in you I might find new faith
in this meaningless life we have
In passing
I was so so sad
but you were there my friend
but I knew I could never stay
In passing
I came to rest
where you will never find
where clouds drift lazily by
In passing.

birthday party

i went to my 3rd 21st birthday party yesterday night. Very little right? considering the fact that nearly everyone i know are going to celebrate their birthday this year. It either means

1. i m so unpopular that ppl do not want to invite me.
2.My friends have decided to be unpopular and dun want to celebrate.

3. I am going to go broke at the end of the year coz that's when all the birthdays start coming in.

Anyway, this friend is from my NJ class one. Very long nv see him liao. Ever since i left NJ, i haven been meeting him. At the party yesterday, i managed to meet quite number of NJ classmates whom i have not met for a very very very long time. It felt so right. I dunno why, but i always feel very in place when even i am hanging out with these bunch of ppl. Some of whom are not even classmates with me before. But we jus happen to be able to click together. Make me wonder wat's wrong now?..

Anyway, this friend of mine had a very creative party. He got all of us messed up into different tables and we played games. Supposed to answer questions on him, his house and some general ones. Quite fun and we had fun mixing and interacting with the ppl in my group even thou most of us do not each other before hand. Quite interesting coz you get to know his other friends and get to know him better thru all the questions. Maybe i can try something like that for my party. But mine might be quite big coz i am probably going to invite many ppl. Should think of wat to do.

But before i do that.. i should get back to my lab reports...ARGH...

nerd

i feel so nerd... rushing so many reports... anyway.. i found this at a friend's blog and i decided to try.. interesting..

school again

argh!!!!!!!!! why is it so unfair.. we do the prac until so late trying to figure out all the stuff and crack our brains over it and the second group only have to follow wat we've already tested for them and get to copy our answers!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! wth... damn the school.. dunno wat they all are doing... i am not going to share my results.. its mine!!!!

Humph.. i know i am being selfish but its not fair loh.. We do all the work den they copy????? what is this???? why cant they just plan the stuff properly? I know that last week we used up their reagents so they dun have enough den gotta use our results.. this one i understand. This week.. they dun have enough again?? and they have to copy our results again???!!!??? But the problem is.. yesterday we did not seem to have asked for extra reagents.. most ppl have enough. Even i had enough to repeat my experiments. So why is it that there is not enough reagents again??? WTH!!

school?

very long nv blog liao.. jus tot that i should post something... recently i dunno wat's wrong with me.. i very anti social.. so stressed over something which i dun even know is wat. most probably school and all the lab reports and rubbish lah..

Den i not only anti-social.. i am becoming very mean. I seem to dun like something abt ppl who are around me. Anyone talk to me abt something in school i can jus find something to bu shuang abt. I nv tell anyone but i jus sub-consciously criticise that person.. I am so horribly mean. I think i am jus doing this to make myself feel better.

Exams are coming.. and i haven really understood wat is going on in class. I have not been doing a lot of tut this semester and my CA so poor.. My friend got A den i got C... =(.. very sad leh... sigh.... dunno wat to do abt it.. i dun like to do homework with my friends.. i like to do things as and when i feel like it. Whenever we have longer breaks, they will do homework den if i dun feel like doing then, i get pissed off by wat they are all doing den i dun feel like doing even after that.

Den recently a friend's present made me very bu shuang with a friend. I have another friend A, who knows this friend,B, too so she suggest that we get a present together. I dun mind since we can get a better present for her plus we dunno wat to buy too. Den when i asked my friends, C said that we got so many ppl can get her something den each pay abt 20. i was thinkg that its so expensive loh.. she mad ah.. think that everyone will want to spend so much money on HER good friend.. Yes, we are friends. In fact, i knew that gal since sec 1.. but even though we are in the same clique.. you are not on equal terms with everyone mah. There has got to be someone that you are closer to. Den i was trying to explain this concept to C and she dun understand why would us not be willing to spend the money when we are together everyday and are suppposed to be "good friends". I dun mind the money but wat i am bu shuang abt is tt C is a very thrifty person( i wun say niao k?) so whenever we buy present for others friends, the budget is always $5 each. Den now she willingly to pay $20 coz its for her good friend. I feel like she is trying to get her something at the expense of us. I might be too sensitive or it could be that i am too stressed so i get very bu shuang easily abt things.. Luckily my other friends tot that 20 was too ex. Anyway, another friend D says that its better for us to get our own present. BUT we dun even know at to get loh!! sigh.. den if we share we can get a good present den each dun have to pay so much. I dun care liao lah.. they shall go n think of wat to buy den i pay only.

And talking abt D, i bu shuang her quite a long while ago. I dunno wat triggered it oso.. but we have been taking some classes together den somehow , as we get to spend more time together, i started to think that she's very fake. Sometimes when she talks, i somehow feel that there is always hidden meanings behind wat she's saying and sometimes she ask questions like jus to create conversation and give me a feeling like she's simply trying to get close to you. Recently i have noticed that she's more hardworking and keeps getting close to ppl with good results... The more i see, the more turn off i get... So fake...........

Sigh... now can understand how come i am not happy here. School not fufilling and social life so full of grumbles.. sigh....................

my beautiful saturday afternoon

It was a pretty satuday afternoon. Bright and sunny and got no tuition!! wah... so good...

BUT BUT BUT... got a com lab.. so i had to go back to schoo.. But its jus as well so i can submit my long dued 208 lab report... Supposed to be due on friday but i only handed in on saturday. Luckily the box is still around or i die liao..

Hmm.. den we started the lab with a super informative and funny video by my dear prof.. but the subsequent lab was hell.. real hell.. the first com lab that took me even longer than my wet lab. I was in the com lab for abount 5 hours? Wah.. do until i headache..Den halfway thru the lab, my friends and me were so hungry that we decided to go for lunch first then continue. So poor thing... can a got nothing except for Mac. So i had my long wanted to try chicken foldover finally

So sian.. what a way to spend a beautiful saturday afternoon. In school having Mac for lunch at 2 pm!! Sigh...

Luckily i had a better part of the evening coz it was my brother's birthday and we had great food.. So fattening but its so nice. Got pasta, pizza, curry chicken and ice cream cake.. Yummy....

beginning of school

first week of school.. no time to post anything.. nothing much.. except that i have been slack as usual.. looking forward to my first weekend...

tmr got 208 lab report.. going back to mug...