monday blues....

Today's the first day of week 9. Oh gosh... exams are coming!! Shit man.. sigh... I bought myself a cup of frappe from McCafe to cheer myself up but in the end, it achieved nothing except to give me a headache and a rumbling stomach. I guess my dear is the only solution to any of my aches. A call from him tonight and a nice chat made me forgot that I had a headache. Feeling good now.. hehe.. thanks dear!...

Okay.. some light-hearted stuff... I was arrowed out by my friend to do this thing... so here are the questions:

1) whether I like female or male --
Depends on for wat purpose or wat kind of organism are we talking about.. haha...
For a lover, obviously I like males lah. My dear is a 100% complete male.. haha.. I cannot imagine kissing a girl.. ew... Plus I love to lie on broad shoulders and I prefer to hold a guy's hand coz they are bigger than mine (most). They make me feel safe and protected.
For shopping, I believe a female would be a better companion. Guys simply do not have the patience to walk through so many shops with me.
Other than these, for stuff such like kids or pets, I do not have a preference to males or females.

2) 8 criteria for my ideal partner --
hmmm, this is hard coz I think that my dear is my ideal partner but he does not have all the qualities that I want in a guy. I agree with what my friend said, loving someone means accepting the whole package including the flaws. You cannot say that you like this this this of him but not that that that of him and wish that he can change those that you do not like about him. But still to answer the question, I guess these are the things that I would look for in a guy.

1. This is very important. He must have 上进心. I can accept it if my bf is not highly educated but I cannot stand it if he just stays where he is and dun bother to upgrade or improve himself or even worst, wallow in self-pity when things go wrong. I detest 自甘堕落 ppl. Fate wants to get you down all the more you should stand up.... If he cannot even take a little setback, how am I supposed to depend on him?

2. He has to love me. A lot a lot.

3. We have to be able to communicate. I love to talk so I really really cannot stand it if I cannot get my msg across to my partner. And I hate to play mind games. I always lose one so I want my partner to be able to tell me what was wrong instead of having to make me guess.

4. He must love kids. I want children when we get married so my ideal partner has to love children too. Plus I have a lot of kids at home so he has to be able to accept my cousins too.

5. He has to accept my family. My family is an important part of my life even though I only got to realize this very late in my life. But I really love my family and all my extended family members (most lah... hehe). So my partner has to love them too. I will not be able to take it if my husband does not like my family and want me to keep away from them after marriage or what.

6. Character is also very important to me... He does not have to be a romantic or wat guy even though I think it will be nice if he can do sweet things for me once in a while. But I think my partner has to be a kind and understanding person. He also has to be dependable, sensible and mature. Well... I think I sort of eliminated all the guys in my class. Lol...

7. He cannot smoke, drink and gamble. Social drinking and occasional gambles are fine with me. But I absolutely cannot accept smoking.

8. I do not need a tall guy since I am not very tall plus I think too tall very hard to lie on his shoulders or to kiss him. But I want a guy with broad shoulders and bigger hands than mine so that I will feel protected lying on his shoulders or holding his hand. He has to be bigger sized than me too. I dun want to look fat beside him. And he does not have to be very handsome coz I m scared that girls will fight with me but he has to be pleasant looking.

9. I added this coz I think not enough.. haha.... I think the last thing is that we must have 缘分. I am a kind of superstitious person who believes in name and all the stupid rubbish so I think destiny is very important to a couple.

Well, actually I still have a very long list but I think I've mentioned the more important things to me.. haha... and come to think of it, I think my dear kind of fufill all my criteria. Even though I really cannot stand his MCP-ness sometimes...

3) list out 8 friends whom I hope to see them doing this in their blog too
Not many ppl read my blog and I think a lot of those who read probably dun have a blog. Hmm.. maybe I can name a few like huimin, liyong, joven, ailing, my sister, Jaclyn and and and... No more liao lah.. haha...

back to school...

sob sob.. today marks the last day of my recess week. Time flies!! shit man.. it is time to get to work and start going back for classes, doing tutorial, assigments and my dreaded LAB REPORTS... sigh... But luckily i had some fun before i return for my dreaded classes even though this weekend was a hectic one, to make up for my absence last week plus relief classes for my colleagues. I dun mind since i can make more money.. hehe...

Went for a class gathering yesterday evening. It was a very pathetic all time low attendance with only 9 ppl. BUT NTU has full time attendance coz we pdc a lot of B. Eng so we are all very eng. (no offfense.. hehe.. ) A lot of ppl are overseas, either for exchange, to study or for some other stuff like dear eli... And the remaining ones who are in SG are either busy mugging or not free. Even mong, who always come for all gatherings, din come. So sad.. at first I din wanted to go coz huimin might not go den i will be so lonely with jenny... BUT i am glad i went. I had fun coz it was a small group and i get more interaction. It was actually a class gathering doubled up as a birthday celebration for dear CS. Its so weird how the guys in my class prefers to celebrate 22nd birthdays. haha..

We went manhattan fish market at PS for dinner and the food was pretty disappointing. Its cheaper than F*** & C* but i still think the latter is nicer. But the service kind of made up for it. Got 1 very cute waiteress. She not only allow us to buy cake in and help us keep the cake in the fridge, she even asked if we want to play a prank on the bday boy and even gave suggestions. So cute...... haha.. and she was very sweet and nice. If not for the food, i would probably go back for the service. Maybe i can nominate her for the GEMs thing? anyway, i think pictures speaks louder than words.. here's some photos of the gathering...

This was something interesting on their wall right beside to my table..

After we've decided on what to eat while waiting for so long, me n huimin decided to pose with the menu....My food. Looks nice but dun taste nice. Quite disappointing. The only interesting thing was the flaming prawns which they flamed on the spot right before serving so the food is hot. The prawns are supposed to be award winning but i think that the sauce taste weird...The birthday boy making the wish. Whatever the wish is, i hope that it will come true for him..
A group photo outside the restaurant after 2 failed attempts with table shots. This was taken after the photographer aka waitress said that the birthday boy should stand in front. He doesnt't look to happy being made to squat a little to accomodate the shorter girls in front...

equality of the sexes?

okay.. this is a backdated post... might be a bit incoherent oso but i jus typed whatever tt came to my mind. I felt like i was doing a GP essay....

i had a chat with my darling today. I am so happy that we can finally have a proper conversation without quarrelling. Missed him so much after spending one weekend together. 3 days are not enough to make up for all that we have missed while we're busy with our own lives and fighting with each other.

anyway, i found a particular part of our conversation pretty interesting. It started off by me saying that i din realised that there was a default to the distribution of our CPF should we meet with any mishap even without a nomination. Then he told me something very interesting... He said that any nominations that a guy made before marriage will automatically be revolted and invalid after marriage. Even the will will be considered void. And should a divorce happen, insurance nominations cannot be changed. This might not be the actual case but its what i heard from him. According to him, this is to protect the woman and the children, if any, should anything happen. Well, then we went into an in-depth discussion of whether this is fair or necessary. And he mentioned that he was quite pissed about this talk show where a lady mentioned that if we really want equality, guys should help out with housework but he felt that for equality, such rules protecting the women should be changed first.

I am not a feminist but i do believe in equality of the sexes. Not all kinds of equalities though coz i still believe that guys should open doors for girls and be a gentleman. hehe.. but i do believe strongly in the equality of oppportunities. I get very pissed when girls get deprived of a place in something just because we are assumed to be unable to perform the task. On the other hand, i still believe that women have our role in the family as the homemaker. I think it will be so nice to provide the one we love with a nice home and a hot dinner to return to. BUT I am not gg to stay at home and be a housewife. Kill me man... I do not mind if my husband offers to help out but on the other hand, he cannot take me for granted and expects me to do everything. I will scream!! I guess the ideal situation if the workload is split between the couple. But nothing is perfect right?

Even though the situation in the society is changing, women are getting more educated and less likely to depend entirely on their husband financially since most would be drawing their own salary, and most of the couples now split houseworks and stuff, there are still a minority of the women population who gave up their own life after marriage and devote to being a homemaker. If there was real equality and the law protecting the women was scraped, whatever is going to happen to those women? We can never get 100% of everything. We can ask for more equality but never 100% equality. Being an extremist is not healthy.. hehe.. that's why i always like to sit on the fence. I think a little of this and a little of that...

Anyway.. what's the moral of the story? Women should always keep their own money. NEVER hand over all ur money to the man. Its a good advice wor.. and its something that even my aunts and my mum tell me. We can never depend on anyone else but ourselves. So yar.. girls, do take care of yourself...

what will you do with 600 million?

Singaporeans went mad over the 10 million toto money but can u imagine that US's toto was 600 million? and i heard from my friend that it was solo won.

Wow... i was wondering what i will do with so much money. I brainstormed a bit and came up with the list of things.

1. I want to renovate my house for mummy. I want to get her a proper dinning table, a sofa, bookshelves for myself, a computer table for my lappie and desktop and a big wardrobe.

2. I want to get a car for daddy. Proper family. Probably those family cars coz there are 6 ppl in my family and a normal car cannot fit all of us.

3. I want to learn driving after which i want to buy a merz for myself.

4. I want to pay off all the premiums for my and my family's insurances so that we do not have to think about them for a long time.

5. I want to pay off all my loans so that I do not have to think about them anymore.

6.I want to buy presents for all my family and friends. I want everyone to share my joy!

7. I want to invest some money so that I can have more money!

8. I want to sign up for slimming packages, manicure sessions, facials and spa sessions! The ultimate indugence.

9. I want to donate some money to charities.

10. I want to bring my parents round the world...

11. I want to learn make up and ballet.

12. I want to get married!! actually i want to get married young leh.. but no money.. but with money.. i can get married so much earlier and i no need to be 高龄产妇。Its very bad for myself leh... hehe.. i think i am mad...

Actually there is so much so much i think i can do with the money. I hope they are enough for me to use though.. haha.... If only i really have the money... I want lots of money!!

the long awaited holidays are finally here!!

yeah! guess what? I am having my recess week now! so happy.. even though its only 9 days and I have a lot of things to do, including a couple of reports, assignments and tutorials.. But it is still holidays. Holidays means no need to go school and can sleep till late late and rot at home... great!

so to kick start the holidays, i went for a little getaway during the weekend. So happy.. I had a great time and I realised that i have fallen in love with a great guy. If only we get to spend more time together... we always dun have enough time for each other coz we're always so busy with our own stuff...

And i got flowers from him.. hehe.. as my belated vday present... Even though ppl might think that it is such a no-effort gift but it is something from my guy who thinks flowers are a waste of money. Plus i really thought that it takes a lot of courage for guys to carry the bouquet from the point of purchase to the meeting place to pass to the girl. But I felt so guilty.. his present is still on the way from US. At least it is coming and not lost.

Talking about v-day.. going out was big mistake. At first i thought we weren't gg out coz we are meeting for the weekend. BUT he said okay when i asked.. happy... He even agreed to watch movie with me. We haven't caught a single movie together for a very long time.. HOWEVER.. the crowd was terrible.. mood spoiler. We din managed to catch a movie and the both of us were very sian coz we dun like the crowd. In the end, we settle for dinner at CWP foodcourt and left the place. We went on for our own programme and i had a great and peaceful night...

Okay.. 7 more days of holidays! I am going to enjoy myself!!

i want to complain!!

i want to complain!! My eye doctor overcharged me! My bank deduct money for admin even when i am a poor and pathetic student... And i bought my shampoo at a the standard retail price coz i m so suay and the cheap place ran out of my shampoo. Den i spent 3.50 on a bowl of mee siam when i m not hungry and its not really tt nice. And i am so blur!!!!!!!! omg... i think i jus lost my v-day present.. sigh...

anyway i am really angry with my eye doctor. He charged me $75 for the consultation fee!!!!! And that's price for a new patient and i am a review patient!!! so i asked them abt it and they say they charge first time consultation for more than a year patients. OMG.. F them... i am so angry! I left the house with my pathetic little ang bao money thinking that i can deposit at least some of them in my acc and it turn out that i left the house with 100 plus in my wallet and return with only 3 bucks and i even have to use my card to make purchases.. angry......

And i am so blur... i sent something to vpost usa but i forgot to email them!!! No wonder they never email me anything.. Oh my god... there was my vday present.. i was hoping to give them tmr... Now i jus pray that it dun get lost.... sigh.. sorry darling..

what a day!

I have been blur, stupid and down on my luck.

I blur blur thought that tuition was today and then i met my friend at the centre then i realised that my class is next fri!! omg.. wat a blur person. But coz i tot next week i got no tuition, i already made plans liao so i swapped my class with my friend. Sorry ver, i m too blur....

I have been stupid coz i took so long to do my lab report and did a terrible one.. sigh...

And i have been down on my luck coz i never win toto.. so sad.. .i thought i can get some extra cash but who knows....

AND.. i once again realised that Singapore is so small. I am teaching the elder sister of a RVSJAB cadet of mine... how cool... haha...

i m so stupid

okay... great.. i think i am getting stupider... day by day.... i used to spent 2 hrs on a report. 6 hrs max. Now, the time i spent is getting longer. I jus spent 7 hrs on a report today. and i heard that i have 2 reports due on the same day. Why am i getting stupider? i think i knock my head too many times liao. I knock my head twice in the last 2 weeks and i bet i have killed a lot of brain cells.. sigh... someone help me lah...

some things learnt..

I have learnt a couple of new stuff these few days. Nothing to do with school and work though. I am not paying attention to things in class already...

The first thing that i have learnt is that singapore is a damn small place... on tues, i went to receive my scholarship at a super ulu place in little india. And guess what? i met 2 frens there. The first one was a st john fren that i haven met in years.... I dun even keep her number anymore but she called my bf to get my number coz she tot she saw me. The second was a uni fren and we happened to be getting the same scholarship. Wed evening, i met a sec 4 fren while i was waiting for my dad along the road. And today, i met a st john fren when i was out for a movie with a fren. Singapore so small....

The second thing that i have learnt is the principle behind having a green and red screen during eye check. At first i thought it was only for astimatism. Yesterday, when i was checking my eyes again, i finally realised that it also help to check for over power and under power. The number was to check for over/under power and the circles help to check for astimatism. I have been wearing glasses since i was 8 years old and have been to so many eye checks and yet, i only learnt abt this today. Anyway, i like that optical shop. The ppl are friendly and the specs are not too ex. I shall return from now on.. hehe....

So many new things learnt... I read something today to do with lessons too: There is no regrets in life, only lessons learnt. Pretty nice right?

what changed the course of your life?

Jus read this from a friend's blog. What were the things that changed the course of your life?

I think the top of the list would be going to RV. It really changed the course of my entire life. I cannot imagine what would have happened to me if I had chosen to enter the same neighourhood school as the rest of my friends. If I had not entered RV, I probably would not have such a high flyer in the family coz I would have lower standards of myself. I probably would not have achieved good grades for my o'levels with so little effort and I definitely would not have thought of even going to HC or even NJ and I would probably not be in NTU today. If I hadn't gone to RV, I would not have met those ppl from RV, not have joined St John and not have known hz and not have known my great friends from JC (both from NJ and HC) and definitely. And if I haven joined RV and was forced to cut my hair short, I would not have considered SJAB as my CCA. No doubt I drifted apart from my primary school clique; I have never ever regretted my choice for having gone to RV coz I've gained a lot more than I lost.

The second thing that changed my life was joining SJAB as my CCA. Joining St John was one of the wisest decision that I have made. I really loved the days as a St John cadet. All the courses and hardships helped to sculpt me into the person I am today. I used to be a willful, selfish, bad tempered and stubborn girl. St John made me grow out of my protected shell and threw me into a different world. I've learnt a lot of precious lessons that the school had never taught me. I've also made some very great friends whom I know I can always count on. I guess the most important thing that has happened to me was that I got to meet hz through St John. He was the nicest thing that has ever happened to me. So whenever my juniors asked me why I want to continue with St John, I guessed I was trying to repay St John for all that has happened to me. And I was hoping that I could make a difference in another person's life just like St John has made a difference to mine.

What about you? What events changed the course of your life?

4D lao yu sheng 2006

I had my sec 4 class's annual gathering today. This year marks the 7th year of our lao yu sheng. I hope that we will continue to meet every year until we grow really old. Like a friend mentioned, the next time we get gatherings, we will need double the number of tables and chairs coz we will bring along our partners and further now the road, we probably need a while restaurant coz we have families. I love being with my sec 4 class. I always feel very much at ease with them. Maybe it was because they saw the stupidest side of me. I am forever so noisy and loud and totally no image with them. But I dun care lah.. coz I jus like it.. and I know that they dun mind.. hehe...

The gathering was such great fun. There was a total of 16 ppl out 20 locals. The PRCs seldom turn up. We first had dinner at Ichiban, causeway point where the food's pretty good. After that we da bao yu sheng to lao at some void deck. And we ended up standing around the playground and chat.

I am pretty impressed with the things that we can chat about. We talked about relationships, reminisce about secondary school, heard stories about our frens in JC (esp about Poh), talked about shopping and a bit of other stuff. Qiulin even mentioned that this is the first time our conversation went so much in depth.

I am really looking forward to see the class again next time and hopefully at the end of the year coz those ppl who are overseas could not join us for gatherings. I feel so happy now... 4D you rocks!!

Okay.. now time for some photos.

The yu sheng before we added all the extra stuff. Looks and taste good wor. Look at the fish! So nicely arranged and its so super fresh... yummy...

After all the extra stuff. Now the fish is covered by the crackers. So are the lemons. That explains why we realized that we forgot to add in the lemon after we lao finish.

Getting ready for action. Ready, get set, GO!!

After the action. Looks well mixed right? Tasty...

Group photo of everyone who turned up.

Taken at the playground. Realised that someone is missing? Yes, that's me! Coz I was taking the photo. I took it from the top of the slide. Wanted to use slow flash coz the colour will be nicer but my hands are not stable enough...

CNY photos

What food do you think of during CNY reunion dinner? STEAMBOAT! Look at all the food.. yummy yummy.. No photos of the CNY cookies trolley. Will take a photo of the remains when i am free.

Dinner on New Year's eve. We can never sit at the same table at the same time so we always have to take shifts. I think this is the last shift coz you can see me! Find me...

Dinner on 大年初一. We are always eating leftovers for CNY although we always prepare a separate set of food. But its pretty obvious that the food is much lesser than new year's eve.

Lao Yu Sheng.. its always a messy affair. But its fun!! This year i decided to skip the fun and be the camera-man. Sounds noble but the main reason is coz i dun want to get my hands dirty.. haa...

The Yu Sheng.. The original one does not look like this. We added a lot of self prepared ingredients. Very yummy....

Remains of the yu sheng.. We have superb appetite right?

KTV after dinner... Seems like everyone's having fun.. it was pretty funny to sing with my cousins but the time was too short..

My new year outfit.. I know i look ugly. my sister lah. bad photography skills. And you cant see my shoes....
Silly photo taken by the road side.. my brother not 配合 one.. not fun. And we missed a mercz cab while taking this photo.. sad sad...

Me and the guy of my dreams. Too bad he's attached liao.. so am i.. sigh.. haha.. my handsome cousin. Very mascular and shuai hor? And the hands do not belong to us. Belong to my 2 other cousins who were sitting beside us...

There.. the culprits are here. My cousin beside me weigh more than double my weight.. omg.. that explains why i simply love sitting beside him coz it makes me feel thinner...

My youngest 舅舅 son. He's so chubby but too bad his eyes are too small.. I always loved kids with big lovely eyes.. anyway.. i really like this photo.. coz i think i look great.. haahaa.. so different from my sister's shot... But then, not fair to compare coz this photo was taken by a professional camera.

Okay.. i think everyone's getting confused with my cousins. Next time if i got chance.. i shall introduce them to you one by one.. after i've collected photos of everyone. But i am closer to my dad's side, so most likely i am talking about my cousins on that side when i talk about cousins...

Let's welcome Mr Dog!

Its a whole new year again. Let's welcome Mr Dog.. this means that my sister is 24 already! wah.. so old.. 2 years later it will be my turn. Shit lah...

Anyway, i had a whoopping 1 week of holidays! This includes my self-declared Friday off and the extra wed and thurs that the school has given us. But.. i din really do much this holidays. I realised that preparation for new year has kept me really busy and yet, the actualy thing is so boring.

I went shopping from mon all the way to thurs. On friday evening got my uncle's company dinner so i only packed a bit of the house in the afternoon. But i bought 2 very pretty tops at MS on friday evening. That includes my new year top. I din want to buy new clothes for new year but i cannot resist pretty clothes. I also bought a pair of shoes for new year at MS. Sat morn was busy too. I went out to my aunt's house to trim my eye brow then i went to look for a tube for my top. Din realised a tube was so hard to find. But i finally found one at my trusted Metro. I also bought nail polish and a concealer from Esprit. Went home late in the afternoon and continue packing my room. Managed to clear a lot of things except my cupboard and my clothes. At night was super 热闹 coz it was renunion dinner and everyone was at my house. I always loved family gatherings. I love the noise and the fun.

Sunday was 大年初一. I din really want to go up to my 外婆's place coz she jus passed away last year and my mummy's side cannot celebrate new year so its very weird. That time my grandfather passed away, we also never go up for 3 whole years loh. Sigh.. but mummy say must go up pay respects, so go loh. At least this year no need to go up so early. I woke up at 8am den mummy say we can sleep till 10am. In the end, we reached at 12noon and only stayed till 3pm. Nowhere to go so we went home loh. So boring.... i almost went mad waiting for my other cousins to visit. Luckily i din have to wait very long. Ppl starting coming up at 5pm... After dinner, we went to sing KTV. At first we couldn't find a place to go coz everywhere was so ex and we wanted not to go. But one of my cousin was so looking forward to going (since he missed the KTV with us last year) that he asked his mummy if he can go very very early in advanced. So we decided to go in the end and thanks to my cousin, we found a very cheap place! Called Dynasty KTV at Peace Centre. Its actually a night club but they have KTV too. And its damn cheap!! We paid less than $100 for 2.5 hours for 13 ppl. Cool!!

大年初二: i also never go out. I stayed at home and packed the remaining of my room. Cleared a lot of old clothes and bags! So now i have less than 60 bags liao. But i think the number should not be too far off since i bought more bags since my last count. At night i went to a cousin's place to visit a very old 姑婆. Woah.. got so many ppl that night loh. Coz there were not only my family, still got my cousin's other side of the family...

大年初三: i really stayed at home the whole day.... Talked to hz on the phone for a couple of hours in the afternoon. Other than that, i stayed at home. But at night got visitors so i got more ang baos and good food. hehe...

大年初四: went xiling's house to have steamboat and yu sheng. But my main purpose was to play with her niece. She's so cuteeeeeeeeee... And its the first time in dunno how long since i've been to pandan gardens since RV moved. Looking at the place really bring back a lot of memories. I really missed the place a lot. If only we are moving back. Sad sad....

I have been eating a lot of junk these few days. Tomorrow i am going for aerobics class! Finally, after stopping for a week. i really need to burn off all my fats man.. And photos will be coming up soon...