hot day

i meant hot as in literally hot and my temper very hot... i had a cold shower and an ice cream. managed to cool me down quite a lot... really cooled me down.. i can think better after that..

sigh.. anyway.. it started coz my teacher was chasing us out of school today. den she said that the juniors are in a hurry to leave. they said(the juniors) that their life do not revolve around st john. Den i got so irritated. Like mine does yar? i dun even have to do so much stuff if they really do get their stuff done. OMG... such an ungrateful bunch of kids. In fact i dun even need to come back leh. I cant get a job coz of this anniversary stuff and i got nothing out of it ok? spoilt brats.

i was really angry for very long. And the parents are complaining. Say something like if we say 5 have to let them off at 5pm. den my mum has to call and complain that nv see me at home. Made my blood boil. Like their parents will complain mine dun complain ya? Only they are doing stuff ah? And please loh, they are not even doing their stuff properly so the least they can do is to shut their mouth up ya?

I nv expected thanks for helping. I am a volunteer and i happily sacrifice my time. But the least they can do is to keep quiet them they do not have better things to say.

sigh.. anyway.. after thinking about it for quite a while. Why am i so worked up for? Maybe it isn't what they said, I only heard it from the teacher. And my teacher has a habit of misunderstanding what ppl really meant.

the cold shower really worked. I felt so much better now. More open and receptive to things. I should learn to control my emotions.

30th may 2005

a week since my last blog.. not like nothing happened but like a friend said... the feeling is lost by the time you get to the computer and you dun feel like blogging anymore..

well.. today something interesting happened.. hehe.. not very interesting lah.. but i got to go out with hz today. i hear groanings. Hey.. its a monday and he's supposed to be working loh but he off and he decided that he wants to come out with me instead of sitting at home with his computer. So happy! but he come out must find things to argue with me. Keep asking me why that little thing (some abnormal growth) on my arm havs not heal yet and keep asking me if i got see the doctor. He added that tell me so much oso no use, i wun listen and i will regret it. Hello... my skin got anything to do with you? i already very irritated over my face and my legs liao.. do you still have to rub into it?

His words made me think of something. Probably i was being sensitive but maybe he started to 嫌弃 me? i really think that i've became uglier since i left JC. I cannot help but feel sad that he, of all ppl, has to judge me by my appearance. But i think i am being silly lah.. he's not such a person. At his age, he would want a gf who's presentable that you can bring to meet your friends... i think all guys are like that...

Anyway, it brought me back to a classmate of mine. We jus had JC class gathering on sunday den got this fren of mine who slimmed down a lot. She used to be bigger size(slightly) den me and i think she's now a lot slimmer than me. Can even say she's not on the small side. A classmate asked what happened den she said she went jogging. Den my fren commented that she looks different. Den she said something like:" good mah, den i have a chance to get a bf."

Her words really made me think a lot. Guys really judge girls by appearance? I think its so sad. And i was thinking, if i ever really break up with hz, i will jus be left on the shelf coz i think i m so ugly now. Scars all over the place. oh my goodness....

sigh... but i guess the world is like that lah. Looks is always what attracts you to that person in the first place. Frankly speaking, i wun want to be a person who's ugly. But seriously, appearance is not the first thing on my list. It is probably one of those but definitely not the most impt. But its hard to say lah. I probably wun think so when the thing really happen to me. I hope that i wun have to choose another person. sigh... life...

happy birthday!

first.. i would like to wish junie a very happy 21st birthday as well as to my darling..

sunday i went to junie's birthday party. Din know a lot of people there except for the "pretty girls". But ting din managed to make it. So we are short of 1 pretty girl. After the party we went to sing KTV. The person at K-Box was so irritating... she keep trying to push us (junie's frens and us) into one room and we do not want coz its so weird. Den in the end she says we has to wait. Den in the end someone behind us get a room while we did not. After waiting for a while, we decided to ask again den she still says dunno if got room or not. So we said we want to go party world loh. Den she immediately says wait for another 15 to 25 mins. Haha.. we got the room in under 10 mins. What an effective way! but i seriously cannot stand her lah..

anyway.. she din spoil our mood. we had real great fun singing and shouting. i haven had such fun for a very long time liao. really miss those girls! some ppl like them are those whom you can dun meet for very long and still have tons to talk about. i'm looking forward to the next gathering with them.

flood of emotions

sigh.. today's the day...

i was shocked when i see the results coz i wasn't really prepared.. den when i click i saw the reality right in front of my eyes...

sigh.. wat was i supposed to feel.. shocked? surprised? expected? disappointed? or i deserve my results?

dunno.. i know that i haven been working hard. Blame myself for not putting in enough effort? Blame the school for all the drilling work during exams and lectures? Blame them for putting all 4 tutorials on the same day? Or blame my tuition centre for not having enough teachers then i have to take classes until i have no time to study? Who's fault? i have no idea...

okay.. frankly speaking.. my results is not that bad.. jus the worst of all the semesters loh.. sigh.. . maybe i was too complacent.. sigh.. wat to do? work harder next sem loh... sigh...

beautiful pictures

nothing to blog so i decided to post some very nice anime pictures.. obtained from doing the quizzes here..

http://www.quizilla.com/users/lilsweetchic2000/quizzes/

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

finally

hmm.. i finally rmb what i have to blog about.. haha..

first i start with last sat. 14th may.. a bit long ago but yar.. its a day to rmb..
Its the day i sent my very good friend off at the airport. Maybe this might be the last time in at least 4 years that i will get to see him. No doubt we do not meet very often even when he's in sg but the thought of not being able to ask him out wheneven i want and not being able to talk to him whenever's possible is so sad. At first i tot i will not feel sad. But as i saw him walking off with tears brimming in his eyes.. OMG.. that shatters all my beliefs. For that instant when i saw him walking in, i really feel like crying. I wish you all the best, Sam. Will miss you.

anyway, let's talk about today. I plan to make it a short blog.

I started the day with a call from dad telling me that my 外婆 is hospitalised. Was deciding whether i should cancel movie or dinner with my friends. In the end, i cancelled dinner as i haven met the friend whom i am meeting for movie for very long. We went to watch Kingdom of Heaven.

Wah.. a very.. er hm.... messy show? i din really catch the story. Maybe coz i ain't a christian. And i tot that all the fighting too gruesome. OMG.. not a very nice show.. more for guys than girls i would say...

Den after movie, i went to library to "fight" for a book. Haha.. coz this book "key of knowledge" by Nora Roberts is hot lah.. everyone fighting for it so i went to grab it the moment its status hit "not-on-loan" in woodlands lib. Luckily it wasn't up on the shelf yet and i managed to get it. The result of persistance and now i am on my way to completing her first triology in order. Meaning from the first story to the last instead of jumping around.

After library, i went to meet my sister n brothers to go hospital together. Hz even offered to come along. So sweet of him... But we got there early and so we went to walk around orchard before meeting my siblings n my mother in the ward directly. A bit like 见家长 coz he haven met my mother's side relatives before. Glad that he does not feel awkward. At least he hides it well. Anyway, he's real sweet to have came with me. It made me rmb the time when his granny passed away. I was such a horrible gf. If he sees this, I jus want to say I am sorry. Very very sorry.

lost..

dunno leh.. i recently not much mood to blog.. wanted to talk about this book that i've finished reading but dun feel like it.. will do it when i feel like it.. i am into my 3rd book liao.. actually its only 3rd book.. wanted to try and beat my friend's record of 60 books during the last holidays.. but i am beginning to think that its not really possible..

going to keep this place alive before i get my results.. coz after that i am dead... and this place is probably gg to die soon...

chalet

i jus came back from my class chalet. Brought a lot of stuff back from the chalet.. bought quite a lot den nv finished using. We bought charcoal too but in the end nv use coz it rained in the morning so we had steamboat instead.

I was pretty disappointed on the first day coz only 3 ppl met me to check in the chalet. Den after checking the inventory, we sat down to teach lam how to play dai di. Cant believe that he does not know how to play at the age of 21! After a while, i left for tuition den came back at night. Most of the people came at night so it was pretty 热闹. We sat there and chit chat den some were playing mahjong. Towards the end, everyone sat in front of the tv on the sofa and started chatting. We talked about everyone under the sun literally. From school to tuition to science and every humans and insects. Slept at 4am.

Next morn we got out of the place at 11am to had brunch. Den it started raining.. OMG.. so sian... since i had to go back to take food, we decided to change to steamboat. All the stuff so heavy. Den i think i long nv carry stuff liao other den my notes.. so now my arms are aching.. ouch.. LY and me took a cab back and the taxi uncle was very chatty. Not irritating but pretty funny. Den he asked us about school and asked us how do we rmb how to sing our RV school song. OPPS... me and ly was stunned for a while.. we took the whole journey back trying to recall the school song and that became the question for the day.

At night more ppl joined us for steamboat. I really think my class very creative. We used the microwave to cook chicken wings coz cannot fit onto the bbq tray. Den we removed the meat from the satay, separated the meat from the fats and cooked on the hotplate. But no one wants to the eat the prawns even thou i've de-shelled them. I think i like finished like 40 prawns? Oh my, so high in cholesterol. I think i am gg to die liao lah... but we managed to finish most of the food. Threw away quite a bit of sotong but not a lot of food was left lah. Not like previous years...

Oh my, i really love this class of mine. Cant believe that we wasted a whole year quarrelling with each other instead of getting to know each other better... sigh.. guess we were all too childish at that time. Looking forward to seeing them again...

last meeting with chung sang

Today's a sad day. Mr Wee was cremated and I met my good friend for a last time.

I have this pretty close lower friend. Well, i do not keep in touch with a lot of my lower sec friends but he's like an exception other den En En n Hoi Tung. But the sad thing is i will not be able to meet him anymore coz he's leaving Singapore for good. He's going to pursue his dream in Hong Kong, his hometown. I really wish him all the best even though i know i will miss him.

He's a very creative person and its very sad singapore has no place for someone like him. We are more concerned about certificates after certificates and no one has room to accomodate a creative mind like him. So he's leaving for a place which might appreciate him. Sincerely wish him all the best. Will miss you Chung Sang!

Anyway, we met for lunch today. We went Far East to eat chicken rice under candlelight coz they doing some repairs to the electricity. So romantic.. Den after lunch, we walked ard the place a bit den when we wanted to leave we was caught in the rain.. sian..

After waiting for a while, we went to eat the hong kong dessert. I had mango pudding.. wow... so nice!!! But its pretty expensive.. cannot eat too much... hoi tung and chung sang both said that the ambience is so diff from HK's one coz HK's one is more tea house like while ours is more modern.

Anyway, after lunch, we went taka coz i want to find a birthday present. Den chung sang taught me something about cuff links.. din know that we have to match it to the belt! and he even heard about the pen that i wanted to see.. haven met a second person who does.. But after looking around for so much, i haven bought anything.... maybe i will go back another day.. still got a bit of time..

I left at around 5pm coz i have tuition and we each went our own way. I feel so sad coz i cant bear saying good bye. Den when i went tuition, i think my students oso think i look upset den they keep saying tt i went out of love...

sigh.... why do things have to change? And ppl have to go? very sad... =(

040505

Since huimin was jealous, i shall blog a bit about 4th May too.

It was one day after my exam. I think i was in an after-exam syndrome when i realised that i woke up at 8am!! Din wanted to go back to bed so woke up and did quite a lot of things. Sent out 4 resumes in the morning and finished my lab report. As i started my report pretty late, i finished late and went to school late. So in the end huimin had to wait for me in school.

Den we went to orchard to meet rena. We went to Pacific Plaza first to take Huimin's fossil watch den she talked about the Vincent watch incident. She said the person there spoilt her watch after changing the batt den when she wanted them to repair, they said that it would cost her $70. Den huimin says she wants to bring down to Pac Plaza to repair den the guy said will cost her abt $90. In the end huimin only spent $8. I think i am going to condemn that place liao. That time i bot hz's watch there too and even though our watches was bought at about the same time, his watch keep spoiling..

Anyway, we walk around in taka and took 10 years to get to heerens. In the end we did speed shopping but i din get anything. And we missed my billy bombers so in the end we had mudpie at NYDC. Reminded me of the time during JC when my class went NYDC to have lunch after a Phy paper. Nice memories....

Anyway, after the mudpie we went home. So sian coz i din get to buy anything..

050505

Today's an interesting day. Guess why? Coz its the 5th of May in the year of 2005! 050505. When will u ever get another one?

Anyway, i spent today shopping!

I woke up at 1030 den bath and went to RV to meet Mrs Tan regarding some stuff.

Den i went PSA bldg to look for Ju to take some stuff from her. AL also joined us and showed us Jov's birthday present. Very nice!! Den we have lunch at PSA bldg. As Ju was working at Obriens, we had sandwiches from there and drank smoothie and fruit drink. Very nice! And cheap! Coz ju only charged us for one sandwich. So yummy!! We sat there to chat and eat and watch lightning strike across the sky. Den on the way to the toilet i saw this little stall which sells bags. I saw this very very very nice handbag and i bought it for $17!! You can see it in the picture. And the sales girls very funny and friendly. I might consider buying more from them since i am a bag freak!

After buying the bag, we walked to the bus stop in the rain to take bus to orchard. Had to change at Harbour Front and we waited so super longgggggg for the bus to come. Finally it came. Den on the way to orchard, we started talking a lot. Actually we started talking even when we left the place. Its so comfortable to be with AL. I dunno why oso, everytime i with her i very stress-free coz we can talk about anything under the world. I can jus complain to her, tell her problems and i always feel like she can really understand. Thanks gal!!

When we reached orchard, we are supposed to go toys R us to get application form for retail assistant. I only go there to fill for AL's fren. But along the way we had too much distractions. We went Tang's food court to buy sugar cane, went cineleisure to buy fruits, look at bread and look at ice cream. Den we went esprit to look and try jackets. We really only tried jackets. Den we went Zara to try clothes. But all nv buy. haha.. finally we made it to toys R us den filled the form and went off.

Den we went heerens. Walked around den i bought my shoes! 19.90.. very cheap and nice. we wanted to buy slippers but found nothing nice. And i bot huimin's skirt for her too. haha.. she must be very happy.. And i had billy bombers finally. AL's the best! haha..

We went home after eating and i felt so happy the whole day. Met the few most impt ppl of my life and had a very fufilling day.

WW IV

Here's how my table looks like during the exam.

This was taken jus the day before my last paper. You can see pens strewn all over the table. Well, that's always how i study.

At the top right hand corner u see my fav Jolin's new album. I will listen when i study until very sian.

U also see my clock right in front of me so that i will know how slowly i have been studying.

U also see a bottle of walnuts. My brain food! My aunt says very good for brain so i take a lot during the exam. That was once i took so much until i had an upset stomach.

I have a dictionary there for this paper too as it was law. And i realised that my english is so poor that i do not understand the books and have to keep checking the dictionary.

Not to forget my dear Nalgene pink bottle. But i do not drink too much coz i do not want to keep going to the toilet.. so troublesome...

Right in the middle of the table is my notes.. usually u will see more notes but as its the last paper, most of my notes are tucked away in a corner, waiting for me to put them into files...

Textbooks

here's my collection of textbooks since year 1.. a grand total of 12 books. My most expensive book (Molecular Biology of THE CELL) is hidden but u can make out a bit of the top of the grey book. I have some others photocopied textbooks which i file together with my notes and i have another textbook with a friend. I was thinking that if i continue to buy, at the end of year 4, i will be sleeping on paper coz i have no place to put them.

quiz

Go take a quiz about me at the following link:

http://www.quizyourfriends.com/yourquiz.php?quizname=050504144917-120242&email=dratigar@singnet.com.sg

end of my one month agony

YEAH!!!

its finally over!!

sigh... my agony is finally over. I felt super happy and excited for a long time after the paper. I felt like i have a lot of energy. I went jp shopping den i went causeway point. I wanted to buy a pair of shorts but din find anything in the end. I even went to the library to borrow some storybooks. Its like an after-exam ritual. I had enough of reading lecture notes. I had a friend who read 60 books last sem? Maybe i can try to break her record? (",)

My after-exam resolution is to find a job. Maybe try and get an internship with A*?

Den i want to learn HTML, photostop and driving. I have been wanting to do all these for a while liao.. i hope i can get something done?

the next few weeks is going to be full of fun and fun and more fun.....

kids

i wanted to blog about this last week but it slipped my mind...

Last saturday was mad-day. Actually every saturday is coz i have tuition with a bunch of monsters but last saturday was really bad.

Saturday class is very stressful as there is this girl in class whose parents complained that cannot learn coz the class is very noisy and the teacher dun teach den always give us work to do in class. I give them work to do in class coz when there worksheets leave the centreu, they nv make it back again. Either that or its nv do. SO i am very scared to give them homework den i always let them do in class. Now here's another problem, they are so noisy and always gossip den nv do work. Last Saturday i gave them like 6 super simple questions to finish and they keep taking longer and longer to finish. I was already very stressed over my 208 paper den i was not in a good mood. Den they still test my patience. A student even stood on the chair and when i shout at him to get down he screamed back at me. Den when i got him to stand outside, he even scold me si san ba. OMG.. what's the world coming to? Kids have totally no manners nowadays.

I jus found out this friday that the boy had a broken family den the dad dotes on him a lot. I think he is probably feeling very lost and thus explains his behaviour. But i think the parents are at fault too. My cousins' parents are divorced when they were quite young too but they do not seem to have such behaviour problems. And my students are about the same age as some of my cousins but somehow they are so different. They made me realised that my cousins are SOOOOOO well-behaved. They make my cousins look like angels.

And during today's class, sigh.. i got them to do a test.. den in the end.. they took so long to finish as usual... But they are more well-behaved today except for the boys. And i realised that they keep using vulgarities. actually its not really vulgaries but very indecent words like kao bei kao bu ( cry father cry mother in hokkien, meant to describe someone very naggy or noisy). They do not even know the meaning of what they are saying and they are using it like nothing. They even tell me that their parents say them at home. OMG... parents...

Sigh.. actually.. sometimes its not the teachers do not want to teach or cannot teach.. but the first education always begin at home. Its the place which will mould you into the future person. I am very grateful to my family. We are a very strict family and they do not condone mis-conducts. And thanks to my dad, i know that i cannot be like him. He always scold vulgarities but i guess its not his fault coz its the culture plus the lack of education. But my dad is a very nice person and i inherited my bad temper from him. My aunts also keep telling us that we cannot be like out dad coz we are educated and stuff. I guess not every kid is as sensible as me and they are the ones who need guidance from the parents or the teachers.

Seriously, i think that family influence is very important. Parents should always take it upon themselves to educated their children, especially on basics like manners and respect. They cannot always depend on the teacher one...

I sincerely hope i can help these kids out.. they are a nice bunch of kids but if no one helps them.. they are going to spoil their own future...

back to the old one

i have decided to change my blog back to the old one.. the new one can only be a picture.. meaning zhong ka bu zhong yong...

i still think my old one is the best.. i am going to look for a nice one after my exams..

3 more days to freedom!!