a week since my last blog.. not like nothing happened but like a friend said... the feeling is lost by the time you get to the computer and you dun feel like blogging anymore..
well.. today something interesting happened.. hehe.. not very interesting lah.. but i got to go out with hz today. i hear groanings. Hey.. its a monday and he's supposed to be working loh but he off and he decided that he wants to come out with me instead of sitting at home with his computer. So happy! but he come out must find things to argue with me. Keep asking me why that little thing (some abnormal growth) on my arm havs not heal yet and keep asking me if i got see the doctor. He added that tell me so much oso no use, i wun listen and i will regret it. Hello... my skin got anything to do with you? i already very irritated over my face and my legs liao.. do you still have to rub into it?
His words made me think of something. Probably i was being sensitive but maybe he started to 嫌弃 me? i really think that i've became uglier since i left JC. I cannot help but feel sad that he, of all ppl, has to judge me by my appearance. But i think i am being silly lah.. he's not such a person. At his age, he would want a gf who's presentable that you can bring to meet your friends... i think all guys are like that...
Anyway, it brought me back to a classmate of mine. We jus had JC class gathering on sunday den got this fren of mine who slimmed down a lot. She used to be bigger size(slightly) den me and i think she's now a lot slimmer than me. Can even say she's not on the small side. A classmate asked what happened den she said she went jogging. Den my fren commented that she looks different. Den she said something like:" good mah, den i have a chance to get a bf."
Her words really made me think a lot. Guys really judge girls by appearance? I think its so sad. And i was thinking, if i ever really break up with hz, i will jus be left on the shelf coz i think i m so ugly now. Scars all over the place. oh my goodness....
sigh... but i guess the world is like that lah. Looks is always what attracts you to that person in the first place. Frankly speaking, i wun want to be a person who's ugly. But seriously, appearance is not the first thing on my list. It is probably one of those but definitely not the most impt. But its hard to say lah. I probably wun think so when the thing really happen to me. I hope that i wun have to choose another person. sigh... life...
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