Exactly. So we should be making full use of our lives and do something meaningful with it right?
I have been living on earth for more than 2 decades. But why do I feel like I have not been making good use of my 24hrs a day. I am always rushing from place to place and making use of my time. I always thought that waiting is a total waste of my precious. My life is packed with activity but why do I still feel so empty?
For many months, I have not been able to have a good conversation with my parents. I have never had time to think of what I want to do today because my calendar is forever packed with stuff. I have not been able to play games with my cousin, chase them around the place and read to them. I have not been able to notice the rising bright sun as I am always running off. I have never been able to notice that pretty little flower that was sprouting from the grounds. I do not have time for my friends. No time to go to the gym. And my shopping time is actually time between tuitions.
I simply do not know how to put down everything. But all I know is that I have failed to realize that life is much prettier if I simply slow down my footsteps and give myself some breathing space.
I just feel so tired… I want to be a good friend, good gf, good daughter but I seemed to be failing in everything I do. I am really tired of running around. I want to slow down my footsteps and appreciate all that is going around me. I want to be able to stroll home without worrying that someone will call me and start scolding me for being home late. I want to sit in the library and read my favourite books and drink a nice cup of smoothie. I want to go blading in East Coast. I want to go Hume Park swimming. I want to go Sentosa and sit them and bask in the wonderful sun. I want to try out Settlers' Cafe. I want to go Essential Brews and chat with my friends just like the good old days. I want to meet hz everything weekend like we used to. There is so much so much I want to do but 24hrs a day and 7 days a week is simply not enough.
I wish time can fly faster so that this year can be over. If I was given a choice to start my life again, I will definitely not choose this path today.
I have been living on earth for more than 2 decades. But why do I feel like I have not been making good use of my 24hrs a day. I am always rushing from place to place and making use of my time. I always thought that waiting is a total waste of my precious. My life is packed with activity but why do I still feel so empty?
For many months, I have not been able to have a good conversation with my parents. I have never had time to think of what I want to do today because my calendar is forever packed with stuff. I have not been able to play games with my cousin, chase them around the place and read to them. I have not been able to notice the rising bright sun as I am always running off. I have never been able to notice that pretty little flower that was sprouting from the grounds. I do not have time for my friends. No time to go to the gym. And my shopping time is actually time between tuitions.
I simply do not know how to put down everything. But all I know is that I have failed to realize that life is much prettier if I simply slow down my footsteps and give myself some breathing space.
I just feel so tired… I want to be a good friend, good gf, good daughter but I seemed to be failing in everything I do. I am really tired of running around. I want to slow down my footsteps and appreciate all that is going around me. I want to be able to stroll home without worrying that someone will call me and start scolding me for being home late. I want to sit in the library and read my favourite books and drink a nice cup of smoothie. I want to go blading in East Coast. I want to go Hume Park swimming. I want to go Sentosa and sit them and bask in the wonderful sun. I want to try out Settlers' Cafe. I want to go Essential Brews and chat with my friends just like the good old days. I want to meet hz everything weekend like we used to. There is so much so much I want to do but 24hrs a day and 7 days a week is simply not enough.
I wish time can fly faster so that this year can be over. If I was given a choice to start my life again, I will definitely not choose this path today.
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