in a serious state of depression

Sigh… wasn’t feeling good these few days. I think I am going through pms. I am really looking forward to a long break but it seems like everything dun always turned out as planned.

I seriously think I should stop reading people’s blogs. They jus make me feel so depressed coz my life is so damn boring compared to them. I really long to go overseas and I really envy those people who are getting a great life overseas, be it for studying, exchange, summer studies or just for a holiday. Even those ppl who are staying in Singapore are getting a life too. Like getting some experience by doing internship. At least they are doing something meaningful. Not like me. Not only did I failed to get my internship, even plans to go overseas were all empty discussions. So here I am in Singapore, feeling so sick and tired of my life. Work dun make me feel good coz the money only stay in my bank for a while and I dread going back to school coz I think my school s*** like mad. Even my relationship seemed to be going downhill. And my luck at gambling s*** like mad. It seems like nothing is going well.

The SK-II mask I bought today seemed to lift my mood a little bit but I still feel very depressed. I hope my mood improve over the next few days…