the end

wow.. yesterday finally ended my no ending days of gg back to RV. Its so super tiring. Now i can finally understand what my dear juniors are going through poor them

Anyway, i started the days on Tuesday (31st May) by going back to RV for the first parade rehearsals. Den on wed(1st June) we had the committee interview. Wow, the interview took so long but we managed to settle the interview and the committee in the same day. On Thurs (2nd June) its was rehearsal again but this time, only got me around coz matt and ailing are unable to come. So in the end i took their rehearsal and OMG, the sun was so scorching hot. I was so red and dark when i got home. YUCKS!! Den on friday, its was rehearsal again together with their handover parade. The sec 4s cannot wait to handover to their juniors. But i think some of them was pretty sad coz got ppl cried.

This was not the end.. sigh... on Saturday got a public duty to do. haha.. supposed to wear full-u but when we got there, uncle teo said no need to change. heehee... On Sunday, i had to bring the kids to watch sinmal com. AL supposed to come with me but she overslept so i told her to stay at home and sleep. All of us haven been getting enough sleep coz we day time go school den night time do paper work n stuff at home. All preparations for anniversary. On Sunday night i still have the sinmal com dinner to attend. sigh... so tired...

but anyway, today and tmr are rest days! i get my break.. haha.. gg to sleep like pig.. even though i know i still got quite a bit of stuff haven do yet.. sigh..they can wait...

half dead

omg.. my lappie jus scared me half to death...

i accidentally got some tea on it den it got angry... the keypad went mad.. i nv touch anything it type "rrrrrrrrrrrrr" all the way... den i press backspace.. it give me gvyr....omg....

sorry darling.. i wun get anything drinks or anything you dun like near you anymore.. dun be angry with me ok? sorry sorry...

anyway.. its working properly now.. sigh.. i was scared stiff...

hot day

i meant hot as in literally hot and my temper very hot... i had a cold shower and an ice cream. managed to cool me down quite a lot... really cooled me down.. i can think better after that..

sigh.. anyway.. it started coz my teacher was chasing us out of school today. den she said that the juniors are in a hurry to leave. they said(the juniors) that their life do not revolve around st john. Den i got so irritated. Like mine does yar? i dun even have to do so much stuff if they really do get their stuff done. OMG... such an ungrateful bunch of kids. In fact i dun even need to come back leh. I cant get a job coz of this anniversary stuff and i got nothing out of it ok? spoilt brats.

i was really angry for very long. And the parents are complaining. Say something like if we say 5 have to let them off at 5pm. den my mum has to call and complain that nv see me at home. Made my blood boil. Like their parents will complain mine dun complain ya? Only they are doing stuff ah? And please loh, they are not even doing their stuff properly so the least they can do is to shut their mouth up ya?

I nv expected thanks for helping. I am a volunteer and i happily sacrifice my time. But the least they can do is to keep quiet them they do not have better things to say.

sigh.. anyway.. after thinking about it for quite a while. Why am i so worked up for? Maybe it isn't what they said, I only heard it from the teacher. And my teacher has a habit of misunderstanding what ppl really meant.

the cold shower really worked. I felt so much better now. More open and receptive to things. I should learn to control my emotions.

30th may 2005

a week since my last blog.. not like nothing happened but like a friend said... the feeling is lost by the time you get to the computer and you dun feel like blogging anymore..

well.. today something interesting happened.. hehe.. not very interesting lah.. but i got to go out with hz today. i hear groanings. Hey.. its a monday and he's supposed to be working loh but he off and he decided that he wants to come out with me instead of sitting at home with his computer. So happy! but he come out must find things to argue with me. Keep asking me why that little thing (some abnormal growth) on my arm havs not heal yet and keep asking me if i got see the doctor. He added that tell me so much oso no use, i wun listen and i will regret it. Hello... my skin got anything to do with you? i already very irritated over my face and my legs liao.. do you still have to rub into it?

His words made me think of something. Probably i was being sensitive but maybe he started to 嫌弃 me? i really think that i've became uglier since i left JC. I cannot help but feel sad that he, of all ppl, has to judge me by my appearance. But i think i am being silly lah.. he's not such a person. At his age, he would want a gf who's presentable that you can bring to meet your friends... i think all guys are like that...

Anyway, it brought me back to a classmate of mine. We jus had JC class gathering on sunday den got this fren of mine who slimmed down a lot. She used to be bigger size(slightly) den me and i think she's now a lot slimmer than me. Can even say she's not on the small side. A classmate asked what happened den she said she went jogging. Den my fren commented that she looks different. Den she said something like:" good mah, den i have a chance to get a bf."

Her words really made me think a lot. Guys really judge girls by appearance? I think its so sad. And i was thinking, if i ever really break up with hz, i will jus be left on the shelf coz i think i m so ugly now. Scars all over the place. oh my goodness....

sigh... but i guess the world is like that lah. Looks is always what attracts you to that person in the first place. Frankly speaking, i wun want to be a person who's ugly. But seriously, appearance is not the first thing on my list. It is probably one of those but definitely not the most impt. But its hard to say lah. I probably wun think so when the thing really happen to me. I hope that i wun have to choose another person. sigh... life...

happy birthday!

first.. i would like to wish junie a very happy 21st birthday as well as to my darling..

sunday i went to junie's birthday party. Din know a lot of people there except for the "pretty girls". But ting din managed to make it. So we are short of 1 pretty girl. After the party we went to sing KTV. The person at K-Box was so irritating... she keep trying to push us (junie's frens and us) into one room and we do not want coz its so weird. Den in the end she says we has to wait. Den in the end someone behind us get a room while we did not. After waiting for a while, we decided to ask again den she still says dunno if got room or not. So we said we want to go party world loh. Den she immediately says wait for another 15 to 25 mins. Haha.. we got the room in under 10 mins. What an effective way! but i seriously cannot stand her lah..

anyway.. she din spoil our mood. we had real great fun singing and shouting. i haven had such fun for a very long time liao. really miss those girls! some ppl like them are those whom you can dun meet for very long and still have tons to talk about. i'm looking forward to the next gathering with them.

flood of emotions

sigh.. today's the day...

i was shocked when i see the results coz i wasn't really prepared.. den when i click i saw the reality right in front of my eyes...

sigh.. wat was i supposed to feel.. shocked? surprised? expected? disappointed? or i deserve my results?

dunno.. i know that i haven been working hard. Blame myself for not putting in enough effort? Blame the school for all the drilling work during exams and lectures? Blame them for putting all 4 tutorials on the same day? Or blame my tuition centre for not having enough teachers then i have to take classes until i have no time to study? Who's fault? i have no idea...

okay.. frankly speaking.. my results is not that bad.. jus the worst of all the semesters loh.. sigh.. . maybe i was too complacent.. sigh.. wat to do? work harder next sem loh... sigh...

beautiful pictures

nothing to blog so i decided to post some very nice anime pictures.. obtained from doing the quizzes here..

http://www.quizilla.com/users/lilsweetchic2000/quizzes/