hit by influenza

sigh... sick now.. with flu.. jus dunno which strain of flu.. Started on sunday lah. Was trying to rush the stupid 202 tut presentation den gotta study for 201 test. That weekend totally no time to study. Saturday's my uncle's wedding den i only got time to do tut den sunday got CPR refresher and spent a whole day at HQ den had dinner with Hz n gang and got home quite late. Reach home liao, sit in front of computer n started sneezing like crazy. Next morn still haven got better. Was sneezing all the way in school. And today not any better.. Was still sneezing but maybe not that bad. But my voice was super sexy. Sigh.. now cannot go near my baby cousin in case i spread the virus to him. Can only talk to him like 1 foot away. =(
And talking abt 202 tut, i m quite sick with a group mate of mine lah. She used to be the one who's doing all the compilation and because i was bz that weekend, i offered to do the compilation and got everyone to send me the stuff. That girl msg me at 930pm on sunday night ( the report is dued on sunday) and said that she oso very busy and got no access to computer. It simply means she cannot send me the stuff loh. I think she is jus trying to get away with it loh. From the 1st tut until now (6th), she nv do any homework one leh.. she only take our answers and den put them together. Sometimes her slides and stuff got so much error one and more often den not, the answers are always distorted. Den on monday, as she is the last one who haven presented in my group, if my group is called she will be the one to present so in order to avoid presenting, she decided to disappear from lesson. So irritating.... next time must make her do something.....

But 202 tut was quite fun.. haha.. not the tutor or content.. but because i brought my laptop to school and was transferring files from jolin's phone (sony ericsson k700i) to my computer n vice versa. quite fun leh.. den we were busy looking at photos on my laptop. In the end, i had no idea wat the whole tut was all abt... i nv pay attention at all. Next time cannot bring laptop to school on monda.. if not i no need to learn anything during tut liao lah....

Den today got a very sian lab... only used my hands for 30 mins. 15 mins was spent on briefing and another 2 hrs was spent on incubation. Den during the break, i went to see liu chuan fa's lab coz a fren is working there as part of a research programme tt's only for students on dean's list. sigh... the dean's list ppl seems to be learning so much more and they know more... dun even know wat they were talking about... felt so stupid.. should have worked harder to get onto dean's list. sigh.. sian..

Family

I attended 2 weddings this past week. 3 this yr so far. 2 weddings belong to my family ( 1 shu shu, 1 jiu jiu) and the 3rd one belongs to a fren. Sounds like wedding bells are in the air and ppl keep asking me when i will get married. Well... i dunno.. but its gonna be quite a long time. Maybe another 4 to 5 years more at least. But i think it will be later than that. So scared that i will be a huang lian po when i get married. (",)

Anyway, my jiu jiu's wedding was nothing fun and my fren's wedding was better but i din had much fun. My shu shu's wedding was the funniest. His wedding is today. Actually its his 2nd marriage then my ah ma dun want it to be too big scale so we jus had a dinner at home and invited close relatives and friends along. Although there was something wrong with the procedures and come cock ups here and there, generally its quite memorable.

Due to some stuff, the tea ceremony for my family's side was held at night. And according to the chinese tradition, the newly wedded couple has to serve tea to the elders and the younger ones has to serve tea to the couple. Usually my family only have the tea ceremony for the adults meaning that the nieces and nephews do not serve tea even though we are younger. However, today we did something else. EVERYONE was to serve tea. Including the younger ones and we got ang baos. I dunno who suggested it but it scared my uncle n new auntie and they tried to escape! But too bad, where can they go? In the end, the tea ceremony was held for us and it was so super funny. There's very little age between my and my cousins. For the older ones like my generation, there is one who is born every year. So we 'queue' up according to age for the ceremony and my uncle insists that if there is anything wrong with the sequence, he will not give ang pao. But even if there is really anything wrong he will not know one coz we know the sequence better then the adults do. And it was very funny coz we decided to disturb my new auntie. Someone tried to praise her to get an extra ang bao and another tried to 'cheat' another ang bao by giving my uncle tea. But both attempts to get extra ang bao failed.

This is surely a wedding that i will not forget and i think my uncle n auntie will not forget too. But this wedding really made my realise how strong is my family bond. We have so much fun together and when there is a problem, everyone stick together too. I still rmb a time when i was talking to my aunt on the phone and a fren commented that i sounded like i was talking to a fren. Luckily i am spending more time with my family now. I finally realised their importance and how much they mean to me. There was this period of teens adolescence when i missed sundays family gatherings. I was either out for st john(most of the time) or out with frens. And i think i miss out a lot of fun, laughter and bonding in the family. I am so glad that i finally woke up and realise the importance of them to me.

I hope we will stay so close all down the generations and i want to build a family that is as strong as the one that i have now.

Who moved my cheese?

Had a guest lecturer today who's supposed to be talking about medical immunology. Haha.. was so excited leh coz its at least something related to my interest. But things do not always go smoothly. I woke up late and was going to be late. Luckily my dad was going to work so i ask him to send me to jurong den i take bus, thinking that i might not be late afterall. In the end, got caught in TWO traffic jams. Took near to 40 mins to get to Jurong. In the end my dad drop me at BL den i take 179 to sch. He wanted to send me to sch one leh.. but the expressway to Tuas got accident den traffic jam. Sian.. Luckily i wasn't late. But the lecture was a bit disappointing. Its either the speaker wasn't very good or our PA system not good, but the person sounds like he's mumbling. I dunno why oso, but i nv fall asleep leh. Instead i listened for the whole lecture. So proud of myself.

Anyway... nothing was smoother later in the day. Even heaven oso go against me. It rained super heavily in the afternoon and I was wet even though there is covered walkway from canteen to school.

After school today, i went JP shopping with chris n saw Jiating leh. Oh my... its like so long nv see her. Really miss the secondary school days. I rmb one of my professors asked the class a question when i was in yr 1. He said 'Given the chance to remain at a stage of your life, which one do you want?' If u ask me the same question now, i will still say 16. Oh, how i love that period in sec 4. I think there is so much to remember from then. My class became super close. I made a lot of close friends. Had a great CCA. Great friends, great teachers, acceptable results, started a great relationship and had a great holiday. I seriously do not mind returning to that stage again. Even if it means taking O'levels all the time. But i know that time cannot be turned back. But i do not understand why do things have to change. I do not mind if things change for the better but i do like it when they change for the worst. Since sec 4, i guess i made a lot of great frens like my 7A frens, esp ting2, eli n huimin. But i lost quite a bit of frens too. Esp a lot of st john pals. Those that have been with me thru all the years. Quite sad to think of it. And a lot of things and people have changed too. How i wish i can make time stop. Really miss sec 4 days.

But i guess the cheese is going to finish one day and we have to go on looking for new cheese. We have to change and grow up one day. I think can only treasure what i have today and enjoy what i have.

First day of school

nothing went smooth today. 202 test was okay... but i forgot stuff that i studied. And after tt was worst.. i nv do tut n she asked me to go n present.. OMG.. present wat?? in the end, i took the ans of the girl sitting beside me. I jus read loh.. no idea was i was reading about....

N later.. the MB102 test was worst... the lecturer gave us chance to talk but no one talk to me... sigh.. in the end.. i think i read qns wrongly and rmb formula wrongly... gonna flunk liao... SIGHHHHHH...........

School reopens

School's starting tmr. With 2 tests to jump-start the semester. Finished studying 202. Halfway thru 102. I am praying hard that tests tmr wun be too hard.

And i went for my last aerobics lessons today. Sad sad, no money to sign up more lessons. Now can only depend on my self-discipline liao. Trying to find time to swim this week or wat. Dun think i will have time. Maybe next week lah. But den hor... so many lessons hor.. i like nv lose weight leh.. instead i like weigh heavier n eat more. So stupid. Now trying to survive on bananas for a few days n see if i will lose some weight.

MAF

Just came back from MAF abt 2hrs ago. So little ppl around... there's even space to stand in the central square. MAF used to be super packed with ppl that ppl overflow to the class bench area. Heard that seniors boycott MAF coz we are changing name. Sigh.. think of the name i oso very sad. Cannot believe that 10 yrs down the road.. no one will understand wat i say if i say tt i was from Hwa Chong Junior College. Jus hope that our songs and mass dance will remain. If not, i see no point in going back anymore.

Anyway, i had a little talk with a fren today. Its something that i have been keeping to myself for a very long time. It felt so good to tell someone and to admit that there is a problem. After having said it out loud, the problem dun seem so big anymore. Maybe i can get down to solving it. Hope so.

Some notes about love...

Love is not wondering how long it will last but how beautiful you can make it grow..

To love someone is not to possess that person, but to know that the person is happy.

It hurts to know that the person you love is happy with someone else but it hurts more to know that the person you love is unhappy with you.

Love without fear and embrace love with all your heart.

Turn the clock back pls...

Wow... so fast holidays is going to be over soon. So sian.. Din really enjoy much leh. The only enjoyment i had was a The Cinderella Story on Monday. Unless you consider tuition as fun. This holidays doesn't feel like a break, instead i felt as if i have more things to do than term time. As of today, i have 3 tests to study for ( 2 are on Monday and 1 on Fri) and 2 lab reports to do (1 is due next mon and 1 next fri) , 3 tutorials to do( all are due on monday) and 1 project research to carry out. OMG!! Where to find time??

I jus went back to school today for project meeting after aerobics and spent the rest of my time there(abt 5 hrs) reading ONLY 3 sets of lect notes on bacteria. N i still have 3 more sets to read. Sigh.. sian...

All the management's fault lah. Everything was so peaceful in school UNTIL they decided that NTU has to be like NUS and started to implement the mid-term tests. I had 1 test jus before the break and tt one is a nightmare. MCQ was still okay but when i got to the open-ended, there's where all the fun come. I had NO idea how to answer. The tutor lied to us. He said that it is going to be like tut but it turns out that this test was so much harder than the tut. I'm disappointed in him. He is supposed to be one of my fav lecturer in the school but he betrayed my trust for him.

Sian lah... i still have to find time to do tut n lab report n study for test. Weekend is gone as sat is MAF n sunday got tuition n aerobics. Maybe can squeeze some time on sunday to do tut. I was happily thinking that this is the only few weekend to relax as i dun have tut presentation to do., But it seems like i have more stuff to do. TIME NO ENOUGH!!! Can someone pls turn back the clock so tt i can have more time to do stuff?? HELP!!

Painful

sigh... the bruise decided to come out today n make itself obvious.. wah.. so big n painful... make me feel so sorry for myself..

anyway.. went for an aerobic class today after stopping for 2 weeks. Seems like not only my hand will hurt, my whole body is going to ache tmr morn.

After aerobics, i went to do a little shopping with my sister. Bought an Adidas water bottle.. find very long liao.. finally found it.. And i bought a bag for 15 dollars at Bugis Village. Its an imitation of Project shop one. Wanted to get original one but too ex lah.. it's 42 loh.. n since no one will be able to know the diff, i decided to get the fake one. But buy liao i felt so guilty. Guilty not because i bought the imitation but guilty coz i jus wasted money on a "want" and not a "need".

Yesterday night when i was going home, i saw this old lady who sat at the foot of the escalator at the MRT station selling tissue paper and i decided to buy some from her. I gave her a dollar and she wanted to give me 5 pkts. But i only took 4. After i've walked away for a while, i decided that i dun want so many pkts so i went back to return her 3 more pkts. In the end, i bought a pkt of tissue for a dollar. Den today, my sister n me saw the same thing at bugis. Looking at all the old ppl trying hard to sell some tissue paper to get some money made me realised how fortunate i am. Make me feel so guilty to be wasting money.. sigh... n i m supposed to save money. Super broke... took cab twice in 1 week... so expensive.

It's so ironical. Some ppl like me are trying hard not too eat jus to buy things and some ppl are trying hard to earn more money jus to eat. Really is shen1 zai1 fu2 zhong1 bu4 zhi1 fu2.

I NEED SLEEP!

Sigh.... the time now is 3.33am.... Rushing BS202 homework as usual. Everytime cannot sleep well on friday night.. den the "tired effect" will snowball until the next week and i will be very tired. Before i get back my energy, the next friday will come. OMG!! How?? Sigh.....

2nd failed blood donation

I went for blood donation today.. But failed... sigh... sad sad.. 2nd time liao.. the first time it was because my Hb level was too low. Den this time it's because my vein ran away. Sounds so funny, but tt's wat the nurse said. She lost my vein after she injected the anti-coagulant and she said tt my vein is small for a gal. Well, this is the first time someone has said tt to me loh. I think my veins strunk as i was too cold. LT a bit siao nowaday, suddenly so cold...

Anyway, the nurse said tt i can go over to HSA to donate 2 weeks from now. After my bruise is gone. BRUISE!!!! sigh... So far the bruise haven really develop yet. Hope tt it dun be too ugly.

Life is short

They say it takes a minute

to find a special person,

an hour to appreciate them,

a day to love them,

but an entire life

to forget them.

Life is short.

Live it!

first day of school

dragged my own feet to school for my first lesson of accounting. wah.. 3.5 hrs leh.. so tiringggggggg..... And its like 3 days after my exams... sigh.... But its not a bad lesson. Really interesting plus got a lot of MATHS. haha.. ever since finance, i dun remember ever using my calculator so much. feels great!

Today learnt about the different statements and how to write a balance sheet. So confusing... but its very fun once u get the hang or it. I'm determined to work hard for this semester. Jus finished the tut for today's lect. (",) Feeling great about myself.