my man

wat's the matter with him? how come he always managed to make me feel bad abt complaining after i did.

Dun understand leh.. but he seems to be able to read my mind coz everytime i complain, the next day or soon after, he will do something to make me happy and make me so guilty abt complaining?

Or has he been reading my blog? dunno.. tot he dun read one...

anyway.. i really miss him a lot.. hope i can have more time with him even though school's started...

weird feelings

why do i feel so neglected?

Yesterday went for dinner with my jc gang and ting's bf met her after the dinner and i wonder when has i ever met him at night after i met my friends. Today, wanted to go with BY n CP to Paya Lebar to collect the trophy but i could not get there in time. Wanted to meet them at orchard instead by CP has to leave at 6pm den BY gg to meet WK after tt so i decided tt i should jus stay at home. BY is always meeting WK and i was thinking how long i haven gone out with him liao.

No doubt harry has made me flew to the top of the world but i still feel like i m not on the top of his important list. Am i asking too much? dunno.. i jus hope tt i can at least go out with him once a week, can chat on the phone properly and at least get a reply to my sms. Sigh... really wish tt i could be his computer. At least i will get to see him everyday and he pays a lot more attention to me than any other things.

first day of school

Today's the first day of school. I'm pretty lucky lah coz i had a late afternoon lecture. I purposely went to school earlier to print notes and luckily i went earlier coz there was a lot of ppl. I waited for a while before i managed to get a computer terminal. And this year, the printing shop sort of upgraded leh coz now can use ez-link card to pay. So cool!! haha.... anyway, the first lecture was quite crap coz lescar is still in paris and joe yoon came to relief and he cannot cover must coz most are to be covered by lescar. In the end, he managed to drag the lesson for 1.5 hrs and finally let us off at 5pm.

After class, i went to Jurong Point to meet Ting, Eli n Huimin. Wow.. so very super long haven met ting ting... We had dinner at Crystal Jade but my La Mian was not very nice. Next time i will rmb not to order the si chuan one. After dinner we went to Swensons for desert. Wow.. so sinful but we had a lot of fun. Was chatting chatting and chatting. haha... so fun!! really missed the girls. After dessert we even got to meet ting ting's bf. We all agree that he looks compatible with ting ting so he passed the test. (",) haha.. And singapore is so super small... we saw rena when we were going home.. haha. so qiao..

anyway.. i had great fun but nv take photos coz huimin's camera no batt lah... sian.. but nvm.. i rmb everything in my mind...looking forward to another gathering with them..

school reopens

school's starting tmr... sian.. first lecture at 330pm... omg...

but actually i am a little looking forward to school.. haha.. rest enough liao lah.. time to work hard..

harry potter completed!

i finally finished potter on friday. Took me 2 days. coz i effectively only started on wed as i got the book on tues night and i still have another book to finish that night.

wow! i must say that i am so impressed with rowling this time. This book is such a far cry from the order of phoenix. I love it so much... I was so carried away by the book that i was beginning to imagine myself in the story and i freak out when i walk alone outside at night coz i was afraid that the Death Eaters might jus appear out of nowhere.

The only bad thing about the book is that Dumbledore died. Killed by Snape, someone he really trusted. Dumbledore is the Headmaster of Hogwarts, the school of magic that Harry goes to. OMG.. i was so sad.. felt like crying also. After having read all the other books, I am beginning to like and respect Dumbledore. I felt like i could really relate to him. Sometimes i really envy Harry for having someone who's so nice and wise to guide him along. sigh....

I am really looking forward to the last book. I cannot wait to see how Harry is going to destroy Voldemort without Dumbledore's guidance. I guess it will be very exciting. Hope that it will not be too disappointing.

I would advise all who wants to read this book to read the previous few books first. If not you might get confused coz rowling kept refering to events which happened in the past. But i can really assure you that you will enjoy the story a lot. Its funny, touching and trilling.

xiaxue's blog part 2

well.. she recovered pretty soon.. late yesterday..her pink trademark was back. apparently the news was so big tt it was on Life! and TODAY. Anyway, i hope that the police catches the guy... mad man.

xiaxue's blog

As most would know, xiaxue is a blogger in singapore who got famous from blogging. Well, we were in the same secondary school and in fact we are from the same batch of students. We used to be on talking terms coz her class was jus next to mine but ever since we got to upper secondary, we stopped talking to each other coz i cannot stand her "ah lian" look and i think she do not want friends in a nerd class like me.

Recently i started to read xiaxue's blog quite regularly. I was never a fan of her but i have to admit that i found her blog entertaining even though i do not agree with some of the things that she says. I am beginning to realise that i quite like her style coz she's very open with what she says and i like the straight forward nature.

Yesterday, as usual, i would click on the link on my blog and read her blog and to my surprise, the pink trade-mark look did not appear. Instead, replaced by it was a template page. At first, i thought that she changed look. However, as i read on, i realised that someone has hacked into her account and deleted her whole blog and all the other blog that she has created!! The person also hacked into her gmail and deleted all 3,000 of her emails which includes impt biz contacts.

Apparently, this person hates xiaxue which i gathered is from what she says on her blog. Even though i do not really like her but i think that what this person did was too much. This is an idiot. I believe that you have to an adult or someone who is proficient in computers in order to learn to hack. OMG.. this guy is totally childish. Why do you have to hurt a person that you hate? Are you going to kill someone whom you cannot stand the look of? OMG.... this guy is mad.

I really feel so sorry for xiaxue coz it was all her effort for the past few years. I would be very angry if i have put in so much effort and *ding* it jus gone like that. Hope that she can get the culprit soon.

gathering day

not a bad day leh...

i started the day by going to youyi's house to play mahjong. Lost like mad but nvm.. din play a lot of money.. den after tt met 7A for dinner at the glass house. A bit pathetic coz only got ard 8 ppl initially den increased to abt 11. But we ended the day early coz the guys wanted to go and play game. duh....

after that i went esplanade to meet the st john gals. haha.. had so much fun with them even though its only for a little while. a bunch of mad gals but i really loveeee them.. (",) looking forward to another day with them. We literallly did nothing except to take photos and sat there and rot. got quite a couple of weird looks from other ppl but i guess we jus bo chup lah...

quite a fufilling day.. feeling good abt it...

new look!

i did something drastic today... well i changed my look.. guessed wat i did?

i rebonded my hair!

i pondered for a long time before i finally made up my mind to do it. Even when i was at the hairdresser, kylie kept asking me if i am sure.

well.. some ppl said that my curly hair looks better but some other ppl think otherwise. For myself.. i am alright with both straight and curly hair lah. Straight hair easier to maintain coz i no need to curl in the morn and i can finally comb my hair. But I have to rmb not to tuck behind my ear and cannot tie.

Anyway, i still cannot get use to this new look. Missed my curls!

it finally came

yeah... harry finally came!! Going to start reading it today. SO exciting.....

BUT i broke my mum's vase in the process. Dunno what happened but i guess i pulled on something when i signed the dumb receipt... so irritated. Going to find the same one or a nicer one for my mum...

and.. i think my little bro is in love.. haha.. with my cousin.. dunno why.. but i feel so happy for him. haha...

so disapointed

abt a week ago.. i blog abt this mysterious person who sent me harry potter. the book was supposed to come on saturday but i was busy with my granny's wake and wasn't at home.

today.. supposed to come today one... waited whole day at home anticipating its arrival. and in the end?? NEVER COME!!

wah.. so disappointed and angry. i even called to check and the person said my book is on its way. first thing tmr morning. COMPLAIN!

so sad.... *sobzzz*... was looking forward to the book so much...

tired..

my 外婆 was peacefully buried yesterday at lim chu kang cemetery.. sigh.. really cannot stand her going.. and the undertaker sucks leh.. all so messy.. and my ah ma keep complaining that a lot of things were wrong but too late liao.. so we 将错就错 loh.. luckily my 外婆 very 随便 one.. anything oso can..

anyway, after the burial we came home.. like very bad coz like got some stuff haven finish den my 姑姑 keep pushing us to come home coz she wants to go back. Den she keep saying that leave the things there for them to do. Its so bad leh.. coz the four of us are the eldest but never help much.. like not part of the family like that. 外孙 so wat? not part of the family meh.. .sian.. some drawbacks of chinese traditions..

After got time bath and sleep for 12 hours!! Was super late for tuition in the morning.. such a bad teacher coz i am late for nearly all my lessons.. sian..

Anyway, i would really like to thank everyone who have came down and offered their support. esp to my dear who have been there nearly everyday. Thanks everyone!

she's free now

my po po(mother's mum) passed away today at noon. Sigh.... cry? sad? yes.. but somehow i am so relieved. Coz she's finally not suffering anymore.

She first got a stroke in 2000 and at first she can still talk and recognise us. But gradually, over the years, she was confined to bed and cannot talk or recognise us anymore. Last month, she was diagnosed with ovarian cancer. Doctor say cannot operate coz she was too weak. So we literally are waiting for her to go. Last Friday, her body swollen but doctor refused to admit her coz he says he cannot help her also. So we moved her from my uncle's place back to her own house and were literally preparing for her funeral already.

This morn daddy scared me out of my sleep, saying that po po is critical so we went over. Den i sat there and watched her breathing got slower and her pulse getting weaker. Finally, she let go at noon. Even though we expected it but everyone was still very sad.

She used to dote on us a lot even thou she always scold us. But before she got a stroke, she always bring my siblings and me to the provision shop and buy ice cream for us. And her house is always properly "stocked" with toys. I always rmb that the first thing we do when we got to her house is to sneak underneath the 神台 where all the toys are and start playing until mummy nagged us to greet granny and grandpa. That was very long ago. As we got older, our weekly visits got lesser and lesser until we only go there a couple of times a year. Feel so bad...

Anyway, i am still glad that at least she's relieved. I cannot stand seeing her in such pain and cannot do anything abt it.

Bye bye granny! You will always be in our hearts...

thanks!

thanks darling! i realised that i really missed him a lot.. sigh...

National Competition 2005

Today's the day. The last time my sec 3s are going to be involved in a first aid compeition. This year, we went there to win. My boys wanted to get champion coz i told them we have nv got champion before. My girls expect at least a third coz of pressure from the seniors last year.

I went to send them into the compeititon in the morn and rushed back to hougang for tuition. Den after tuition, i flew back to watch them compete. I missed ivy's nursing case and half of angela's nursing case. But overall i thought Angela's was quite okay, Ivy a little not up to their standard and Shi Wei's was sigh.......

By the end of the day, i was so sure that we are not gg to get anything. I was so sad.

Then it was time for the results. WOW!! They really shocked me!!

Shi Wei's team took part in the Ambulance Adult Category and they got:
1. Best CPR
2. Best First Aid Long Case
3. Runner up for Transportation of casulty

4. Overall 2nd (being 3.5 marks away from champion coz their short case was too terrible. They got last loh)

Angela's team went for Nursing Adult and got:
1. Best CPR
2. Runner up for First Aid
3. Best Foot Drill
4. Overall 2nd

Ivy's team went for Nursing Cadet and got:
1. Runner up for First Aid

Ivy's team was so sad coz they did not even get 3rd but they were only 2 marks away. Not their fault lah coz NC always has very tough competition.

BUT i am still so proud of my juniors! They got trophies in both the adult categories even though they are the hardest. Really really so proud of them.

RV SJAB ROCKS!

blood donation...... SUCCESSFUL!!

i finally managed to donate blood today!! after 2 failed attempts... got free brands chicken essence somemore.. (",)

at first i tot cannot donate coz my blood droplet floated on the solution! den the nurse went to use the meter and realised tt i can donate afterall!

And today my vein nv run away. Next time should ask the nurse to use my left hand lah.. last time i used my right hand den vein ran away so i got a big bruise AND nv managed to donate blood.

My next donation is after 1st Oct. I think i will go and donate on my 21st birthday. Quite a meaningful way to spend my birthday.. haha...

mysterious person

2 days ago, i received this email:

BUT the problem is:
1. I was at home but i did not on my computer until late at night.
2. I have no money lah... how to pay?
3. I do not intend to buy Harry Potter, yet.. so how can i order this??

So i emailed them an ask if there was any problem. But they sent me an email with my correct particulars. If you type the wrong email add, you cannot probably get all the details wrong right?

And so i emailed them and ask if payment has been made and they said yes. Apparently someone purposely sent this to me.

BUT WHO?? i do not know of anybody who will send things to me for no particular reason. Some ppl suggested my bf then i said that he will not do these kind of things. Then a friend said that i oso said the same thing during v-day that he will not give me flowers but i got a bouquet for v-day. That time i was so happy. SO maybe it could be him... but wat spurred him to do this?

Meanwhile, can anyone tell me if they are the mysterious person? Thanks!

relationship

i guess ppl of my age now are all busy looking for a partner. even the most nerdy ones are trying to think of gg into relationships.

having been in a co-ed school all my life, i was always surrounded by guys. Frankly speaking, i have never tot of gg into a relationship. i jus cannot stand the guys that i see around me. the good ones either will nv notice me or are already attached. some better ones are better off as friends den bf... i have already decided to try in JC until he came along...

sigh.. its really so easy to be in a relationship but its really hard to maintain a relationship. i realised that compromise is really impt and you have to believe in what you compromise with. When one party gives in too much, it gets really tiring. sigh... i m very tired now....

Sometimes i really wonder where i stand in his life. I feel like i am never appreciated. There is always a problem with me. What's wrong with me??

Miss him so much but i very long nv see him liao.. the last time i saw him was last last sunday and its really SAW coz we met for less than 10 mins and talk for no more den 2 sentences. The last time we really went out was nearly a month ago. We could have talked on the phone right? But the last time we talked was exactly a week ago. How come so long ago? Coz i am waiting for him to realise that i am missing from his life. His computer is probably more interesting than i am. Does he ever miss me??? sigh... I really wonder what is he busy with.

Somehow I have this feeling that we are both waiting for the other party to call. That's the problem when 2 parties are so stubborn... sigh... maybe we have a problem...

my clothes

why always have to take my clothes?? always say i take her things....

of all my shirts she has to choose NEW one!!!!!!!!! i was saving it for the new school term leh.. its only a plain white top loh.. so many white tops she must wear that one ah?????????

i very angry now.......... argh..............

my name

wow.... for a very long time, i tot my jolyn with this particular spelling (J-O-L-Y-N) was very special until today, i found a SECOND person with exactly the same spelling.

i happened to pass by the notice board where they put the student's oral timetable. den i happen to spot this girl called jolyn ke wan lin... haha.. i was so amazed...

for like 13 years, i haven found anyone with my name.. but this year, i n under 6 months, i found TWO! seems like my name is no longer special.. but its okay lah.. i still like my name.. (",)