=In Passing=

got this from a friend... quite nice..

=In Passing=

In passing
I met you strangely
as you just entered and I left
as a wanderer searching for you
In passing
I found you
and you were so fascinating
and devastatingly beautiful
In passing
I fell in love again
with you my life began anew
with the frenzy of a thunderstorm
In passing
I wrote blindly
to you so far away from me
to draw you closer like a ghost
In passing
I dreamt madly
of you sweetly in the darkness
of the night kissing me silently
In passing
I told you my feelings
for you were there as I waited
for something to happen to me
In passing
I glimpsed the joy
in you I might find new faith
in this meaningless life we have
In passing
I was so so sad
but you were there my friend
but I knew I could never stay
In passing
I came to rest
where you will never find
where clouds drift lazily by
In passing.

birthday party

i went to my 3rd 21st birthday party yesterday night. Very little right? considering the fact that nearly everyone i know are going to celebrate their birthday this year. It either means

1. i m so unpopular that ppl do not want to invite me.
2.My friends have decided to be unpopular and dun want to celebrate.

3. I am going to go broke at the end of the year coz that's when all the birthdays start coming in.

Anyway, this friend is from my NJ class one. Very long nv see him liao. Ever since i left NJ, i haven been meeting him. At the party yesterday, i managed to meet quite number of NJ classmates whom i have not met for a very very very long time. It felt so right. I dunno why, but i always feel very in place when even i am hanging out with these bunch of ppl. Some of whom are not even classmates with me before. But we jus happen to be able to click together. Make me wonder wat's wrong now?..

Anyway, this friend of mine had a very creative party. He got all of us messed up into different tables and we played games. Supposed to answer questions on him, his house and some general ones. Quite fun and we had fun mixing and interacting with the ppl in my group even thou most of us do not each other before hand. Quite interesting coz you get to know his other friends and get to know him better thru all the questions. Maybe i can try something like that for my party. But mine might be quite big coz i am probably going to invite many ppl. Should think of wat to do.

But before i do that.. i should get back to my lab reports...ARGH...

nerd

i feel so nerd... rushing so many reports... anyway.. i found this at a friend's blog and i decided to try.. interesting..

school again

argh!!!!!!!!! why is it so unfair.. we do the prac until so late trying to figure out all the stuff and crack our brains over it and the second group only have to follow wat we've already tested for them and get to copy our answers!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! wth... damn the school.. dunno wat they all are doing... i am not going to share my results.. its mine!!!!

Humph.. i know i am being selfish but its not fair loh.. We do all the work den they copy????? what is this???? why cant they just plan the stuff properly? I know that last week we used up their reagents so they dun have enough den gotta use our results.. this one i understand. This week.. they dun have enough again?? and they have to copy our results again???!!!??? But the problem is.. yesterday we did not seem to have asked for extra reagents.. most ppl have enough. Even i had enough to repeat my experiments. So why is it that there is not enough reagents again??? WTH!!

school?

very long nv blog liao.. jus tot that i should post something... recently i dunno wat's wrong with me.. i very anti social.. so stressed over something which i dun even know is wat. most probably school and all the lab reports and rubbish lah..

Den i not only anti-social.. i am becoming very mean. I seem to dun like something abt ppl who are around me. Anyone talk to me abt something in school i can jus find something to bu shuang abt. I nv tell anyone but i jus sub-consciously criticise that person.. I am so horribly mean. I think i am jus doing this to make myself feel better.

Exams are coming.. and i haven really understood wat is going on in class. I have not been doing a lot of tut this semester and my CA so poor.. My friend got A den i got C... =(.. very sad leh... sigh.... dunno wat to do abt it.. i dun like to do homework with my friends.. i like to do things as and when i feel like it. Whenever we have longer breaks, they will do homework den if i dun feel like doing then, i get pissed off by wat they are all doing den i dun feel like doing even after that.

Den recently a friend's present made me very bu shuang with a friend. I have another friend A, who knows this friend,B, too so she suggest that we get a present together. I dun mind since we can get a better present for her plus we dunno wat to buy too. Den when i asked my friends, C said that we got so many ppl can get her something den each pay abt 20. i was thinkg that its so expensive loh.. she mad ah.. think that everyone will want to spend so much money on HER good friend.. Yes, we are friends. In fact, i knew that gal since sec 1.. but even though we are in the same clique.. you are not on equal terms with everyone mah. There has got to be someone that you are closer to. Den i was trying to explain this concept to C and she dun understand why would us not be willing to spend the money when we are together everyday and are suppposed to be "good friends". I dun mind the money but wat i am bu shuang abt is tt C is a very thrifty person( i wun say niao k?) so whenever we buy present for others friends, the budget is always $5 each. Den now she willingly to pay $20 coz its for her good friend. I feel like she is trying to get her something at the expense of us. I might be too sensitive or it could be that i am too stressed so i get very bu shuang easily abt things.. Luckily my other friends tot that 20 was too ex. Anyway, another friend D says that its better for us to get our own present. BUT we dun even know at to get loh!! sigh.. den if we share we can get a good present den each dun have to pay so much. I dun care liao lah.. they shall go n think of wat to buy den i pay only.

And talking abt D, i bu shuang her quite a long while ago. I dunno wat triggered it oso.. but we have been taking some classes together den somehow , as we get to spend more time together, i started to think that she's very fake. Sometimes when she talks, i somehow feel that there is always hidden meanings behind wat she's saying and sometimes she ask questions like jus to create conversation and give me a feeling like she's simply trying to get close to you. Recently i have noticed that she's more hardworking and keeps getting close to ppl with good results... The more i see, the more turn off i get... So fake...........

Sigh... now can understand how come i am not happy here. School not fufilling and social life so full of grumbles.. sigh....................

my beautiful saturday afternoon

It was a pretty satuday afternoon. Bright and sunny and got no tuition!! wah... so good...

BUT BUT BUT... got a com lab.. so i had to go back to schoo.. But its jus as well so i can submit my long dued 208 lab report... Supposed to be due on friday but i only handed in on saturday. Luckily the box is still around or i die liao..

Hmm.. den we started the lab with a super informative and funny video by my dear prof.. but the subsequent lab was hell.. real hell.. the first com lab that took me even longer than my wet lab. I was in the com lab for abount 5 hours? Wah.. do until i headache..Den halfway thru the lab, my friends and me were so hungry that we decided to go for lunch first then continue. So poor thing... can a got nothing except for Mac. So i had my long wanted to try chicken foldover finally

So sian.. what a way to spend a beautiful saturday afternoon. In school having Mac for lunch at 2 pm!! Sigh...

Luckily i had a better part of the evening coz it was my brother's birthday and we had great food.. So fattening but its so nice. Got pasta, pizza, curry chicken and ice cream cake.. Yummy....

beginning of school

first week of school.. no time to post anything.. nothing much.. except that i have been slack as usual.. looking forward to my first weekend...

tmr got 208 lab report.. going back to mug...

class gathering on saturday

i cant believe i forgot to post this! This is impt.. gotta share with you guys. haha

On saturday, 19 feb 05, i had the first and probably the only class gathering this year for 4D'2000. This is a tradition and a must.. we always meet during new year to lao yu sheng and everyone will try their best to make it coz our class only gather once a year. This year we had the yu sheng at Wei Liang's house coz we tot that we should have a change in location since we always meet at JEC.. pretty boring..

Well.. the reason we always meet at JEC is that we have always been buying our yu sheng from the noodles house there. Since sec 4. Like Liyong said, our goal is to out-live that restaurant. (",) Anyway, the turnout this year was pretty good coz i managed to contact some of the PRCs and they helped to get other PRCs for the gathering. Felt so good. So in all, we have around 20 people? out of 31 ppl with 5 people not in singapore. So basically only 6 who are in singapore cannot make it. Hope to see them at the next gathering.

We had dinner (compliments of Wei Liang's mum who refused to let us help and refused to take our money). Its a very nice bee hoon, chicken wings and pizza which we ordered. And some jelly home-made by wei liang's mum and water melon and of course, our yu sheng. A very heart-warming gathering. During dinner, we took a lot of photos. still waiting for them to send it to me den i can show everyone. After dinner, we had too much drinks left that we decided to play zhong ji mi ma to finish the drink. It was so funny. Reminds me of last time in sec 4 when my class like to go to the bubble tea house to drink bubble tea and to play truth or dare.

After the game, we went up to wei liang's house and chatted a little while more. And we started talking about the sec sch days and our class chalets. Really missed those days! And after a little discussion, we decided to have another class chalet! somewhere in mid may. Looking forward to that day..

Overall, the night had a great night with great pals and good hosts (wei liang's dad even gave hong bao).

But.. in contrast.. 01S7A's class visit to the teacher's house had been horrible.. sigh.. only 3 pathetic ppl.. felt so paiseh when we got to the teachers' house. Mrs Wang even ordered pizza for us. Maybe my class should have less gathering den ppl will treasure the gatherings jus like my sec 4 class. And i can predict that less n less ppl are going to come for class gathering coz the guys are starting school and quite a number of them are flying overseas. In fact, already 4 are gone and a couple more are going away soon. That's the problem with being in a high-flyer school. Friends dun stay.. so sad..

STOP IRRITATING ME!!!

STOP ASKING ME TO GO AND SEE A DOCTOR AND STOP ASKING ME WHAT'S WRONG WITH MY LEG AND MY FACE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i am sick of it!!!! utterly sick!!!!!! i have a lot of scars on my face and my legs and i am already very vexed!!! quit asking me what's wrong and ask me to see doctor. If i know what's wrong.. i wun be having these scars liao..can you guys dun be so dumb?? and i hate to see doctors so stop asking to go to the doc's.. plus i have already been to the doctor for my face so STOP STOP STOP irritating me!!!!

I am sick of all the scars so stop reminding me of it. If i hear 1 more.. just 1 more person who ask me what's wrong.. i am going to switch to wearing long skirts, pants and long sleeve shirts...

quote

Truth does not become more true by virtue of the fact that the entire world agrees with it, nor less so even if the whole world disagrees with it.

-Maimonides

I like this... it simply means that we should follow our heart. What others think is wrong might not turn out to be wrong in the end..

valentine's day

the time of the year again.. the time that couples go out and be sweet and singles stick with friends and have great fun(or feel sorry for each other).

hmm.. i haven had a v-day to my friends ever since 2001. The last one is probably in sec 4. Good thing or bad? i oso dunno. Anyway, every v-day got something worth remembering..

This year my darling was very sweet. Last year v-day he bought me flowers for the first time. After all the years together. Pretty shocked me. Very expensive leh.. This year he got me flowers again.. this year more flowers.. so expensive... next yr should tell him not to waste money.... But this year's flowers more special coz he arranged them to be sent to my place. Shocked me when i got home. But its so sweet.. Dun see him fierce fierce one.. sometimes he's really very sweet... Love you dear!!

I think i shoule crack m brains and do something sweet for him next year. I haven done something really nice to him in a long while. Maybe can do something for his birthday this year or wat.. i shall go n source for ideas...

movies

wah... i watched 2 movies in 2 days.. pretty neat record considering the fact that i have been away from the cinema for so long..

The first movie was yesterday. I watch Seoul Raiders after a nice dinner at Thai Express. Its was to celebrate a fren's birthday. The show very funny.. haha.. very nice... but my friends all say tt Tokyo Raiders was nicer. I cannot rmb Tokyo Raiders liao.. pretty long ago but i must say this show not that bad. Haha.. qutie funny.. definitely can watch.

The 2nd movie was today. Its was to accompany Ver but she feel asleep a while during the movie. I watched Howl's Moving Castle. A jap anime adapted by Hayao Mizayaki from Dianne Wynne Jones fantasy novel. A very good show. Just like Spirited Away. Very funny and cute... loved this show!!

haha.. going to catch more shows. Next one on my list is Robots!! Oh my.. i saw the trailer and it was like super funny loh. Anyone wanna watch with me?

chinese new year

yeah! its the time of the year again. Do nothing, sit there and get money. haha..

This year i spent a lot of time on new year shopping. Bought 3 skirts, 3 shirts and 4 pairs of shoes. (",) I even bought the last pair on new year's eve. Haha.. omg... i no need to shop for the rest of the year liao. I jus finished buying everything.

Here's how my new year went:

New year's eve:
I self declared holiday. Supposed to have lecture but i decided to skip it to pack my room and visit Hwa Chong. After Hwa Chong i went orchard and bought my shoes and met huimin. After shopping orchard, we went down to bugis to buy my hair moose coz the Reds at taka do not sell. In the end, i reached home at 5pm and started to pack my room, my computer table and stuff until 9pm. Had steamboat dinner and laughed like mad over dinner with my relatives. After dinner, its a tradition to go temple to cross the Ping An Qiao (Peace Bridge) and to Waterloo Street to offer offering to Guan Ying. Got home at 3am. Den started painting my nails. So proud of myself coz i finished painting in record time as i only took 1 stroke to get it done.

New Year's Day:
Woke up at 8am. Finished painting my left hand. Quite fast oso. Den put moisturer on my feet and attempted to wear socks using 1 hand (as the other hand has wet nail polish). After my nails are dried, i changed to sleep on my bed till 10am. Bath, change and dress up to go to my Granny's (mum's mother) place. As usual, my siblings and i will take cab. Usually we have to wait ard 30 mins to 1 hr. But this year very fast as we only waited for abt 5 mins.

Arrived at my granny's place den ran into my uncle by the road. Luckily or i'll have 1 less ang bao. My granny's place do not have the habit of giving ang bao to ppl who are not ard. Unlike my dad's side.

Den we sat there, had lunch, eat junk, watch TV and disturbed the kids. Left there at ard 3pm. Wanted to go somewhere else but nowhere to go so we decided to wait till at night den ask if my cousins wanna go for KTV.

At ard evening time, all my relatives started coming back to my Ah Ma's hse. Eat steamboat den lao yu sheng. Wah lao.. this year yu sheng very irritating. I dun like my new 5th Auntie (my 5th uncle new wife). She's from M'sia den very rough loh. Lao yu sheng become throw yu sheng. Luckily i ran away fast or else my skirt will be gone.

After dinner, a few cousins (those older ones), my siblings and me decided to go KTV. After much considerations, we went to party world at orchard. My cousin drove his parents car and sent all 10 of us to orchard. Reached there at 130 and sang till 430am. Wanted to sing longer but my sister dun want. So we went back at 430 and reached home at ard 5 plus. Bathed and slept at 6am.

Second day of new yr:
Slept till 130pm. Den sat at home and rot whole day. Watched incredibles and ate a lot of junk. SO sian.... tmr still got school. Sigh...

going to count my ang baos liao... came at a great time coz i m super broke...

the journey of my renoma

I dropped my wallet on the bus 174 today. OMG... wat a shock for me when i realised it. I was very tired today. Slept at 4am last night to rush my report for today and today go to school feeling very zombified. I put my wallet on my bag den i got off the bus, i forgot that i have it on my lap. I heard a 'tup' when i got off the bus. I have a habit of checking my seat before leaving the bus but i did no see my wallet on the floor. By the time i realised i dropped it, the bus was gone. I tried running after the bus but no use.

I started walking and called hz. The moment i started talking i started crying. Then i tried to called ppl whom i know live along the route of the bus 174 to get them to help me intercept the bus. But no one picked up my call. And i got even more panicky.. Finally i got to the JJ bus stop. i called ee soon and ask him if he's at home so can borrow ezlink from him. Den i started crying while telling him wat happened. He's not at home but he told me to wait for him while he come and look for me.

Den hz managed to help me find the number for lost and found and i called them. The person told me that it might take 2 hrs to trace my wallet as they have to wait for the bus to reach the other interchange. They gave me new bridge interchange number and as i was calling them, my phone went flat!! Oh my.. wat else can happen? Do i borrowed hp from another person to call. Feel so bad... i no money to pay her and i made quite a number of calls.

After a number of calls, hz called me and say he is at the bus stop and ask if i know the plate number. so touched!! He specially went down to help me see if can stop the bus. But the problem is i do not know the plate number. I only know the one of the bus after that bus. I tried calling boon lay interchange to ask but too late. Hz called and say that he is on the later bus.

After a while, ee soon called me and say that the drive of the later bus has reported my wallet to boon lay and new bridge interchange. Apparently hz told the uncle wat happened.

Anyway, i was supposed to meet ching ping to imm. She called me den i told her wat happened. I wanted to walk to hz's place but she asked me to wait for her somwhere den she come n find me. I went to jurong west police centre to make a police report while waiting for ching ping to come. The policemen were very nice oso. They helped me look for numbers that i will need to call n cancel my cards and stuff.

Then... when i was halfway thru cancelling my giro link card, someone called me (jus 5 seconds after i've changed my sim card with ching ping's phone). Someone picked up my wallet den called my ex-colleague whose number was inside my wallet. He gave my colleague his number so i can call him. Finally i went down to SMU to get my wallet back from him.

Wah.............. wat an eventful day. So scared.. nearly scared my life out of me when i realised tt my wallet was lost.. sigh... gotta be more careful next time. Dun think i will be so lucky again..

1159

i promised to update you on the 1159 thingy.

I had this CA exercise which i had to hand in at 1159am. At first the prof said 12pm and everyone was wondering if its midnight or afternoon. So someone emailed him and ask. Here's his reply:

Dear all,

Apologies for the confusion. I should not have used 12 am (or 12 pm) as they are both meaningless. As you may know, the expressions pm and am come from Latin. "Ante" means before and "post" means after. Meri-diem means half (meri) of the day (diem), ie, 12 noon. Therefore 12 am or 12 pm is a totally ambiguous expression. For example, 12 midnight is both 12 h before and 12 after the meridiem (12 noon), so is both 12 am and 12 pm, whereas 12 noon is neither 12 am or 12 pm, it is just "m".

I guess what I meant is 11.59 am. Some Latin for you today

Regards,

JT (Jaume Torres)

Interesting right? Learnt something from him... Quite an interesting prof but gives a lot of homework.

Hwa Chong Junior College

The famous 4 arrows. You will not get to see this logo on students anymore. History... Some back ground regarding the arrow: The college philosophy is symbolised by the college motto, which is made up of four ascending arrows and a link, all in the colour of red. The soaring arrows focus our attention on the dynamic process of education, with each arrow being representative of a single characteristic depicted by our philosophy, whereas the linking of these arrows (being emblematic of good harvest) implies the need for a balanced personality in a community of shared ideas.

I wanted to write about how funny my lab session was today until i saw a friend's blog. She posted her favourite Hwa Chong songs and as i was singing one of the songs, tears jus came to my eyes. I like this song a lot too. Here's the lyrics. A very beautiful song.

<<只为那爱我原>>

原我能把华初之光点燃

原黄城之爱于心中滋长

原友谊能把你心温暖

原我有完成心愿的力量

没有瀑布于岩石的阻挡

溪水就悦耳的歌唱

不愿途中无波浪无挑战

愈经挫折生命愈灿烂

之为那爱 我原与你同行万里路

之为那爱 我原与你携手向前迈步

短暂相聚多急促 既然碰上了又岂能虚度

之为那爱 我原与你同行万里路

之为那爱 我原与你携手向前迈步

黄城两载多短促 既然爱上又为何不付出

I spend 1 and 3/4 years with Hwa Chong Junior College. Although i missed O1 and i really hated the first few months with Hwa Chong, i gradually grew to love the place. I do not have a great CCA but i had great classmates and friends and of course teachers. They are the ones who have been with me through the horrible period of A'levels. Really hated that super stressed period. Luckily i have my friends who laughed, cried, mugged, play basketball and swam with me. Miss you guys!! I missed all the school events then will sing all the super nice songs and have mass dance. No regrets leaving NJC.

Now that Hwa Chong has merged with Chinese High, Hwa Chong Junior College is now history. Will forever miss the place and the 4 arrows.

shopping

Today I went shopping with my brother today at far east. Trying to get some new year clothes. At first like not much accomplished then later, we managed to buy a pair of jeans, 3 t-shirts for my brother and a skirt for myself. All done under 4 hours. Pretty amazing right? After shopping, we walked all the way to heeren's to eat marche. Really walked until very tired. My brother and sister were both very tired too. Wait till i get a digi cam den i can show you guys the fruits of my day.

Talking about my skirt. I bought the long one at Red 2.. haha.. was thinking about that skirt for a very long time liao.. since i first saw it at jurong pretty long ago. It was love at first sight! Then after trying out for many times, i finally bought it!! So happy!! haha... That time i wanted to buy at JP den my uni friends say not nice coz my butt not big enough.. haha.. first time ppl say my butt not big enough.. what a nice compliment. Actually i wanted to ask huimin to go try and let me see the diff coz huimin has universally recognised big butt. (",) anyway, before i could get to meet her, i decided to buy the skirt before they start running out of stock.

Another reason for buying a long skirt is because my aunt says that my skirts are too short. I bought 2 skirts at Causeway point yesterday and after showing my mum and my aunt, they said it was too short. So to spike my aunt, i decided to turn up in a long skirt for new year this year.. haha.. but actually, i also know that my skirt is getting shorter.. dunno wat happen oso...

time for bed... very tired after a day of lectures and shopping.. blog tmr..

school

today's the 3rd week of school. Pretty boring with all the tut. I haven really done any tut yet. I mean seriously sit down and do my tut. Com'on.. the school is mad loh. They put 2 lectures on Monday, giving me monday blues and put 4 tut on thurs!!! Madness. And i have tuitions on Wednesday, so meaning i got no time to do on wed. And Yanling will NEVER do homework earlier one loh.. sian.. den in the end i always nv do homework go tut. So guilty...

Anyway, i have already told my co-ordinator that i dun want to take the P3 science class already. I dun like to travel so far in the middle of the week. Oh please, hougang is so FAR from Boon Lay. I dun like to take train and even when i left school in time today. i took 2 hours and 15 mins to get to hougang. MADNESSS.... i travel until i get very pek chek. Silly bus and silly ppl.

Sigh.. dunno why i am taking so many tuitions for. Do i really need the money to much? Yes and no. i really need the money for bills and transport and food. But i dun need THAT much money right? But who will think that money is too much one. I admit that i am a pretty materialistic girl. And i like the idea of having money to spend when i need it. And i like to splurge. Very bad financial management right? I need a course!!

Sometimes I really tuition until i very tired and my dear sometimes very not understanding. I know he is concerned about me but he always show it in a wrong way. Anyway, he's sucha nice guy ( i hear puking). Did something very sweet for me a few days back. LOVE YA! He wun see this so i guess i am going to get a lot of puking from my friends out there.

Sigh.. gotta go back to do my homework. Got an assigment to hand in tmr. at 1159am. He really said 1159am. Will tell you all the story about this 1159 thing another time. Good luck to me!!

quote of the day

Dreams are invisible strings that keep people from sinking - Anonymous

so my dear friends.. hold on to your dream.

2nd blog

hmm.. decided to blog a bit today... nothing really much exciting happened.. even if something did.. i guess i was too excited to blog abt it... (",)

anyway, i had dinner with pey yng n qiulin today at bugis. While we were walking from restaurant to restaurant, i realised that we always meet at bugis. Coz we were saying things like " that thing is nice, the other time we came here we had that". Anyway, we decided to settle for Terra coz we decided that its the only choice that only Bugis has.

Terra is this cafe right at the end of the MacDonald's row. Right opposite Addidas. Pey Yng said their fish n chips are famous so i tried that. Really very nice. The coleslaw was quite nice and the fish too. But everything was very thick n rich and the fish was a little too oily. Felt so fat. And after eating, we sat there dor like 3 hrs jus chatting. Felt so good. Very long nv talk to them for so much. Den after Terra, we went Swenson's, wanting to try their crumble. In the end sold out and we ordered 2 ice creams instead. And we continue talking for 2 hrs at Swenson's b4 we went home.

What a fulfilling day!