last day of the year

hmm... its now 31st dec 2004. The last day of the year. The tsunami din come at a good time. This is a very bad thing to end the year with.. its so sad.. over 80, 000 dead now.. i sincerely pray for all those out there.

Thinking back of the past 1 year.. i really wonder what i've accomplished. Sigh.. sad to announce but its really nothing much. Or can say there's nothing great that i've done which will make me remember this year. What have i done? I feel so useless and helpless. I seem to be very busy during the past one year, but come to think of it, i did not do anything great. Nothing for anyone. Wat a sad case...

My new year resolution: MAKE an impact on someone's life!

I hope i can succeed.

earthquake

oh my.... i got home from st john last night and read about the earthquake which hit asia.. its so bad... as of jus now on channel newsasia.. death toll is up to 22,000 with more injured and with more to come. Sri Lanka was so badly hit.. oh my... and more is expected to come with the afterwaves and more tsunami. It reminds me of my geography classes and how we were learning about earthquakes and stuff. Cannot believe that this is happening so close to home. I have always thought that Singapore will be affected by such things sooner or later coz plates are constantly moving. But i nv expect it to be so fast.

I was jus watching the channel newsasia on TV and saw all the pictures of dead people and its so sad. I see family members crying coz their loved ones are dead. Or worried ones who are unable to find their loved ones. Sigh.. life is really so unpredictable. A holiday turned into a nightmare for so many people. We should really treasure our loved ones right now. I cannot imagine wat will happen to me if any of my friends or loved ones were right in the disaster. I will probably jus collapse if anything happen to them.

Let's pray for those not found and those who are badly hit. God bless....

my day as the emcee

another day as the emcee. Bad ailing dun want to help me den only got me. (",) i know no need 2 people to talk but she also nv offer to help. bad girl. but anyway, my voice did not sound as bad as i thought it would. Nothing was wrong with my script or my voice.. except for all the silly last minute changes that made me very confused. BUTTTTT... the big problem was... the silly emcee me said the wrong thing. I read chet yen's name as sir yong's. OMG... all the guests started laughing loh. i dunno why i said the wrong thing.. was not thinking right.. sigh.. den after that, everyone started teasing me like mad... sian... but hopefully after this, they wun get me to be emcee anymore.. (",)

christmas

i shall make this a short one... still not feeling well enough to sit down n write something nice...

Been back in sg since sun but haven got time to really sit down n write anything abt the camp.. But jus 1 word.. GREAT!! Esp with the other 2 pigs.. make my world brighter.. despite all the stupid sun and now i am sick again... next time i got energy i should write more...

Anyway, its now Christmas.. so fast.. sigh.. n school's starting soon.. sigh... but it oso mean presents n cards.. haha.. thanks jov n ailing for ur great present!! next yr i will buy something nice for you gals..

siblings

I jus heard a complain from a fren. Been hearing it for very long liao. Jus tot i could share it with you guys. Made me think a bit.

My fren is called A lah and her sister is called B. The two of them used to be very very close until it got to a point in time when B started to be too busy to spend time with A. A started to look for new company and gradually they drifted apart.

B is a very nice girl and dotes a lot on A. But the big problem with B is that she has a very bad temper. She thinks that the whole world owes her something. Always pick a fight with A over the smallest thing.

My fren has always thought that the real reason why her sister keep fighting with her was because her sister is jealous of her. Since young, A has always been the high achiever in school. She went to a good secondary school(top 10), a good JC(top 5) and went on to pursue a degree. In terms of other stuff, A is better than her sister in a way. Like A is highly involved with her CCA and held an impt appointment and A has a stable and long relationship. On the other hand, B do not perform as well academically. But B is good in other stuff like languages and cooking etc. And her last relationship was a big blow to her and B has yet to overcome it till today.

Whenever they quarrel, B always like to say things like "Go good school very big deal lah" and "Got degree very liao3 bu4 qi3 lah" when it has nothing to do with wat they are arguing about. A always get very irritated when her sister starts to bring up such things. She thinks that her sister still blame her mother for not letting her take higher chinese in pri sch. B thinks that if her mum had allowed her to take then her life will be much better now. She held so much resentment that she is such a grumpy and inconsiderate girl. B likes to think that A is spoilt and always want things her way by arguing her way out.

There have been many times when B caused A to argue with her bf. Coz her bf dun like ppl to interrupt when he is talking and B always like to pick a fight with A in the middle of her conversation. Den when they started quarelling and A blamed B for it, B jus said like "My fault ah?"

Sigh... after having heard so many times from my fren.. i can memorise liao lah...

Anyway, i was jus thinkg what i will actually do if my sister is jealous of me. My sister sounds like her sister. But i really think that its very sad that a sister should be jealous of her own sister. She should be proud of her instead leh. Why should there be jealousy? sigh.. women...

anyway, i m leaving for M'sia for a few days of nomad life. Will be back on 19th and will update you guys regarding the camp..

what's gg to happen?

hmm... seems like after jolin's concert.. i have nothing really interesting to look forward to.. maybe the release of my results yesterday. i was so scared to check my results that i decided not to bother checking at 1pm... i only checked it at night at around 9pm. Luckily the results not too bad lah.. i expected a worst results for some.. but i expected a better one for another... nvm.. they balanced out each other.. think i have to go back to bugis to thanks guan ying niang niang already.. but still waiting for my finance results den everything will be over. But the results will only be out on 17th and i m still in M'sia!! sian.. gotta wait till i m back loh..

anyway, talking about m'sia.. so scary.. wonder what the camp will be like leh.. hope wun be too sian.. i am having regrets going liao leh.... i am leaving right in the middle of my proj... and i haven finish my proj.. sigh.. hope i wil enjoy the camp.

gotta get back to doing my proj liao.. sian..

jolin's concert

i finally went for her concert today!!!! My long awaited concert. Oh my... she's so good!!! Singing great, n dancing even better.... I really gave her full marks for the performance. I jumped ard like mad.. haha...

But her audience sucks meh.. Her fan club nv even stand during the concert until she told everyone to stand.. At first only got me, my fren and another gal we jus got to know who sat in front of us stood. Wah.. this gal looks like stella and we exchange numbers. Whole stadium only 3 ppl!!! Can u believe it? Sigh.. her songs all so fast.. how can ppl just sit n listen?? Dun understand.. If more ppl stand den everyone will stand liao mah... And she was very sad leh.. She even cried during the encore.. and she only encore once.. so sad.. I was so angry i jus went to post a msg on their forum...

And the speakers sucks loh.. the management never check the equipment properly. The speakers are very noisy.. got too much feedback.. And she was quite sad with the sound. At first i tot her throat got something wrong.. Sian... I think she wun want to come back to Singapore for concert liao. But if she comes back i want to watch her dance again!!

Sigh.. but i dun get to take photos.. my camera got caught... borrowed cam from huimin for nothing.. i only managed to take a few with my fren's cam. Sigh.. this time security super strict... so sian.. hope i can find nice ones online or wat..

blood donation

sighhhhh... again.... cannot donate blood. Today i was rotting at Jurong Point coz hz's meeting his fren to go sim lim den i go very extra... Den i saw this blood donation drive and decided to go n donate blood. BUT they reject me again. Coz i was sick last week den u need to recover for at least 3 weeks b4 u r able to make any donations. So sian liao.. dun want to donate liao lah...

nice quote

Be who you are and say what you feel because those who mind don't matter and those who matter don't mind.

-Dr. Seuss

updates about the epidemic at home

wow.. i realised that a total of 3 more people got sick after my aunt while my family were in Thailand. Talking abt Thailand, i quite regreting not going go them. The stuff are so super cheapppppppppppppppppp. My sister bought me a handbag for like 6 dollars? Oh my.. sigh.. nvm.. i shall go another time with my shopping gang! haha... any takers?

Sigh..since we are at the topic of being sick.. i was sick again... in the space of a week. I developed a high fever again last night. All thanks to the snacks at K-box. Sick...Never going to eat again their snack ever again. I was there with Ting, Eli, Jen and Wenjia(who left earlier). Den after that we met Jolin but only got to talk a little while. Coz i started trembling very badly.. den in the end took cab and went to the 24hrs clinic yesterday. Spent 70 bucks. OMG.. sigh...

I hope this stupid bacteria will go away soon.. I dun want to spend so much money on medical bills lah. Already more den a hundred dollars liao.. jus because of a stupid infection..

quite interesting right? 

this thing is called Helicobacter pylori. We used to like to call it helicopter. It is responsible for peptic ulcer disease. Very pretty hor? but a very bad bacteria..

bacteria

I truly experience the power of bacteria today. I have this little cousin who came over to my hse to stay for a few days coz her maid went back home. Den on Saturday, she had a high fever. A few days back, my little cousin and her sister was down with fever and sore throat too.

Yesterday it was me. Registered a high fever of 39.4 last night. Took some panadol (ewwww... i hate panadols but i din took it voluntarily, my mum stuffed it into my mouth) and the fever subsided this morn. In the afternoon it came back to around 38.2 again. Sigh.. My immune system not good enough... In the end i went to see the doctor and got TWO antibiotics. OMG.. is it really that bad? He still want to give me MC for tmr...

sigh.. den when i got home.. i realise that my auntie was sick too. She's the mum of my 2 cousins who were sick. Looks like the bacteria has infected quite a bit of people. Sounds like an epidemic. And my auntie they all are supposed to go to Thailand tmr. Sigh.. hope she gets well.. if not go overseas den still sick quite sad one...

so cute....(",) 

quite a great ad right? pretty funny... 

its over!!

haha.. omg.. so fast exams are over already. Time really flies. Sian.. next mon going to start intersem already. Feel so sorry for myself. But its all i choose one, so cannot blame anyone oso. Anyway, really hope to get good results for this exam. The whole exam dun feel good. *pray hard*

Anyway, ITS NOW HOLIDAYS!!!! Despite every mon n thurs lessons i get to PLAY PLAY N PLAY!!!! Haha.. i feel so super hyper. Yeah.. i'm really going to enjoy myself on my limited budget. No money lah.. no work den still have to spend money but i m gg to have fun. Yeah.. fun...

Now going to pack my stuff first. Going to get those notes n stuff out of my sight.

Lazy day..

sigh.. last paper coming liao.. but i am feeling so lazy. Guess its because the papers are too far apart. Now i feel so lazy to study. Did nothing much today. Have to buck up liao.

Today met Huimin n rena n went for dinner. Had a bit of discussion on Singapore's trend. We were at a hawker centre for dinner and we saw all those cleaners. I have always wondered quite a while ago that since the work force in singapore is getting so much more educated, with more people holding a dip n degree, who else is left to do all these so called "dirty" job. Whenever i see those old people clearing my plates for me, i feel so sad for them. They are even having problem walking and still have to work. I cant imagine what i will feel like when i see my Ah Ma walking working outside like that. Really glad for my Ah Ma that all my uncles n aunties are very filiah. I really hope that those old people are working because they are feeling bored at home or because they have no children. But i think that some of them are out there simply because their children refuse to look after them. OMG.. dun let me meet these people. I feel so sick at their behaviour. If not for their parents they wun be around. How can they jus leave them along to fend for themselves like that? I am uttering disgusted.

And talking about the more educated work force, we talked about kids having so much stress today. Sometimes i cannot help but feel fortunate to be born in my era. Any later i will be hating school like mad coz there is simply too much stress. But wat to do? Too much emphasis on good education in Singapore and all the parents are so kaisu.

Oh.. and we talked about time and how some people wished that they have 48 hrs a day. Actually i am very contented with 24hrs a day. I used to wish that i have longer hours coz i have so much to so and yet so little time. But i think what rena says is right. Time is only an arbituary unit. YOU gets to decide how long u want your days to be. I believe strongly in good time management. You can make your 24 hrs work twice as efficient as someone else's 24 hrs with proper time management.

haha.. sounds like quite a philosophical session but its quite interesting how weird and complicated life can be.

Quotes

I slacked the whole day today.. i even downloaded a lot of songs...n exams is still in the progress.. oh my! wat am i doing?? anyway, read some quotes today.. jus wanna share..


Always be nice to people on the way up; because you'll meet the same people on the way down. - Wilson Mizner

I like the dreams for the future better than the history of the past. - Thomas Jefferson

sleep...

I truly understood the power of adequate rest yesterday during my third paper. I haven got enough sleep for the previous papers coz i have absolutely no time to study... In the end, i think i din perform very well for my second paper.. sigh.... den after my second paper.. i went home to sleep.. n i slept for 12 HOURS!! I was so shocked! I nv touch that paper at all and i have tons of things to study. Its a whole textbook with more than 20 chapters to read. So in the end i only had 1 day to study. In the morning of the exam(paper was in the afternoon) i was still STUDYING.. not revising... BUT... i felt as if i performed better for this paper than the second paper... those that i anyhow guess oso correct den the rest i rmb a bit here n there...better den the other paper.. i cannot even rmb.. tt one is really anyhow guess...

Well, i realised that sleep really does wonders... its not only improve your skin and make you feel better(no bad tempers when u get enough rest). It even improves your memory and your luck! From today onwards, my resolution is to get enough sleep and rest... Everyone out there should too!

life..

wah.. i realised tt my last blog was more like 10 days ago!! din realise i nv wrote anything for so long... actually i wanted to write something over the weekend coz i have something to say but was too busy n tired..

Sigh.. last week was madness.. biz proj due on mon ( and we were still doing the proj like 4 hrs b4 it was dued), got 201 test on wed(nv sleep loh, spent so long studying den the test turn out so easy), 204 test on fri(deduct 0.5 mark for every wrong ans, stressful) and den this mon got 203 lab report dued(omg.. this one is the worst, so hard to do, in the end i 2 days nv sleep n handed it in late)..... so stressed...

Today is wed liao.. next tues is first paper n i haven started studying tt paper loh.. OMG... how?? no study break leh n got tonnes of stuff to do... so sian...

Anyway, i still want to write abt something tt i wanted to write over the weekend... erm.. wondering where i should start...

Actually something happened on saturday.. den it made me question the me tt i have always prided myself upon for so many years..

I have always considered myself a mature, sensible and sensitive girl. I believe that i am old enough to be able to handle many things like school, finance and relationship well. But I jus realised tt i m not that capable as i tot i was. I realised that i am actually a horribly over-sensitive, unreasonable n unconfident girl... i cannot believe that i am so bad at handling my personal things..

i guess wat a fren of mine used to say is correct. i really need to grow up. I might not be a small girl physically but i am so super childish mentally.. Looks like its grow up time.