time to look for a new job

boohoo... today is 11th may. maersk never call me. sad to say, i have to search for another job soon... sian diao... sigh....... but i dunno wat i want to be leh.. how???

safe and sound!

hi everyone! i am back.. safe and sound after my lasik surgery on 09 may and the nerve wreaking presentation on 08 may. hehe....

my presentation was fine. it was better than i had expected except for a question for which i gave a wrong answer. sian diaoz..... anyway, i was glad that it was over. i was so nervous over the presentation that i could not sleep the night before.

my lasik surgery was very successful too. i still cannot see very clearly now especially at night. but other that i am very happy. =) doc says my eyes will take about a month to stablise and we will see if we need any touchups after 3 months. well... i hope we do not need any touch ups. i am scared. the procedure was very fast, about 15 min per eye, but it is very scary. afterall, they are cutting my eyes leh... thank god nothing happened.

all in all, i want to thank all my wonderful friends who have wished me luck for my presentation, even huiyi who wished me late. hehe... i hope i will not let you all down. *pray hard* and i also want to thank everyone who had been so concerned about my eyes. special thanks to my dear who took leave to go for the op with me and who sent me home and stayed with me. (this sounds like the asknowledgment page in thesis leh.. hehe.. )

i will be back with longer posts when i can see better. -)

my pretty poster!

poster presentation was finally over. well... i did not start out the day well. haha.. i was late for like 20 mins and when i got there, Dr Sze was already there but i think she saw that i jus arrived so she gave me time to settle down and came back later. =P

my first examiner was dr gruber, Yu Lei's boss. wah lau.. he is a damn nice guy. and after a long session with him (we talked for like 20 mins until even my fren who was like 2 panels away noticed it), i realised a couple of errors in my thesis. And i am talking about conceptual errors, not so much of grammer or small and insignificant errors. sad sad

and the only question that Dr Sze asked, i was unable to answer.. sian diaoz.. now i am so damn worried about my oral presentation lah. think about it will also increase my heart beat. freaky...

sian...

anyway, here's my pretty poster and pretty me.. =)

updated schedule

ow... why is it that i am always so busy? even when i dun need to go to lab??? why is it that i cannot have a single day when i can sit at home, do nothing except to rot???

sigh.. my updated schedule for the next few months:

4th may - poster presentation + dinner with GoDiva
8th may - oral presentation
9th may - Lasik
11th may - dinner with frens
14/15 may - stayover with GoDiva (ppl, cfm this soon can?)
18th may - DnD
24th may - dear's bday
23rd july - Convocation

Realised something is missing? yeah... a holiday.. sigh... i want to go holiday.. whatever happened to my graduation trip? aww.....

DR SADLER is wonderful

As I handed in my thesis in a rush, I would have expected my thesis to be filled with errors here and there but I nv expect to spot such a major mistake! My content page was totally wrong!! Somehow along the way, my results and methods failed to be numbered and so the methods section followed my introduction and my discussion section followed my results. Wah lau, I totally freaked out loh. Luckily I have a super nice professor. She was so super understanding, she actually allowed me to resubmit my thesis again. Wow.. I am so grateful to her… I love you Dr Sadler!

200 pounds beauty (미녀는 괴로워)

the first thing i did after thesis submission was to watch a movie with my uni clique. it was the first time in so long that i can finally walk out of the school at a normal time and not be rushing to go tuition or to go home to do work. well, on friday we were sitll rushing lah, rushing for the movie. in the end we missed the first 10 minutes of the show. but nevertheless, it was a wonderfully great show.

here is how the story goes (taken from wikipedia) *warning, this is a spoiler*

Han-na is a phone sex employee as well as lip sync vocalist for Ammy, a famous Korean pop singer. Instead of being famous for her amazing vocal talent, Hanna hides behind in her little room. Ammy humiliates her in front of Sang-jun with whom Han-na is in love with. Desperately, Han-na decides that it's time to get a head-to-toe plastic surgery makeover. When she comes back from hospital, no one recognizes her. She soon earns her own record label with Sang-jun and becomes famous. Soon, Sang-jun finds out about her plastic surgery (she tried to hide it from him and when he asked if she went under the knife, she said no). Jenny (Han-na's alter Ego) soon loses who she really was. The time came for her concert came and Jenny broke down. Not knowing who she really was, she broke down in front of millions. On that very stage, she told everyone who she really was. The fat and ugly Han-na. People cheered for her saying that it was alright. She soon realized that she was the same Han-na. Han-na released a new album under the name Han-na, not Jenny. All ended well after that.

The story has a great plot. It was damn funny and damn touching and sweet at the same time. In addition, the lead female actor (Han-na) Ah-jung Kim is a real beauty and the male lead actor Jin-mo Ju is damn handsome lah.

Now i am so in love in them. I really think everyone should watch this show. GREAT SHOW!!

after thesis thoughts....

Well... on 20th apr, I finally handed in my thesis and I am finally on my way to graduation. The process of writing my thesis was a damn tough one. For the first time, I finally understood how ailing felt like when she was doing her submission. The continuously-working-and-no-time-for-anything-except-to finish-the-work kind of feeling. I do not think I have ever worked so hard before. Not even studying for exams.

I started to do my report on Monday but somehow I think I was too slow. Or rather, I suddenly realized that I have hell lot of things to settle. Wed, I started on my results and to my horror, I realized that I have A LOT of data to handle. By that I am talking about like 7 gel photos and a total of more than 40 graphs to plot. Thanks for the invention of sigma plot and photoshop if not I will die.

In the end, I have no choice but to stay overnight in school on wed so that I can have access to sigma plot which was only installed in school computer and at the same time, to access all my data which are in school. I never knew I could work so hard. My day started from Wednesday at 10am and ended on Thursday at 11pm, with only 2hrs sleep in between. After this I really cannot take it and I went home to bath n sleep.

Then on Friday I realized that I still have a lot of things to edit. Sigh… rushed until I din even have time for lunch. My friend bought lunch for my and I ended up throwing the food away. I finally finished printing and editing at 630pm when the deadline was at 5pm. I really appreciated all my friends who were around to help me with the printing, punching of holes and organizing of my stuff. And I really have to thank Dr Sadler being so super understanding.

Now that the submission is finally over, the next thing up will be poster presentation and finally convocation on 23rd July. My undergraduate is ending soon. Somehow I feel sad to be leaving school. From today onwards, I can no longer write my occupation as student anymore. Sad sad…

my house

coup this personality test from my junior's blog. hmm... some parts are true.. but some not really. Just look for fun loh.. you want can try it out here.

Based on your drawing and the 10 answers you gave this is a summary of your personality:

Your house tells the world that you ought to be a leader. You are a freedom lover and a strong person. You are shy and reserved. If you've drawn a cross on each of windows, you always want to live alone. You are very tidy person. There's nothing wrong with that because you're pretty popular among friends. Your life is always full of changes.

When it comes to love, you shut yourself off. It's difficult to win your heart because you have decided to keep your feelings deep inside. You have a strong personality and you like to command, influence and control people.

You added a flower into your drawing. The flower signifies that you long for love. It also safe to say that others don't see you as a flirt. You don't think much about yourself.

gone case

well.. today's was a gone case. i feel lah. anything that could have gone wrong went wrong...

first, me was late. sigh... trying to fix my hair lah. took much longer than i tot.

second, they asked me about future shipping trend. Frankly speaking, how the hell will i know??? i just anyhow answer lah. was wondering if i should just tell them that i am not sure.

third, they asked me about the biggest news now. WTH.... i dun read newspapers leh. and i do not recall any news big enough for me to flip through the papers.

lastly, i think i said wrong things lah.

anyway, what could possibly went wrong did.. i will just take this as a learning experience and take it from here ba. YEAH.. on the bright side, means i can take my time to find a job.. haha... =)

3 days to thesis submission....

lab work is ending soon

well.. quite soon lah. end of may mah.. i told my boss i will come back to help him but i kinda regretted it liao.. wahaha.. Anyway, i had some nice memories of the place. a bit 不舍得 leave that place, but 天下无不散之宴席 and good things must always come to an end. 旧的不屈 新的不来 ah. I am sure that I can find a better place after leaving the lab.

anyway, we took some photos last friday, before a lab mate leaves and only come back after we leave the place.

the full force of my lab. My boss was forced to sit down coz we have to squeeze everyone into the photo.

here's the ladies of the lab. and me holding the twin brother of the 3000 column (I heard it costs $3600 instead) that i nearly spoilt.

important dates..

i got a call today. From MAERSK!! I was short-listed for the first round of interview! So exciting. Now i am so nervous.. what will they ask about? and how should i prepare for it? ew.. i need luck.. haha..

anyway, i was looking through my calendar and i realised that these couple of months is filled with activities. Some important dates:

17th Apr - Maersk Interview
20th Apr - Thesis deadline
27th Apr - Lasik
4th May - Poster Presentation
18th May - Dinner and Dance
24th May - Dear's bday
23rd July - Convocation Ceremony

jia you jia you!! need to work hard for thesis.

$3000 fly away...

sigh... i spoilt at $3000 FPLC column today.. i am so upset.. i felt so guilty lah. sigh.. i feel as if i haven helped with anything and all i did was to keep spoiling things. My protein clogged the last Ni-NTA column and we spent 3 days washing it. Now i spoilt the FPLC column coz i allowed the solution to run dry. sigh.... i think i dun want to go back after FYP liao. Plus someone else is coming to work on my protein so i think i can go. at least i will not 越帮越忙.

and thesis submission in 9 days. Dr Liang just gave me more stuff to analyse and do. wah lau.. damn it lah.. i dun even know how to use phymol. oh gosh... and got hell lots of stuff to write. shit shit shit shit...............

busy busy

Thesis is due next friday and i have yet to start typing anything! owww... but i dunno how to type. Can anyone help me by finding protocols for cloning and protein expression and purification using Nickel-NTA column? sigh... stressed eh...

And yesterday i received a call from maersk. At first i thought they called me to go down for interview leh, den the lady asked me to go down to re-take my reasoning test coz she said the difference between the 2 tests are too different. haha.. i bet the 2nd one is better. But anyway, i went down for the test at their office today. Walking into the lift of such an office building reminds me of YM days. Aww.. i really wish i can get into this programme.

Anyway, the test today seems easier. Or was it because i was better prepared for the questions that were going to come out? I managed to read all the way to the last question and out of which, i managed to complete 47. An improvement from the last 2 tests. But hor, as i looked back at the questions, i realised that i know how to solve 2 out of the 3 i dunno how to do (i did not bother to try the last question coz i cannot rmb liao.. haha.. ) and i also realised that out of the 47 i did, i already had a mistake liao.. sian.. haha...

pray for the best...

but before that i have to make sure i get started on my thesis. i actually spent my nights at home working on a totally not so impt project.. kill me.. ...

10 more days... counting down..

Tank - 非你莫属

wah... i am currently so in love with his songs.. i do not know why. anyway.. this is my current fav. i know i very slow... but still.. better late than never right? =)

Tank - 非你莫属

你知道吗?
我很喜欢牵着你的手的感觉
发生什么样子 我好希望再来一次

懂得让我微笑的人
再没有谁比你有天份
轻易闯进我的心门
明天的美梦你完成

整个宇宙
浩瀚无边的尽头
每颗渺小星球
全都绕着你走

爱我 非你莫属
我只愿 守护
由你给我的幸福

爱我 非你莫属
也许会 笑着哭
但那人是你所以
不怕苦

懂得让我流泪的人
给的感动一定是最深
在我心中留下伤痕
你同时点亮了星辰

整个宇宙
浩瀚无边的尽头
每颗渺小星球
全都绕着你走

爱我 非你莫属
我只愿 守护
由你给我的幸福

爱我 非你莫属
也许会 笑着哭
但那人是你所以
不怕苦

那麽多相遇
偏偏只和你
天造地设般产生奇迹

oh~ 我心的缝隙
我想除了你
任谁也无法填补这空虚

爱我 非你莫属
我只愿 守护
由你给我的幸福

爱我 非你莫属
也许会 笑着哭
但那人是你所以
不怕苦

那个人是你所以
不怕苦
oh~ 我不怕苦

4D class gathering 2007

*super backdated blog... forgot all abt it. wahha...*

i went for 4D's annual class gathering on 22nd Feb 07 . Pretty pleased with the attendance even though it was disappointed to know that there are some of us who cannot make it for the gathering. Anyway, i am so glad to see so many of my classmates after a year. =)

One thing i really love about organising 4D's gathering is that most people always try to make time for the gathering. Maybe it has to do with the fact that we only meet once a year so everyone treasures the gathering a lot. Another thing is that we always have lotsa laughter. haha.. thanks to ju, nat and poh who always bring life to the class. The last thing i really love about our class gathering is that we try to make it at somewhere quiet. So at least we can talk to each other properly without having to scream. And the best part is that you get to talk to everyone and not talk within your clique. Somehow or another, gatherings always end up sitting in circles. wonderful. I love you guys!

To those who cannot come, including Liyong who could not even make it for web gathering coz he fell asleep. *haha* do not fret, we have another gathering in less than 12 months. =)

As usual, what is a gathering without food, photos and games? We had wonderful canadian pizza, and nice other nice food that's courtesy of qing's parents and sisters. Not to forget, we had the most important food, which is our yu sheng. I am always very surprised by how we can always finish the yu sheng no matter what we had for dinner. Bravo. =) This year's yu sheng came from our all-time favourite stall, the noodles house which used to be at JEC but has since moved to Taman Jurong. However, comparing this year's yu sheng with last year's yu sheng, i think that ichiban's yu sheng is actually nicer. I am sure we will have many more class gatherings to come so we can continue searching for more good yu sheng.

To end off the night, we played our favourite zhong ji mi ma, which turns out to be a sabotage session. The victim of the night: Poh (as usual). However, this year, poor Alvin got himself into pretty big trouble too. haha...

the first few rounds were nothing much. boring. until the round that we were supposed to sabo poh. Poor him.. he had to drink up a concoction of green bean soup plus chili. Since the next round he was the master, poor Alvin also had to drink up with him. here's the wonderful drink and the bottoms up of the warriors. =)

The next round, Alvin was the game master and he did a major mistake. He offered to drink up the new concoction (green beans, chili powder and coke. ew.... ) if no one gets the correct number in the first round. wahaha... so end up everyone guess all the real safe numbers and poor alvin has to drink up alone. i wonder how was his stomack today. here's evidence of the act and the new yucky drink.
Last but not least, how can we not take photos? All cheers to qingqing who stays in a big terrace, we get to use the stairs to take a wonderful photo. Presenting to you.. all the 15 who came for gathering. Comparing to our sec4 photos. Most people do change quite a bit right?

See if you can match the people to their sec4 look.

Looking forward to next year's gathering.

On a side note, i really love qingqing's house. It has a big garden, had a nice big and tall living room. The best part about her place is that every room comes with an adjoining bathroom. Wow!!

yanling is so messed up!

Okay.. this is so irritating. I am complaining again. Recently I’ve stopped reading blogs coz they make me feel so depressed. Even children are getting a life, going out and having fun. And my friends are all planning graduation trips to wonderful places like Korea and Japan. Even my broke-est friend has already booked a trip to some nearby island. And the others are already planning for their future at least, applying of PhD, going for job interviews. Even my not-yet-graduating friend is going for an exciting summer program? Well.. what have I done?

My life is in a mess. I have no time to do anything and I do not know where my time went. Mummy has yet to allow me to go for my lasik and I have yet to decide where to get the money for it since I am so damn broke. As I am so broke, I am not planning for a graduation trip, And even if I have money, I still owe people money and I want to settle it asap. But even when I am so damn broke, I kept running late and have to keep taking taxis. I have never taken so many taxis in such a short period of time. Also, I have not applied for anything except MISE and I am not looking out for anything simply because I have no idea what I want!

My relationship is in a damn big mess and I really do not want to think about it. Our anniversary is coming up and I dunno what to buy or make for him. And I owe him a v-day present.

My complexion is in a mess.. again…

And FYP is also in a mess. I have not touched my thesis yet nor did I do anything on my presentation due next Monday. I have no idea what to write for me thesis and I am getting so damn sian of the project that I just do not feel like coming everyday. And as I am so busy with dunno what, I am getting a hard time planning experiments, especially long ones such as my protein purification. I am even contemplating staying overnight in school. Argh!!

And st john is also in a big mess! They actually mis-calculated the results for the competition and I heard that it was a super big margin. I have yet to get the results yet but I am sure I am going to sc**w them upside down after they announced it. And because of that, I have no idea how to go about planning my teams to train for Nat Com! But I do not care, I am going to assume I do not know anything. Sigh, and talking about this, I have yet to ask neither the teacher nor the trainees if the schedule is alright with them and I have a meeting coming up!

I’ve noticed that I am getting slacker and slacker day by day. Maybe coz I am getting older and I simply do not feel like doing anything at all. And I realized that I am beginning to behave like the old people in St Johhn. All talk and no action. I must start fulfilling my promises! Many a time, I said that I will arrange something and I forgot about it in the end. Sigh….

Oh god…WHOLE BIG MESS! I am so depressed.

from bored and sian to feeling better. happy? coming soon..

well.. a couple of days back, i was feeling damn down and damn sian. my dear was not in town and there isn't anyone for me to talk to. speaking of which, i was damn guilty of looking for him only when i am sad and where was i when he was not feeling great?

anyway, my dear is now back from france and brought me some trinklets. I got a super nice keychain that is PINK! and a gorgeous white LV coin pouch and 2 boxes of chocolates. Well, i seriously dun care but he buys as long as he thought of me while he was away can already. =) but now that he is back, i have to go back to being a good girl. Not like i was naughty when he was around, but it seriously felt good not having to report my whereabouts all the time. =) Do not get me wrong, i still love him a lot. But sometimes i really wished i had my freedom.

I guess life is so boring now. with CNY over, and FYP thesis coming up.. everyone is damn stressed up. i am looking forward to a break but to where and with who? i am going for my lasik (i am. Although mummy objects. i will find a way to convince her) so i am going to de damn broke. maybe i should go nearby places like redang? the place is so damn pretty.. i really want to go... well.. see how ba..

Last but not least, i want to congratulate my dear juniors for having won the First Aid Competition. They have not failed us. I am so proud of them. Well Done!

an important decision

i have made up my mind. i am going to pursue MISE instead of doing my PhD. I hope i can get and i hope that my parents will not say anything about it. =)

well, the reason for this decision is mainly because MISE has an age limit while PhD does not. To quote liyong: if you like MISE, you can make a career out of it. If not, you can still come back to science anytime.

Now, i have to get down to writing my resume and cover letter first. Argh.. i hope i get it. really really hope to. Pray hard for me. =)

on a side note, i realised that most of the people ard me who are taking or considering PhD are those who only took bio in uni. Whereas people like me, who have been taking bio for all my life since sec4 is not considering it. *grinz*

Dilemma

where should i go after my degree? aww... i am finally at the phase of my life when i finally have to decide what do i want to do.

sigh.. at first i was quite sure that i do not want to continue research. However, when i thought of the fact that i am not gg to touch eppendorf tubes, pipettes, flasks and all those rubbish ever again after FYP, i felt a bit sad. Kind of like cannot bear to leave them behind. sigh. now i dunno what to do.

The fight is now between PhD and the MISE (an entry level trainee program offered by Maesk). To add to my woes, my dad think i am wasting my education if i do not pursue science after graduation. Argh!! but i really want to try for MISE. It really sound like a great and exciting career. Plus shipping has been my interest, ever since working for YML. But i also want to get my PhD, since it has been my dream from young to study all the way to the top.

Sigh, headache headache.... deadline for PhD is 28th Feb. MISE is 10th Mar. What should i do??

Welcome to the year of the pig!

I cannot resist copying this picture from hm's blog coz its so super cute.. kawaii....

And I know that it is a bit late to post this now but I still want to say: Happy Chinese new year to all my blog-readers! Welcome to the year of the PIG! My favourite horoscope of all. =). Maybe everyone live, play and work like a pig. *grinz*

I know I have not been updating my blog regularly. Well, lab work and tuition tires me out all the time. Whenever anything happens, the lure of my bed is always much greater than blogging. Now I resort to blogging in the office when I have spare time in between experiments. But still, this is getting hard, since there are only 3 computers in the lab and it isn’t very nice for people to see me blogging when others are using the computer to read papers. Yet, here I am, sitting in front of the computer, blogging, when I should be trying to figure out how to spend my little time when I have so much things waiting for me to do.

Actually I seriously wasn’t looking forward to Chinese New Year this year. The period before CNY is damn hectic. I have to finish up some experiments, take time off to bring my brother to buy his clothes and to find my own shoes. Not forgetting, I have to pack up my super duper messy room and my desk in the living room. All to be done before Fri, coz me gg manicure on Sat den I dun want to spoil my manicure. >_<. Plus valentine day is in the same week, so I have to rearrange my tuition schedule so that I am available on vday. Aiyo, so stressed up.

However, it turns out that hz is not free on vday. He actually had a meeting on! His explanation was that vday got a lot of people so dun want to go out. *bleah*. Ended up I spent vday with my dear proteins in the lab.

As for my spring cleaning mah, I only managed to pack a bit of my computer table before I concussed on Sat morning at 6am. Alas, I have to continue packing my room on Sat after my manicure. =( On top of that, I still have to return to lab to spin down and keep my dear cells. Luckily my manicure was not visibly damaged. In fact, it is still quite nice from far. Haha… But still I did not finish packing all the stuff I wanted to. My clothes and my wardrobe are still in a big mess. What a way to welcome the new year.

CNY actual was not any better. The only good thing was the ang baos. =). First day was boring as usual, 2nd day even more boring. I went out to meet hz still gena his black face coz I was late. 3rd day was much much much nicer. Morn was my cousin’s bday party. He is 3 years old already! Here’s the bday boy:

After he cut the cake, I flew out of the house to meet my SJ gals for ice cream at Ben & Jerry’s. Here they are:

Eww…the ice cream was very nice but sinful. And we had a super nice chat, ranging from wedding, kids, to GST and politics. So funny…. Really misses this bunch of girls. I hope we get to meet up more often. =) Well, lab is still boring as usual. So I think I shall not bore everyone with boring details.

Today is the 6th day of new year. Another 9 days to go before new year ends. ENJOY!