my clothes

why always have to take my clothes?? always say i take her things....

of all my shirts she has to choose NEW one!!!!!!!!! i was saving it for the new school term leh.. its only a plain white top loh.. so many white tops she must wear that one ah?????????

i very angry now.......... argh..............

my name

wow.... for a very long time, i tot my jolyn with this particular spelling (J-O-L-Y-N) was very special until today, i found a SECOND person with exactly the same spelling.

i happened to pass by the notice board where they put the student's oral timetable. den i happen to spot this girl called jolyn ke wan lin... haha.. i was so amazed...

for like 13 years, i haven found anyone with my name.. but this year, i n under 6 months, i found TWO! seems like my name is no longer special.. but its okay lah.. i still like my name.. (",)

a day in school

was doing nothing while waiting for my kids so took some dumb pictures... the block where the st john room is located... been having power trip since tues but the switch box is in the guides room so up till today we still do not have power supply and have to do stuff in the dark...

their st john notice board... OMG... its so horribly ugly. i must remind them to change it once Nat Com is over...

our achievements! so proud of the the school... haha...

the school building.. so ugly...

the hall.. another ugly part...

my poor nalgene

look at my poor nalgene.. got a break in the handle.. dunno where i got it from oso.. sigh... poor nalgene....now i dun even dare to hold it by the handle coz i am afraid i will aggravate the condition. looking for a way to replace it...

shopping spree at esprit

these 2 days i have 50% off all items at esprit all because a friend was working with esprit.

Yesterday evening i rushed down to take a look with huimin after we got her shoes at queensway. As we got there pretty late, plus got a lot of ppl, we did not managed to get a lot of things except for a top. But its only for $9.95!! An esprit top wor.. haha...

Today, i planned to spend like 1 whole day there but could not find ppl to go with me. Finally i found rena! yeah! thanks gal!! haha... we met there at around 330pm and walked straight into esprit and spend the day there. We stayed till 7pm and walked away with 2 watches, 1 top, 1 jacket and a pair of bottoms. I bought a watch for my sister and a top and bottom for myself. Rena bought herself a watch and a jacket. That's not the end of the day. We left Raffles city to go to mandrain esprit again!! i have another friend working there and this time we were there to find a skirt that we saw at raffles but got no size. And we bought the skirt there! This skirt is a present for rena but she had to pay first coz me got no money liao.

haha... i feel so happy even thou i m gg to be real super broke.. this feel so good coz everything is on great discount... i think we spend around $360 bucks in a couple of hours and now i only have a few bucks to my name but i m feeling great!. I do not even dare to look at my account balance. hehe.. omg.. this is bad. i rather not eat than not shop.. shit.. this is very bad... but i had fun! thanks rena! and jolin!

River Valley St John 45th Anniversary Celebrations

this day is finally over... the results of weeks of planning, meetings and headaches.

This event has really been a learning experience. I must say i have gained a lot from this event.

Despite being present for 4oth anniversary, none of us had any idea what happened behind the scenes. So, in the end, we started from scratch. From guest lists to invitation cards, emails, t-shirts, souvenirs, programme sheets, the actual programme and the list goes on. We literally started from ZERO but we managed to pulled through. I am so proud of my fellow officers, OCTs and my juniors. In spite of some hiccups during the event, i am glad that the most of it went well.

The progress through this event had not been an easy. I have faced the most ups and downs i ever had in one period during this event. For the past couple of weeks, i have faced joy, disappointment, low self confidence and the final sense of achievement. I really wanted to give up halfway but I still hanged on till the end and i am glad that i did that. I would have been so disgusted with myself if i just walk out on my friends like that.

Thinking back, that period of time was so stressed. Like what a friend said, it was even worst than studying. I totally agree. All the late nights and the running here and there and the endless meetings. Sigh...

Now that it is over, i have other things on my hand. When will the things ever end? No, they will never end. The question i should ask myself is how long do i want to carry on doing all these. A friend once teased me, saying that i will only quit when St John collapse. I guess he might be correct.

Joining RV and St John was the turning point of my life. I will not be who i am now without the trainings from St John and i would not have met one of the most important people in my life if not for St John. Words cannot describe how i feel about St John(probably coz i m bad at them) so i am not going to try and describe.

Anyway, go the site below for some snippets of the event.

http://www.pbase.com/alwyn/sjab

Staying Empowered During Stressful Times

It happens to the best of us. No matter how adept we become in handling difficulties, solving problems, and staying optimistic, there will be times when the once brightly-lit road becomes foggy. We can't perform at 100% 100% of the time. Sometimes we trip, and occasionally, the mistake can feel so severe that it gives our previously rock-solid confidence a resounding crack. So what do we do when we start to feel lost? How can we remain empowered and positive through stressful times?

Well, firstly, many people think that asking for help or guidance is a sign of weakness. It's needy, they feel, something that the truly capable will never request, even though they may really need the support. This is a mistaken view. The giving of help need not be a simple handout. When we give, we also receive. And if we are open to the gift of help, we may yet gain the strength that we can use to help others in future. You don't have to be the victim in need of charity. Make it a partnership; something that benefits all parties involved either immediately or in the future.

When our confidence takes a beating, we may feel like withdrawing from society, from the communities in which we used to participate. But this simply strains your self-worth even more. So, even if you're in a particularly stressful state, continue to tap into any groups of people with whom you have positive, interactive relationships on an ongoing basis. Sometimes, when everybody expects you to shrivel and disappear, simply showing up will be enough to give you and your community that much-needed boost.

During nerve-racking times, it's also important that you remain real and true to yourself. It's easy to feel as though you've become half the person you used to be. But staying positive and re-connecting with your passions and life purpose will help a great deal. Stay centred and self-respecting, but be careful not to overdo it as to appear arrogant or delusional.

When we're at our lowest ebb, when we're feeling so deflated that we think we cannot possibly have anything more to give? we can very often surprise ourselves. Mountaineers, long-distance runners, and other endurance sportspeople know that even if it feels as if we have only one remaining breath, if that breath is spent giving ourselves one final push, we can often achieve the seemingly insurmountable. So give of yourself. Do what you can to still help others. The joy of giving from the heart may just be enough to bridge that gap between stress and joy, and give you a whole new positive direction.

And remember to always turn towards love. Grow towards greatness. At the end of the day, there are only two choices - love or fear. If you can love without fear, you will never be beaten.

i got this from a friend... if only i had read this earlier....

thanks xiling!

today a bit sian at first coz i was very tired.. din sleep too much last night den this morn had to take cab to tuition. So irritating.. i spent like 20 over bucks on taxi fare these 2 days. Sian...

I got home in the afternoon den got set to calling the old ppl to check if they are coming for the anniversary celebration. At first i din want to go out coz i want to go and sleep den xiling msg me on msn. There's only the two of us so i decided that i should not disappoint her and so i agreed to meet her after i'm done with my stuff.

Its like the first time we went out together. haha.. she was dressed nicely in skirt with a little handbag den i was like i jus came back from the wet market.. haha.. in lok-kok clothes and a gigantic big bag. Anyway, we started by shopping a little of bugis den we went downstairs to look at bags and made our way to bugis street to shop. When we're hungry after shopping, we decided to try out this cafe on the 2nd level. Not a bad place with good and cheap food. After we've finished combing bugis street, we went back to bugis to walk a while.

wow.. din realised we can spend so much time.. haha.. we met at 4pm den we shopped till like 9.30pm. but seriously the new bugis is quite nice to jus walk around coz the clothes are cheap and nicer. A lot better than far east. Think i've out-grown that place. But unlike what xiling thought, i dun think there was any shuai ge ard to see lah.. haha.. (",)

I din buy much stuff... only a denim skirt for $11.90 coz there was a 50% off! I din really like the skirt but i bought coz i so paiseh i knocked down their clothes bar. I oso bought a bag for my sister. Identical to mine. quite dumb but she like my bag and i oso like my bag so i decided that we should not fight for the bag. BUT BUT BUT... i oso saw a very very pretty and nice straw bag! but a bit over my budget. In fact its double my budget for bags. It costs $39.90 and the person say no discount. So i still considering whether i should buy. I see how lah.. should go back and see for a few more times before i decide if i really like it.

anyway, i really gotta thank xiling for dragging me out to walk around and for all her praises. hehe.. i guess i was in a little depression but xiling's kind words made me feel so much better. I really survive on praises. But seriously, praises are good esp when you are feeling lousy coz they make you feel like you're worth something. At least there's something great about you. Thanks xiling!

My resolution now is to make other ppl's day by praising them jus like what someone has done to me. (",)

about me

i reallly wonder why is it that somethings that ppl say meant a lot than others. Coz tt person means more to you? more than a week ago, someone said something really hurting to me. Till today... i am still thinking of what that person said. dunno why that has affected me so much... so much until i am very sian.

wat that person said has something to do with the organisation that i m involved in. this organisation was such an integral part of me but now i m so sick of it. Jus feel so worthless and extra. Ppl can easily manage without me. anniversary got ailing to settle, normal workings got matt to handle and cpr classes cfm dun need me coz got hz. I am only involved coz i have time. My life revolves around this organisation so if there are nothing on, most likely i will be free. I gave up so much stuff for this until i am beginning to think that am i being too stupid. No one will appreciates you for all that you've done. Why don't i go and get my own life?

I once recalled something that someone has mentioned: all those who stayed behind are not always the best ppl. its very true coz when u look around me, i can use 1 hand to count those truly capable ppl. Its very rare that you see those best cadets around. Its either the power hungry ppl or those who have nothing better to do and very rare do you find ppl who are truly sincere. This brings me back to myself. Which group to i belong to?

I think i am now in an identity crisis. I am trying to find where i belong to. And the reason for my existence in this organisation. I am always that X's something, the girl always with Y and so on. I was nv Yanling and Yanling alone. Still think my family is the best. At least they know me as Yanling and always Yanling. I really regret neglecting them for this organisation. That time too young liao, now gg to make it up to my family.

sigh.. i think i m pms-ing but at least i feel better getting these out of my chest and writing them out helps to bring things into focus... not all stuff are written but at least i feel better now..

the end

wow.. yesterday finally ended my no ending days of gg back to RV. Its so super tiring. Now i can finally understand what my dear juniors are going through poor them

Anyway, i started the days on Tuesday (31st May) by going back to RV for the first parade rehearsals. Den on wed(1st June) we had the committee interview. Wow, the interview took so long but we managed to settle the interview and the committee in the same day. On Thurs (2nd June) its was rehearsal again but this time, only got me around coz matt and ailing are unable to come. So in the end i took their rehearsal and OMG, the sun was so scorching hot. I was so red and dark when i got home. YUCKS!! Den on friday, its was rehearsal again together with their handover parade. The sec 4s cannot wait to handover to their juniors. But i think some of them was pretty sad coz got ppl cried.

This was not the end.. sigh... on Saturday got a public duty to do. haha.. supposed to wear full-u but when we got there, uncle teo said no need to change. heehee... On Sunday, i had to bring the kids to watch sinmal com. AL supposed to come with me but she overslept so i told her to stay at home and sleep. All of us haven been getting enough sleep coz we day time go school den night time do paper work n stuff at home. All preparations for anniversary. On Sunday night i still have the sinmal com dinner to attend. sigh... so tired...

but anyway, today and tmr are rest days! i get my break.. haha.. gg to sleep like pig.. even though i know i still got quite a bit of stuff haven do yet.. sigh..they can wait...

half dead

omg.. my lappie jus scared me half to death...

i accidentally got some tea on it den it got angry... the keypad went mad.. i nv touch anything it type "rrrrrrrrrrrrr" all the way... den i press backspace.. it give me gvyr....omg....

sorry darling.. i wun get anything drinks or anything you dun like near you anymore.. dun be angry with me ok? sorry sorry...

anyway.. its working properly now.. sigh.. i was scared stiff...

hot day

i meant hot as in literally hot and my temper very hot... i had a cold shower and an ice cream. managed to cool me down quite a lot... really cooled me down.. i can think better after that..

sigh.. anyway.. it started coz my teacher was chasing us out of school today. den she said that the juniors are in a hurry to leave. they said(the juniors) that their life do not revolve around st john. Den i got so irritated. Like mine does yar? i dun even have to do so much stuff if they really do get their stuff done. OMG... such an ungrateful bunch of kids. In fact i dun even need to come back leh. I cant get a job coz of this anniversary stuff and i got nothing out of it ok? spoilt brats.

i was really angry for very long. And the parents are complaining. Say something like if we say 5 have to let them off at 5pm. den my mum has to call and complain that nv see me at home. Made my blood boil. Like their parents will complain mine dun complain ya? Only they are doing stuff ah? And please loh, they are not even doing their stuff properly so the least they can do is to shut their mouth up ya?

I nv expected thanks for helping. I am a volunteer and i happily sacrifice my time. But the least they can do is to keep quiet them they do not have better things to say.

sigh.. anyway.. after thinking about it for quite a while. Why am i so worked up for? Maybe it isn't what they said, I only heard it from the teacher. And my teacher has a habit of misunderstanding what ppl really meant.

the cold shower really worked. I felt so much better now. More open and receptive to things. I should learn to control my emotions.

30th may 2005

a week since my last blog.. not like nothing happened but like a friend said... the feeling is lost by the time you get to the computer and you dun feel like blogging anymore..

well.. today something interesting happened.. hehe.. not very interesting lah.. but i got to go out with hz today. i hear groanings. Hey.. its a monday and he's supposed to be working loh but he off and he decided that he wants to come out with me instead of sitting at home with his computer. So happy! but he come out must find things to argue with me. Keep asking me why that little thing (some abnormal growth) on my arm havs not heal yet and keep asking me if i got see the doctor. He added that tell me so much oso no use, i wun listen and i will regret it. Hello... my skin got anything to do with you? i already very irritated over my face and my legs liao.. do you still have to rub into it?

His words made me think of something. Probably i was being sensitive but maybe he started to 嫌弃 me? i really think that i've became uglier since i left JC. I cannot help but feel sad that he, of all ppl, has to judge me by my appearance. But i think i am being silly lah.. he's not such a person. At his age, he would want a gf who's presentable that you can bring to meet your friends... i think all guys are like that...

Anyway, it brought me back to a classmate of mine. We jus had JC class gathering on sunday den got this fren of mine who slimmed down a lot. She used to be bigger size(slightly) den me and i think she's now a lot slimmer than me. Can even say she's not on the small side. A classmate asked what happened den she said she went jogging. Den my fren commented that she looks different. Den she said something like:" good mah, den i have a chance to get a bf."

Her words really made me think a lot. Guys really judge girls by appearance? I think its so sad. And i was thinking, if i ever really break up with hz, i will jus be left on the shelf coz i think i m so ugly now. Scars all over the place. oh my goodness....

sigh... but i guess the world is like that lah. Looks is always what attracts you to that person in the first place. Frankly speaking, i wun want to be a person who's ugly. But seriously, appearance is not the first thing on my list. It is probably one of those but definitely not the most impt. But its hard to say lah. I probably wun think so when the thing really happen to me. I hope that i wun have to choose another person. sigh... life...

happy birthday!

first.. i would like to wish junie a very happy 21st birthday as well as to my darling..

sunday i went to junie's birthday party. Din know a lot of people there except for the "pretty girls". But ting din managed to make it. So we are short of 1 pretty girl. After the party we went to sing KTV. The person at K-Box was so irritating... she keep trying to push us (junie's frens and us) into one room and we do not want coz its so weird. Den in the end she says we has to wait. Den in the end someone behind us get a room while we did not. After waiting for a while, we decided to ask again den she still says dunno if got room or not. So we said we want to go party world loh. Den she immediately says wait for another 15 to 25 mins. Haha.. we got the room in under 10 mins. What an effective way! but i seriously cannot stand her lah..

anyway.. she din spoil our mood. we had real great fun singing and shouting. i haven had such fun for a very long time liao. really miss those girls! some ppl like them are those whom you can dun meet for very long and still have tons to talk about. i'm looking forward to the next gathering with them.

flood of emotions

sigh.. today's the day...

i was shocked when i see the results coz i wasn't really prepared.. den when i click i saw the reality right in front of my eyes...

sigh.. wat was i supposed to feel.. shocked? surprised? expected? disappointed? or i deserve my results?

dunno.. i know that i haven been working hard. Blame myself for not putting in enough effort? Blame the school for all the drilling work during exams and lectures? Blame them for putting all 4 tutorials on the same day? Or blame my tuition centre for not having enough teachers then i have to take classes until i have no time to study? Who's fault? i have no idea...

okay.. frankly speaking.. my results is not that bad.. jus the worst of all the semesters loh.. sigh.. . maybe i was too complacent.. sigh.. wat to do? work harder next sem loh... sigh...

beautiful pictures

nothing to blog so i decided to post some very nice anime pictures.. obtained from doing the quizzes here..

http://www.quizilla.com/users/lilsweetchic2000/quizzes/

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

finally

hmm.. i finally rmb what i have to blog about.. haha..

first i start with last sat. 14th may.. a bit long ago but yar.. its a day to rmb..
Its the day i sent my very good friend off at the airport. Maybe this might be the last time in at least 4 years that i will get to see him. No doubt we do not meet very often even when he's in sg but the thought of not being able to ask him out wheneven i want and not being able to talk to him whenever's possible is so sad. At first i tot i will not feel sad. But as i saw him walking off with tears brimming in his eyes.. OMG.. that shatters all my beliefs. For that instant when i saw him walking in, i really feel like crying. I wish you all the best, Sam. Will miss you.

anyway, let's talk about today. I plan to make it a short blog.

I started the day with a call from dad telling me that my 外婆 is hospitalised. Was deciding whether i should cancel movie or dinner with my friends. In the end, i cancelled dinner as i haven met the friend whom i am meeting for movie for very long. We went to watch Kingdom of Heaven.

Wah.. a very.. er hm.... messy show? i din really catch the story. Maybe coz i ain't a christian. And i tot that all the fighting too gruesome. OMG.. not a very nice show.. more for guys than girls i would say...

Den after movie, i went to library to "fight" for a book. Haha.. coz this book "key of knowledge" by Nora Roberts is hot lah.. everyone fighting for it so i went to grab it the moment its status hit "not-on-loan" in woodlands lib. Luckily it wasn't up on the shelf yet and i managed to get it. The result of persistance and now i am on my way to completing her first triology in order. Meaning from the first story to the last instead of jumping around.

After library, i went to meet my sister n brothers to go hospital together. Hz even offered to come along. So sweet of him... But we got there early and so we went to walk around orchard before meeting my siblings n my mother in the ward directly. A bit like 见家长 coz he haven met my mother's side relatives before. Glad that he does not feel awkward. At least he hides it well. Anyway, he's real sweet to have came with me. It made me rmb the time when his granny passed away. I was such a horrible gf. If he sees this, I jus want to say I am sorry. Very very sorry.

lost..

dunno leh.. i recently not much mood to blog.. wanted to talk about this book that i've finished reading but dun feel like it.. will do it when i feel like it.. i am into my 3rd book liao.. actually its only 3rd book.. wanted to try and beat my friend's record of 60 books during the last holidays.. but i am beginning to think that its not really possible..

going to keep this place alive before i get my results.. coz after that i am dead... and this place is probably gg to die soon...

chalet

i jus came back from my class chalet. Brought a lot of stuff back from the chalet.. bought quite a lot den nv finished using. We bought charcoal too but in the end nv use coz it rained in the morning so we had steamboat instead.

I was pretty disappointed on the first day coz only 3 ppl met me to check in the chalet. Den after checking the inventory, we sat down to teach lam how to play dai di. Cant believe that he does not know how to play at the age of 21! After a while, i left for tuition den came back at night. Most of the people came at night so it was pretty 热闹. We sat there and chit chat den some were playing mahjong. Towards the end, everyone sat in front of the tv on the sofa and started chatting. We talked about everyone under the sun literally. From school to tuition to science and every humans and insects. Slept at 4am.

Next morn we got out of the place at 11am to had brunch. Den it started raining.. OMG.. so sian... since i had to go back to take food, we decided to change to steamboat. All the stuff so heavy. Den i think i long nv carry stuff liao other den my notes.. so now my arms are aching.. ouch.. LY and me took a cab back and the taxi uncle was very chatty. Not irritating but pretty funny. Den he asked us about school and asked us how do we rmb how to sing our RV school song. OPPS... me and ly was stunned for a while.. we took the whole journey back trying to recall the school song and that became the question for the day.

At night more ppl joined us for steamboat. I really think my class very creative. We used the microwave to cook chicken wings coz cannot fit onto the bbq tray. Den we removed the meat from the satay, separated the meat from the fats and cooked on the hotplate. But no one wants to the eat the prawns even thou i've de-shelled them. I think i like finished like 40 prawns? Oh my, so high in cholesterol. I think i am gg to die liao lah... but we managed to finish most of the food. Threw away quite a bit of sotong but not a lot of food was left lah. Not like previous years...

Oh my, i really love this class of mine. Cant believe that we wasted a whole year quarrelling with each other instead of getting to know each other better... sigh.. guess we were all too childish at that time. Looking forward to seeing them again...

last meeting with chung sang

Today's a sad day. Mr Wee was cremated and I met my good friend for a last time.

I have this pretty close lower friend. Well, i do not keep in touch with a lot of my lower sec friends but he's like an exception other den En En n Hoi Tung. But the sad thing is i will not be able to meet him anymore coz he's leaving Singapore for good. He's going to pursue his dream in Hong Kong, his hometown. I really wish him all the best even though i know i will miss him.

He's a very creative person and its very sad singapore has no place for someone like him. We are more concerned about certificates after certificates and no one has room to accomodate a creative mind like him. So he's leaving for a place which might appreciate him. Sincerely wish him all the best. Will miss you Chung Sang!

Anyway, we met for lunch today. We went Far East to eat chicken rice under candlelight coz they doing some repairs to the electricity. So romantic.. Den after lunch, we walked ard the place a bit den when we wanted to leave we was caught in the rain.. sian..

After waiting for a while, we went to eat the hong kong dessert. I had mango pudding.. wow... so nice!!! But its pretty expensive.. cannot eat too much... hoi tung and chung sang both said that the ambience is so diff from HK's one coz HK's one is more tea house like while ours is more modern.

Anyway, after lunch, we went taka coz i want to find a birthday present. Den chung sang taught me something about cuff links.. din know that we have to match it to the belt! and he even heard about the pen that i wanted to see.. haven met a second person who does.. But after looking around for so much, i haven bought anything.... maybe i will go back another day.. still got a bit of time..

I left at around 5pm coz i have tuition and we each went our own way. I feel so sad coz i cant bear saying good bye. Den when i went tuition, i think my students oso think i look upset den they keep saying tt i went out of love...

sigh.... why do things have to change? And ppl have to go? very sad... =(

040505

Since huimin was jealous, i shall blog a bit about 4th May too.

It was one day after my exam. I think i was in an after-exam syndrome when i realised that i woke up at 8am!! Din wanted to go back to bed so woke up and did quite a lot of things. Sent out 4 resumes in the morning and finished my lab report. As i started my report pretty late, i finished late and went to school late. So in the end huimin had to wait for me in school.

Den we went to orchard to meet rena. We went to Pacific Plaza first to take Huimin's fossil watch den she talked about the Vincent watch incident. She said the person there spoilt her watch after changing the batt den when she wanted them to repair, they said that it would cost her $70. Den huimin says she wants to bring down to Pac Plaza to repair den the guy said will cost her abt $90. In the end huimin only spent $8. I think i am going to condemn that place liao. That time i bot hz's watch there too and even though our watches was bought at about the same time, his watch keep spoiling..

Anyway, we walk around in taka and took 10 years to get to heerens. In the end we did speed shopping but i din get anything. And we missed my billy bombers so in the end we had mudpie at NYDC. Reminded me of the time during JC when my class went NYDC to have lunch after a Phy paper. Nice memories....

Anyway, after the mudpie we went home. So sian coz i din get to buy anything..

050505

Today's an interesting day. Guess why? Coz its the 5th of May in the year of 2005! 050505. When will u ever get another one?

Anyway, i spent today shopping!

I woke up at 1030 den bath and went to RV to meet Mrs Tan regarding some stuff.

Den i went PSA bldg to look for Ju to take some stuff from her. AL also joined us and showed us Jov's birthday present. Very nice!! Den we have lunch at PSA bldg. As Ju was working at Obriens, we had sandwiches from there and drank smoothie and fruit drink. Very nice! And cheap! Coz ju only charged us for one sandwich. So yummy!! We sat there to chat and eat and watch lightning strike across the sky. Den on the way to the toilet i saw this little stall which sells bags. I saw this very very very nice handbag and i bought it for $17!! You can see it in the picture. And the sales girls very funny and friendly. I might consider buying more from them since i am a bag freak!

After buying the bag, we walked to the bus stop in the rain to take bus to orchard. Had to change at Harbour Front and we waited so super longgggggg for the bus to come. Finally it came. Den on the way to orchard, we started talking a lot. Actually we started talking even when we left the place. Its so comfortable to be with AL. I dunno why oso, everytime i with her i very stress-free coz we can talk about anything under the world. I can jus complain to her, tell her problems and i always feel like she can really understand. Thanks gal!!

When we reached orchard, we are supposed to go toys R us to get application form for retail assistant. I only go there to fill for AL's fren. But along the way we had too much distractions. We went Tang's food court to buy sugar cane, went cineleisure to buy fruits, look at bread and look at ice cream. Den we went esprit to look and try jackets. We really only tried jackets. Den we went Zara to try clothes. But all nv buy. haha.. finally we made it to toys R us den filled the form and went off.

Den we went heerens. Walked around den i bought my shoes! 19.90.. very cheap and nice. we wanted to buy slippers but found nothing nice. And i bot huimin's skirt for her too. haha.. she must be very happy.. And i had billy bombers finally. AL's the best! haha..

We went home after eating and i felt so happy the whole day. Met the few most impt ppl of my life and had a very fufilling day.

WW IV

Here's how my table looks like during the exam.

This was taken jus the day before my last paper. You can see pens strewn all over the table. Well, that's always how i study.

At the top right hand corner u see my fav Jolin's new album. I will listen when i study until very sian.

U also see my clock right in front of me so that i will know how slowly i have been studying.

U also see a bottle of walnuts. My brain food! My aunt says very good for brain so i take a lot during the exam. That was once i took so much until i had an upset stomach.

I have a dictionary there for this paper too as it was law. And i realised that my english is so poor that i do not understand the books and have to keep checking the dictionary.

Not to forget my dear Nalgene pink bottle. But i do not drink too much coz i do not want to keep going to the toilet.. so troublesome...

Right in the middle of the table is my notes.. usually u will see more notes but as its the last paper, most of my notes are tucked away in a corner, waiting for me to put them into files...

Textbooks

here's my collection of textbooks since year 1.. a grand total of 12 books. My most expensive book (Molecular Biology of THE CELL) is hidden but u can make out a bit of the top of the grey book. I have some others photocopied textbooks which i file together with my notes and i have another textbook with a friend. I was thinking that if i continue to buy, at the end of year 4, i will be sleeping on paper coz i have no place to put them.

quiz

Go take a quiz about me at the following link:

http://www.quizyourfriends.com/yourquiz.php?quizname=050504144917-120242&email=dratigar@singnet.com.sg

end of my one month agony

YEAH!!!

its finally over!!

sigh... my agony is finally over. I felt super happy and excited for a long time after the paper. I felt like i have a lot of energy. I went jp shopping den i went causeway point. I wanted to buy a pair of shorts but din find anything in the end. I even went to the library to borrow some storybooks. Its like an after-exam ritual. I had enough of reading lecture notes. I had a friend who read 60 books last sem? Maybe i can try to break her record? (",)

My after-exam resolution is to find a job. Maybe try and get an internship with A*?

Den i want to learn HTML, photostop and driving. I have been wanting to do all these for a while liao.. i hope i can get something done?

the next few weeks is going to be full of fun and fun and more fun.....

kids

i wanted to blog about this last week but it slipped my mind...

Last saturday was mad-day. Actually every saturday is coz i have tuition with a bunch of monsters but last saturday was really bad.

Saturday class is very stressful as there is this girl in class whose parents complained that cannot learn coz the class is very noisy and the teacher dun teach den always give us work to do in class. I give them work to do in class coz when there worksheets leave the centreu, they nv make it back again. Either that or its nv do. SO i am very scared to give them homework den i always let them do in class. Now here's another problem, they are so noisy and always gossip den nv do work. Last Saturday i gave them like 6 super simple questions to finish and they keep taking longer and longer to finish. I was already very stressed over my 208 paper den i was not in a good mood. Den they still test my patience. A student even stood on the chair and when i shout at him to get down he screamed back at me. Den when i got him to stand outside, he even scold me si san ba. OMG.. what's the world coming to? Kids have totally no manners nowadays.

I jus found out this friday that the boy had a broken family den the dad dotes on him a lot. I think he is probably feeling very lost and thus explains his behaviour. But i think the parents are at fault too. My cousins' parents are divorced when they were quite young too but they do not seem to have such behaviour problems. And my students are about the same age as some of my cousins but somehow they are so different. They made me realised that my cousins are SOOOOOO well-behaved. They make my cousins look like angels.

And during today's class, sigh.. i got them to do a test.. den in the end.. they took so long to finish as usual... But they are more well-behaved today except for the boys. And i realised that they keep using vulgarities. actually its not really vulgaries but very indecent words like kao bei kao bu ( cry father cry mother in hokkien, meant to describe someone very naggy or noisy). They do not even know the meaning of what they are saying and they are using it like nothing. They even tell me that their parents say them at home. OMG... parents...

Sigh.. actually.. sometimes its not the teachers do not want to teach or cannot teach.. but the first education always begin at home. Its the place which will mould you into the future person. I am very grateful to my family. We are a very strict family and they do not condone mis-conducts. And thanks to my dad, i know that i cannot be like him. He always scold vulgarities but i guess its not his fault coz its the culture plus the lack of education. But my dad is a very nice person and i inherited my bad temper from him. My aunts also keep telling us that we cannot be like out dad coz we are educated and stuff. I guess not every kid is as sensible as me and they are the ones who need guidance from the parents or the teachers.

Seriously, i think that family influence is very important. Parents should always take it upon themselves to educated their children, especially on basics like manners and respect. They cannot always depend on the teacher one...

I sincerely hope i can help these kids out.. they are a nice bunch of kids but if no one helps them.. they are going to spoil their own future...

back to the old one

i have decided to change my blog back to the old one.. the new one can only be a picture.. meaning zhong ka bu zhong yong...

i still think my old one is the best.. i am going to look for a nice one after my exams..

3 more days to freedom!!

Singapore Romance

Read this article.. i thought it was quite interesting.. no idea how true the facts are.. but i think it did brought out a general trend...

Measured by size of flowers lovers sent today, romance in Singapore is flying, but unfortunately it isn't. By Seah Chiang Nee - Feb 13, 2005

EDUCATED and financially independent, the new Singaporean woman is running into a wall of male traditions that is leaving some holes in their relationship, including marriage. The trend had been building up over a couple of decades. In few other countries have women made larger strides in education and careers than in Singapore. During the past few decades they have caught up with, and even overtaken, men in fields they had once dominated.

In university, women still outnumber men 55-45 with many moving strongly into subjects like media, mathematics, law and engineering, among others. Recently girls won seven of the top 11 awards for A-level Physics, which had long been a boys' domain. Island-wide, women have moved into the highest ranks of the corporate world and commanded artillery units or police divisions, as well as trained jetfighter pilots. Ten women, aged 20-40, are planning to climb Mount Everest. In short, the new female is able, confident and more than holding up half the heavens, but not getting equal success in their relationship with men.

This is running smack into a traditional male value of wanting to be seen wearing the pants, causing a growing "incompatibility". Better education has also led to the woman being perceived as too ambitious, self-centred and materialistic, not qualities that promote romance. As a consequence, more men are choosing their brides from abroad, especially from China, Vietnam and most of all Malaysia, where historical links remain strong.

The women's relentless pursuit of a career had come at the expense of learning to do simple household chores like cooking, ironing or looking after babies. "If you want to marry a Singapore girl you must be prepared to eat at hawker centres for life," one male cynic said.

A marriage agency owner told a radio interviewer how some of the girls had, on the first date, plied the men with questions like: What is your degree and earnings? Do you own a condo? "And they're surprised when they didn't get a second date," she said. Others find them picky, untrusting and calculative towards love and marriage.

Results of recently released research have found that one in five Singaporean wives is hiding her assets from her husband for fear that he will squander them or in case the marriage fails. This 20% here compares with France (7.2%), USA (7.6%), Brazil (9%), Romania (12%) and Britain (16.8%). But there are more hoarders in Japan (38%), Saudi Arabia (32%) and China (21%). It doesn't inspire trust. Another sign is the increasing number of cases when a private detective is hired to check on the spouse.

Pre-marital contracts are also becoming more common among people who want to keep their assets out of their spouse's reach in any divorce. Almost six out of 10 women say in a survey that they are not submissive, while two-thirds believe they could live without men. The changing female attitude is, of course, only half the cause. The other is the man sticking to a traditional view that it is his right as head to leave the babies and household work to his working wife. One in two women here have a job.

The social impact is a growing number of single women, especially university graduates. A growing minority is marrying Westerners. This has prompted a newspaper reader to urge her well-educated peers to revisit some the traditional feminine traits. Her letter followed reports that more Singaporeans, including young professional males, were turning abroad for brides. She said she had worked in Vietnam and found the girls there feminine, their speech melodious. "They work hard without complaining, carrying loads of cloth and vegetables in the market stalls and food places. Simple, gentle and hardworking, it's hard not to fall in love with them," she added. As for the Malaysian ladies, she finds them "neither loud nor argumentative, (but) pander to the boys' needs. Not as doormats, but as cheerful assistants, who see it as their obligation to help their men without expecting anything in return. "Not that they are stupid - oh, no, the Malaysian girls I know are smart and hardworking, with careers of their own. "But when it comes to matters of the heart, they play the docile, giggly girlfriend with as much aplomb as their Vietnamese counterparts. Again, it's easy to see where their attraction lies."

In contrast, the Singapore girl is twice as likely as her Malaysian or Vietnamese counterpart to stride away in a huff or throw water in the male's face or hold a public screaming or crying fit. "The Singapore girl debates and argues impassionedly. She wants to win at all costs and treats her love conquests like those fought in the office arena. She may be pretty, yes, smart, yes, but, oh, so demanding." The Singapore girl, in short, is a challenge to love, she added. Although she may, at the end of the day, be a supportive and faithful spouse, the barbs hiding her soft interior are daunting to the suitor. "She is materialistic, and loves being so. Shopping is a major hobby, and looking good is absolutely essential. The man is but another accessory, a helper, chauffeur, bag carrier."

There are, however, some 200,000 men who have a poor education and a low salary. Their prospect of marrying a Singapore girl is slim. One emotional man said online: "I'm fed up with life. Can't even find a date let alone a wife." For him and the rest, salvation lies in Vietnam or China.

new look

yeah!! i changed my blog skin today.. haha... like this new look...

i love the me 2 you bear ( got special significance one)..

but i find it a bit too cluttered.. wait till i got time den i fine tune it a bit...

do give me comments k?

continue visiting me!!

back into civilisation

sigh... back into civilisation for a while.. every weekend i am forced back to civilisation thanks to tuition...

was hermit since last sunday... preparing for 2 papers this week..

immunology was okay.. at least i dun think i will do too badly...

but virology sucks..

i admit i haven been doing a lot of work.. like nv do tut den sleep in class n stuff.. BUT i do that for every module loh.. no diff.. but i very hardworking got go n print notes leh.. from the library loh.. all the stupid reading materials.. its a hell lot of papers loh. n money...

and i tot i prepared well for the paper.. i din spend long.. only like 2 days? or 1.5.. considering my slacking time n tuition... but i followed the lecture notes ( tt's wat he said.. coz there was a lot to cover den he say he only give those found in the lecture).. den i diligently try to read some of the relevant materials when i dun understand his lectures.. on please.. his lecture notes only got cartoons loh.. n he considered something with 3 lines as too much words...

and today's paper he keep asking us to draw... i mean he nv give choice leh.. he says explain with a diagram... and he expect me to know the genome structure for the virus????? mad.... n luckily i heng decided to read extra stuff from the notes or else i think i die until even more ugly....

i do until qn 20 of mcq i already very sian n i m not even halfway thru the paper.. finish 40 mcq i half sian liao.. i start structure got even more sian.. 8 choose 6 den i only know how to ans like half of every qn?? only got 1 qn i know how to ans everything... by process of elimination.. no choice liao...i really write until i want to cry.. cant wait for the paper to finish.. the moment i got out.. i really cried.. shocked myself n my friend...

sigh........ i seriously hope i dun get my first C... i will curse william chen if that happens.. i hope he dun teach anymore.. please dun harm more students.. sigh....

i jus found this in my computer... it was such nice memory of the class. Jingwei, the guy who passed away is in the second row, first person from the left (he's the only guy in the row). He was such a cute boy.. heard that he became very handsome.. but i wun get the chance to see liao.. 

i got 43

Are U sexy enuf?

Message: GET A PIECE OF PAPER AND NUMBER IT 1-11(NO CHEATING)

SEE YOUR RESULTS AT THE END OF THE TEST.

WHEN YOU SEND IT ON PUT YOURSCORE INTHE SUBJECT BA

1. WHAT SHADE OF HAIR DO YOU HAVE?
a) Dark
b) Light

2. OUT ON A DATE WOULD YOU WANTTO:
a) Go to a party?
b) Go out to eat?

3. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE COLOROUT OF:
a) Baby-Pink
b) Yellow
c) Baby-Blue
d) Turquoise

4. PICK YOUR FAVOURITE HOBBY OUTOF:
a) Surfing
b) Skate-Boarding
c) Skiing

5. IF YOU COULD PICK A STORE OUT OF THE FOLLOWING, WHICH WOULD ITBE?
a) Louie Vuitton
b) coach
c) againt all odds

6. WHAT IS YOUR FAVOURITE PLACE OUT OFTHE FOLLOWING?
a) hawaii
b) London
c) florida

7. IN THE SUMMER WOULD YOU RATHER GO TO:
a) The Beach?
b) Somewhere Cooler?

8. WHAT IS YOUR BIRTHDAY MONTH?
a) January
b) February
c) March
d) April
e) May
f) June
g) July
h) August
i) September
j) October
k) November
l) December

9. WOULD YOU RATHER:
a) Chill at home
b) Go out with friends10.

WHAT IS YOUR FAVOURITEINSTRUMENTOUT OF:
a) Guitar
b) Bass guitar
c) Drums
d) The Triangle

11) NAME A PERSON OF THEOPPOSITE SEX


====NOW MAKE A WISH!====

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*******!!!!!*STOP*!!!!!*******

ANSWERS**
1.a- dark= sexy [5points]
b- light = sweet [2 points]

2.a- go to a party = playful [2 points]
b. go out to eat = romantic [5 points]

3.a- baby-pink = cute [2]
b- yellow = loud [3]
c-baby-blue = cool [5]
d. turquoise = sexy [5]

4.a- surfing = active [2]
b- skateboarding = determined [2]
c- skiing = daring [5]

5.a) Louie Vuitton=tasteful[7]
b) coach=laid back[2]
c) againt all odds=sytlish[5]

6.a) hawaii =you like being around people[2]
b) London= You are quiet, and like thecold [2]
c) florida= You like to party! [5]

7.a- beach = tan, likes the sun [5]
b- somewhere cooler = pale and original[2]

8.a) January = popular [5]
b) February = lovely [2]
c) March = loud [2]
d) April = playful [5]
e) May =happy [5]
f) june = chills a lot[5]
g) July = smooth [2]
h)August = fun [5]
i) September = quiet [2]
j)October =out-going [2]
k) November = pimpin' it [5]
l)December = warm [2]

9.a- home = quiet, romantic [5]
b- go out with friends =crazy [5]

10.a- guitar = eye-catching [5]
b- bass-guitar = mellow [2]
c- Drums = loud [2]
d- Triangle = crazy [5]

11. This person will fall in love with you!

SCORES!!!!
UP TO 20 = Not so Sexy
21-35 = Rather sexy
36+ = Too Sexy for this Test!!!!

NOW REPOST THIS IN THE NEXT 2MINUTES AND YOU WILL HAVE GOOD LUCK WITH YOUR CRUSH! MAKE SURE YOU WRITE YOUR SCORE IN THE SUBJECT

rest in peace

my dear turtle of 5 years left us today...

actually he probably left us a while liao but i jus realised it today... i usually dun check on him everyday... my mum will feed him vege den i change his water once every few days. The last time i changed water for him was last friday. That time i already realised that he was not feeling very well liao. He was so tired and lazy den he keep flopping his head on the basin... but me, as his silly owner, din realised anything was wrong and thought that he jus dun like the vege that my mum gave him... so i nv suspect anything...

oh my.... sigh..... i should have realised tt something was wrong coz he usually eat that particular vege one... oh my.... =(

life

I jus received a shocking news today. While i was busy watching my juniors compete yesterday(Saturday), my friend met with a car accident and passed away.

He was a lower secondary classmate. We were not very close but i had fond memories of him as a classmate. He used to be a short short cute cute boy. He grew up of course but very long haven met him. Last time he very funny one but a bit rebellious. I still rmb how he broke the classroom's back door ,after they've installed projectors in all the classrooms, so that we can enter when we reach as the servants only open the classrooms at around 7am.

But now, he's no longer around. Gone.. jus like that. He had just gotten his license and was supposed to enter NUS this coming semester. Sigh..

Really gotta treasure life. I have already heard of many ppl who had left us since the beginning of this year. Let's pray hard for everyone. Bless you....

blog??

i am beginning to feel like ailing.

10 years dun blog.

i have a lot to say.

but dunno start from where.

shall talk another time.

=In Passing=

got this from a friend... quite nice..

=In Passing=

In passing
I met you strangely
as you just entered and I left
as a wanderer searching for you
In passing
I found you
and you were so fascinating
and devastatingly beautiful
In passing
I fell in love again
with you my life began anew
with the frenzy of a thunderstorm
In passing
I wrote blindly
to you so far away from me
to draw you closer like a ghost
In passing
I dreamt madly
of you sweetly in the darkness
of the night kissing me silently
In passing
I told you my feelings
for you were there as I waited
for something to happen to me
In passing
I glimpsed the joy
in you I might find new faith
in this meaningless life we have
In passing
I was so so sad
but you were there my friend
but I knew I could never stay
In passing
I came to rest
where you will never find
where clouds drift lazily by
In passing.

birthday party

i went to my 3rd 21st birthday party yesterday night. Very little right? considering the fact that nearly everyone i know are going to celebrate their birthday this year. It either means

1. i m so unpopular that ppl do not want to invite me.
2.My friends have decided to be unpopular and dun want to celebrate.

3. I am going to go broke at the end of the year coz that's when all the birthdays start coming in.

Anyway, this friend is from my NJ class one. Very long nv see him liao. Ever since i left NJ, i haven been meeting him. At the party yesterday, i managed to meet quite number of NJ classmates whom i have not met for a very very very long time. It felt so right. I dunno why, but i always feel very in place when even i am hanging out with these bunch of ppl. Some of whom are not even classmates with me before. But we jus happen to be able to click together. Make me wonder wat's wrong now?..

Anyway, this friend of mine had a very creative party. He got all of us messed up into different tables and we played games. Supposed to answer questions on him, his house and some general ones. Quite fun and we had fun mixing and interacting with the ppl in my group even thou most of us do not each other before hand. Quite interesting coz you get to know his other friends and get to know him better thru all the questions. Maybe i can try something like that for my party. But mine might be quite big coz i am probably going to invite many ppl. Should think of wat to do.

But before i do that.. i should get back to my lab reports...ARGH...

nerd

i feel so nerd... rushing so many reports... anyway.. i found this at a friend's blog and i decided to try.. interesting..

school again

argh!!!!!!!!! why is it so unfair.. we do the prac until so late trying to figure out all the stuff and crack our brains over it and the second group only have to follow wat we've already tested for them and get to copy our answers!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! wth... damn the school.. dunno wat they all are doing... i am not going to share my results.. its mine!!!!

Humph.. i know i am being selfish but its not fair loh.. We do all the work den they copy????? what is this???? why cant they just plan the stuff properly? I know that last week we used up their reagents so they dun have enough den gotta use our results.. this one i understand. This week.. they dun have enough again?? and they have to copy our results again???!!!??? But the problem is.. yesterday we did not seem to have asked for extra reagents.. most ppl have enough. Even i had enough to repeat my experiments. So why is it that there is not enough reagents again??? WTH!!

school?

very long nv blog liao.. jus tot that i should post something... recently i dunno wat's wrong with me.. i very anti social.. so stressed over something which i dun even know is wat. most probably school and all the lab reports and rubbish lah..

Den i not only anti-social.. i am becoming very mean. I seem to dun like something abt ppl who are around me. Anyone talk to me abt something in school i can jus find something to bu shuang abt. I nv tell anyone but i jus sub-consciously criticise that person.. I am so horribly mean. I think i am jus doing this to make myself feel better.

Exams are coming.. and i haven really understood wat is going on in class. I have not been doing a lot of tut this semester and my CA so poor.. My friend got A den i got C... =(.. very sad leh... sigh.... dunno wat to do abt it.. i dun like to do homework with my friends.. i like to do things as and when i feel like it. Whenever we have longer breaks, they will do homework den if i dun feel like doing then, i get pissed off by wat they are all doing den i dun feel like doing even after that.

Den recently a friend's present made me very bu shuang with a friend. I have another friend A, who knows this friend,B, too so she suggest that we get a present together. I dun mind since we can get a better present for her plus we dunno wat to buy too. Den when i asked my friends, C said that we got so many ppl can get her something den each pay abt 20. i was thinkg that its so expensive loh.. she mad ah.. think that everyone will want to spend so much money on HER good friend.. Yes, we are friends. In fact, i knew that gal since sec 1.. but even though we are in the same clique.. you are not on equal terms with everyone mah. There has got to be someone that you are closer to. Den i was trying to explain this concept to C and she dun understand why would us not be willing to spend the money when we are together everyday and are suppposed to be "good friends". I dun mind the money but wat i am bu shuang abt is tt C is a very thrifty person( i wun say niao k?) so whenever we buy present for others friends, the budget is always $5 each. Den now she willingly to pay $20 coz its for her good friend. I feel like she is trying to get her something at the expense of us. I might be too sensitive or it could be that i am too stressed so i get very bu shuang easily abt things.. Luckily my other friends tot that 20 was too ex. Anyway, another friend D says that its better for us to get our own present. BUT we dun even know at to get loh!! sigh.. den if we share we can get a good present den each dun have to pay so much. I dun care liao lah.. they shall go n think of wat to buy den i pay only.

And talking abt D, i bu shuang her quite a long while ago. I dunno wat triggered it oso.. but we have been taking some classes together den somehow , as we get to spend more time together, i started to think that she's very fake. Sometimes when she talks, i somehow feel that there is always hidden meanings behind wat she's saying and sometimes she ask questions like jus to create conversation and give me a feeling like she's simply trying to get close to you. Recently i have noticed that she's more hardworking and keeps getting close to ppl with good results... The more i see, the more turn off i get... So fake...........

Sigh... now can understand how come i am not happy here. School not fufilling and social life so full of grumbles.. sigh....................

my beautiful saturday afternoon

It was a pretty satuday afternoon. Bright and sunny and got no tuition!! wah... so good...

BUT BUT BUT... got a com lab.. so i had to go back to schoo.. But its jus as well so i can submit my long dued 208 lab report... Supposed to be due on friday but i only handed in on saturday. Luckily the box is still around or i die liao..

Hmm.. den we started the lab with a super informative and funny video by my dear prof.. but the subsequent lab was hell.. real hell.. the first com lab that took me even longer than my wet lab. I was in the com lab for abount 5 hours? Wah.. do until i headache..Den halfway thru the lab, my friends and me were so hungry that we decided to go for lunch first then continue. So poor thing... can a got nothing except for Mac. So i had my long wanted to try chicken foldover finally

So sian.. what a way to spend a beautiful saturday afternoon. In school having Mac for lunch at 2 pm!! Sigh...

Luckily i had a better part of the evening coz it was my brother's birthday and we had great food.. So fattening but its so nice. Got pasta, pizza, curry chicken and ice cream cake.. Yummy....

beginning of school

first week of school.. no time to post anything.. nothing much.. except that i have been slack as usual.. looking forward to my first weekend...

tmr got 208 lab report.. going back to mug...

class gathering on saturday

i cant believe i forgot to post this! This is impt.. gotta share with you guys. haha

On saturday, 19 feb 05, i had the first and probably the only class gathering this year for 4D'2000. This is a tradition and a must.. we always meet during new year to lao yu sheng and everyone will try their best to make it coz our class only gather once a year. This year we had the yu sheng at Wei Liang's house coz we tot that we should have a change in location since we always meet at JEC.. pretty boring..

Well.. the reason we always meet at JEC is that we have always been buying our yu sheng from the noodles house there. Since sec 4. Like Liyong said, our goal is to out-live that restaurant. (",) Anyway, the turnout this year was pretty good coz i managed to contact some of the PRCs and they helped to get other PRCs for the gathering. Felt so good. So in all, we have around 20 people? out of 31 ppl with 5 people not in singapore. So basically only 6 who are in singapore cannot make it. Hope to see them at the next gathering.

We had dinner (compliments of Wei Liang's mum who refused to let us help and refused to take our money). Its a very nice bee hoon, chicken wings and pizza which we ordered. And some jelly home-made by wei liang's mum and water melon and of course, our yu sheng. A very heart-warming gathering. During dinner, we took a lot of photos. still waiting for them to send it to me den i can show everyone. After dinner, we had too much drinks left that we decided to play zhong ji mi ma to finish the drink. It was so funny. Reminds me of last time in sec 4 when my class like to go to the bubble tea house to drink bubble tea and to play truth or dare.

After the game, we went up to wei liang's house and chatted a little while more. And we started talking about the sec sch days and our class chalets. Really missed those days! And after a little discussion, we decided to have another class chalet! somewhere in mid may. Looking forward to that day..

Overall, the night had a great night with great pals and good hosts (wei liang's dad even gave hong bao).

But.. in contrast.. 01S7A's class visit to the teacher's house had been horrible.. sigh.. only 3 pathetic ppl.. felt so paiseh when we got to the teachers' house. Mrs Wang even ordered pizza for us. Maybe my class should have less gathering den ppl will treasure the gatherings jus like my sec 4 class. And i can predict that less n less ppl are going to come for class gathering coz the guys are starting school and quite a number of them are flying overseas. In fact, already 4 are gone and a couple more are going away soon. That's the problem with being in a high-flyer school. Friends dun stay.. so sad..

STOP IRRITATING ME!!!

STOP ASKING ME TO GO AND SEE A DOCTOR AND STOP ASKING ME WHAT'S WRONG WITH MY LEG AND MY FACE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i am sick of it!!!! utterly sick!!!!!! i have a lot of scars on my face and my legs and i am already very vexed!!! quit asking me what's wrong and ask me to see doctor. If i know what's wrong.. i wun be having these scars liao..can you guys dun be so dumb?? and i hate to see doctors so stop asking to go to the doc's.. plus i have already been to the doctor for my face so STOP STOP STOP irritating me!!!!

I am sick of all the scars so stop reminding me of it. If i hear 1 more.. just 1 more person who ask me what's wrong.. i am going to switch to wearing long skirts, pants and long sleeve shirts...

quote

Truth does not become more true by virtue of the fact that the entire world agrees with it, nor less so even if the whole world disagrees with it.

-Maimonides

I like this... it simply means that we should follow our heart. What others think is wrong might not turn out to be wrong in the end..

valentine's day

the time of the year again.. the time that couples go out and be sweet and singles stick with friends and have great fun(or feel sorry for each other).

hmm.. i haven had a v-day to my friends ever since 2001. The last one is probably in sec 4. Good thing or bad? i oso dunno. Anyway, every v-day got something worth remembering..

This year my darling was very sweet. Last year v-day he bought me flowers for the first time. After all the years together. Pretty shocked me. Very expensive leh.. This year he got me flowers again.. this year more flowers.. so expensive... next yr should tell him not to waste money.... But this year's flowers more special coz he arranged them to be sent to my place. Shocked me when i got home. But its so sweet.. Dun see him fierce fierce one.. sometimes he's really very sweet... Love you dear!!

I think i shoule crack m brains and do something sweet for him next year. I haven done something really nice to him in a long while. Maybe can do something for his birthday this year or wat.. i shall go n source for ideas...

movies

wah... i watched 2 movies in 2 days.. pretty neat record considering the fact that i have been away from the cinema for so long..

The first movie was yesterday. I watch Seoul Raiders after a nice dinner at Thai Express. Its was to celebrate a fren's birthday. The show very funny.. haha.. very nice... but my friends all say tt Tokyo Raiders was nicer. I cannot rmb Tokyo Raiders liao.. pretty long ago but i must say this show not that bad. Haha.. qutie funny.. definitely can watch.

The 2nd movie was today. Its was to accompany Ver but she feel asleep a while during the movie. I watched Howl's Moving Castle. A jap anime adapted by Hayao Mizayaki from Dianne Wynne Jones fantasy novel. A very good show. Just like Spirited Away. Very funny and cute... loved this show!!

haha.. going to catch more shows. Next one on my list is Robots!! Oh my.. i saw the trailer and it was like super funny loh. Anyone wanna watch with me?

chinese new year

yeah! its the time of the year again. Do nothing, sit there and get money. haha..

This year i spent a lot of time on new year shopping. Bought 3 skirts, 3 shirts and 4 pairs of shoes. (",) I even bought the last pair on new year's eve. Haha.. omg... i no need to shop for the rest of the year liao. I jus finished buying everything.

Here's how my new year went:

New year's eve:
I self declared holiday. Supposed to have lecture but i decided to skip it to pack my room and visit Hwa Chong. After Hwa Chong i went orchard and bought my shoes and met huimin. After shopping orchard, we went down to bugis to buy my hair moose coz the Reds at taka do not sell. In the end, i reached home at 5pm and started to pack my room, my computer table and stuff until 9pm. Had steamboat dinner and laughed like mad over dinner with my relatives. After dinner, its a tradition to go temple to cross the Ping An Qiao (Peace Bridge) and to Waterloo Street to offer offering to Guan Ying. Got home at 3am. Den started painting my nails. So proud of myself coz i finished painting in record time as i only took 1 stroke to get it done.

New Year's Day:
Woke up at 8am. Finished painting my left hand. Quite fast oso. Den put moisturer on my feet and attempted to wear socks using 1 hand (as the other hand has wet nail polish). After my nails are dried, i changed to sleep on my bed till 10am. Bath, change and dress up to go to my Granny's (mum's mother) place. As usual, my siblings and i will take cab. Usually we have to wait ard 30 mins to 1 hr. But this year very fast as we only waited for abt 5 mins.

Arrived at my granny's place den ran into my uncle by the road. Luckily or i'll have 1 less ang bao. My granny's place do not have the habit of giving ang bao to ppl who are not ard. Unlike my dad's side.

Den we sat there, had lunch, eat junk, watch TV and disturbed the kids. Left there at ard 3pm. Wanted to go somewhere else but nowhere to go so we decided to wait till at night den ask if my cousins wanna go for KTV.

At ard evening time, all my relatives started coming back to my Ah Ma's hse. Eat steamboat den lao yu sheng. Wah lao.. this year yu sheng very irritating. I dun like my new 5th Auntie (my 5th uncle new wife). She's from M'sia den very rough loh. Lao yu sheng become throw yu sheng. Luckily i ran away fast or else my skirt will be gone.

After dinner, a few cousins (those older ones), my siblings and me decided to go KTV. After much considerations, we went to party world at orchard. My cousin drove his parents car and sent all 10 of us to orchard. Reached there at 130 and sang till 430am. Wanted to sing longer but my sister dun want. So we went back at 430 and reached home at ard 5 plus. Bathed and slept at 6am.

Second day of new yr:
Slept till 130pm. Den sat at home and rot whole day. Watched incredibles and ate a lot of junk. SO sian.... tmr still got school. Sigh...

going to count my ang baos liao... came at a great time coz i m super broke...

the journey of my renoma

I dropped my wallet on the bus 174 today. OMG... wat a shock for me when i realised it. I was very tired today. Slept at 4am last night to rush my report for today and today go to school feeling very zombified. I put my wallet on my bag den i got off the bus, i forgot that i have it on my lap. I heard a 'tup' when i got off the bus. I have a habit of checking my seat before leaving the bus but i did no see my wallet on the floor. By the time i realised i dropped it, the bus was gone. I tried running after the bus but no use.

I started walking and called hz. The moment i started talking i started crying. Then i tried to called ppl whom i know live along the route of the bus 174 to get them to help me intercept the bus. But no one picked up my call. And i got even more panicky.. Finally i got to the JJ bus stop. i called ee soon and ask him if he's at home so can borrow ezlink from him. Den i started crying while telling him wat happened. He's not at home but he told me to wait for him while he come and look for me.

Den hz managed to help me find the number for lost and found and i called them. The person told me that it might take 2 hrs to trace my wallet as they have to wait for the bus to reach the other interchange. They gave me new bridge interchange number and as i was calling them, my phone went flat!! Oh my.. wat else can happen? Do i borrowed hp from another person to call. Feel so bad... i no money to pay her and i made quite a number of calls.

After a number of calls, hz called me and say he is at the bus stop and ask if i know the plate number. so touched!! He specially went down to help me see if can stop the bus. But the problem is i do not know the plate number. I only know the one of the bus after that bus. I tried calling boon lay interchange to ask but too late. Hz called and say that he is on the later bus.

After a while, ee soon called me and say that the drive of the later bus has reported my wallet to boon lay and new bridge interchange. Apparently hz told the uncle wat happened.

Anyway, i was supposed to meet ching ping to imm. She called me den i told her wat happened. I wanted to walk to hz's place but she asked me to wait for her somwhere den she come n find me. I went to jurong west police centre to make a police report while waiting for ching ping to come. The policemen were very nice oso. They helped me look for numbers that i will need to call n cancel my cards and stuff.

Then... when i was halfway thru cancelling my giro link card, someone called me (jus 5 seconds after i've changed my sim card with ching ping's phone). Someone picked up my wallet den called my ex-colleague whose number was inside my wallet. He gave my colleague his number so i can call him. Finally i went down to SMU to get my wallet back from him.

Wah.............. wat an eventful day. So scared.. nearly scared my life out of me when i realised tt my wallet was lost.. sigh... gotta be more careful next time. Dun think i will be so lucky again..

1159

i promised to update you on the 1159 thingy.

I had this CA exercise which i had to hand in at 1159am. At first the prof said 12pm and everyone was wondering if its midnight or afternoon. So someone emailed him and ask. Here's his reply:

Dear all,

Apologies for the confusion. I should not have used 12 am (or 12 pm) as they are both meaningless. As you may know, the expressions pm and am come from Latin. "Ante" means before and "post" means after. Meri-diem means half (meri) of the day (diem), ie, 12 noon. Therefore 12 am or 12 pm is a totally ambiguous expression. For example, 12 midnight is both 12 h before and 12 after the meridiem (12 noon), so is both 12 am and 12 pm, whereas 12 noon is neither 12 am or 12 pm, it is just "m".

I guess what I meant is 11.59 am. Some Latin for you today

Regards,

JT (Jaume Torres)

Interesting right? Learnt something from him... Quite an interesting prof but gives a lot of homework.

Hwa Chong Junior College

The famous 4 arrows. You will not get to see this logo on students anymore. History... Some back ground regarding the arrow: The college philosophy is symbolised by the college motto, which is made up of four ascending arrows and a link, all in the colour of red. The soaring arrows focus our attention on the dynamic process of education, with each arrow being representative of a single characteristic depicted by our philosophy, whereas the linking of these arrows (being emblematic of good harvest) implies the need for a balanced personality in a community of shared ideas.

I wanted to write about how funny my lab session was today until i saw a friend's blog. She posted her favourite Hwa Chong songs and as i was singing one of the songs, tears jus came to my eyes. I like this song a lot too. Here's the lyrics. A very beautiful song.

<<只为那爱我原>>

原我能把华初之光点燃

原黄城之爱于心中滋长

原友谊能把你心温暖

原我有完成心愿的力量

没有瀑布于岩石的阻挡

溪水就悦耳的歌唱

不愿途中无波浪无挑战

愈经挫折生命愈灿烂

之为那爱 我原与你同行万里路

之为那爱 我原与你携手向前迈步

短暂相聚多急促 既然碰上了又岂能虚度

之为那爱 我原与你同行万里路

之为那爱 我原与你携手向前迈步

黄城两载多短促 既然爱上又为何不付出

I spend 1 and 3/4 years with Hwa Chong Junior College. Although i missed O1 and i really hated the first few months with Hwa Chong, i gradually grew to love the place. I do not have a great CCA but i had great classmates and friends and of course teachers. They are the ones who have been with me through the horrible period of A'levels. Really hated that super stressed period. Luckily i have my friends who laughed, cried, mugged, play basketball and swam with me. Miss you guys!! I missed all the school events then will sing all the super nice songs and have mass dance. No regrets leaving NJC.

Now that Hwa Chong has merged with Chinese High, Hwa Chong Junior College is now history. Will forever miss the place and the 4 arrows.

shopping

Today I went shopping with my brother today at far east. Trying to get some new year clothes. At first like not much accomplished then later, we managed to buy a pair of jeans, 3 t-shirts for my brother and a skirt for myself. All done under 4 hours. Pretty amazing right? After shopping, we walked all the way to heeren's to eat marche. Really walked until very tired. My brother and sister were both very tired too. Wait till i get a digi cam den i can show you guys the fruits of my day.

Talking about my skirt. I bought the long one at Red 2.. haha.. was thinking about that skirt for a very long time liao.. since i first saw it at jurong pretty long ago. It was love at first sight! Then after trying out for many times, i finally bought it!! So happy!! haha... That time i wanted to buy at JP den my uni friends say not nice coz my butt not big enough.. haha.. first time ppl say my butt not big enough.. what a nice compliment. Actually i wanted to ask huimin to go try and let me see the diff coz huimin has universally recognised big butt. (",) anyway, before i could get to meet her, i decided to buy the skirt before they start running out of stock.

Another reason for buying a long skirt is because my aunt says that my skirts are too short. I bought 2 skirts at Causeway point yesterday and after showing my mum and my aunt, they said it was too short. So to spike my aunt, i decided to turn up in a long skirt for new year this year.. haha.. but actually, i also know that my skirt is getting shorter.. dunno wat happen oso...

time for bed... very tired after a day of lectures and shopping.. blog tmr..

school

today's the 3rd week of school. Pretty boring with all the tut. I haven really done any tut yet. I mean seriously sit down and do my tut. Com'on.. the school is mad loh. They put 2 lectures on Monday, giving me monday blues and put 4 tut on thurs!!! Madness. And i have tuitions on Wednesday, so meaning i got no time to do on wed. And Yanling will NEVER do homework earlier one loh.. sian.. den in the end i always nv do homework go tut. So guilty...

Anyway, i have already told my co-ordinator that i dun want to take the P3 science class already. I dun like to travel so far in the middle of the week. Oh please, hougang is so FAR from Boon Lay. I dun like to take train and even when i left school in time today. i took 2 hours and 15 mins to get to hougang. MADNESSS.... i travel until i get very pek chek. Silly bus and silly ppl.

Sigh.. dunno why i am taking so many tuitions for. Do i really need the money to much? Yes and no. i really need the money for bills and transport and food. But i dun need THAT much money right? But who will think that money is too much one. I admit that i am a pretty materialistic girl. And i like the idea of having money to spend when i need it. And i like to splurge. Very bad financial management right? I need a course!!

Sometimes I really tuition until i very tired and my dear sometimes very not understanding. I know he is concerned about me but he always show it in a wrong way. Anyway, he's sucha nice guy ( i hear puking). Did something very sweet for me a few days back. LOVE YA! He wun see this so i guess i am going to get a lot of puking from my friends out there.

Sigh.. gotta go back to do my homework. Got an assigment to hand in tmr. at 1159am. He really said 1159am. Will tell you all the story about this 1159 thing another time. Good luck to me!!

quote of the day

Dreams are invisible strings that keep people from sinking - Anonymous

so my dear friends.. hold on to your dream.

2nd blog

hmm.. decided to blog a bit today... nothing really much exciting happened.. even if something did.. i guess i was too excited to blog abt it... (",)

anyway, i had dinner with pey yng n qiulin today at bugis. While we were walking from restaurant to restaurant, i realised that we always meet at bugis. Coz we were saying things like " that thing is nice, the other time we came here we had that". Anyway, we decided to settle for Terra coz we decided that its the only choice that only Bugis has.

Terra is this cafe right at the end of the MacDonald's row. Right opposite Addidas. Pey Yng said their fish n chips are famous so i tried that. Really very nice. The coleslaw was quite nice and the fish too. But everything was very thick n rich and the fish was a little too oily. Felt so fat. And after eating, we sat there dor like 3 hrs jus chatting. Felt so good. Very long nv talk to them for so much. Den after Terra, we went Swenson's, wanting to try their crumble. In the end sold out and we ordered 2 ice creams instead. And we continue talking for 2 hrs at Swenson's b4 we went home.

What a fulfilling day!

My first blog of the year!

HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!!!!!

haha.. today is officially the first blog of the year 2005. Going to start a great new year!! but the first few days of the new year wasn't very happy. Started the year with a quarrel and ended it in a horrible way. Sian...

But the first day of new year was quite good. Went out shopping with ailing in a super horrible attitude problem and a super bad mood. But towards the end of the day... hmm.. felt quite good. Dunno if its ailing or the shopping but anyway.. thanks ailing!! =) We accomplished quite a lot that day. Managed to settle 3 ppl's birthday presents and ailing bought a pair of shoes and a shirt for herself.

Den spent the last day of my holiday having tuition.. the only highlight of the day was ying hwee's birthday party. Felt so good coz i met up with all the long-lost st john ppl.. Really misses the days with them..

Started school with a bad mood. Dun feel like going to school. Sian.. first day got 2 lectures summore.. I slept thru 50% of the 2nd one.

Same thing for the 2nd day. Except that there is only 1 lect and i slept thru 50% of it. So effectively in only listened to 2 lectures in 2 days.

3rd day not too bad.. i had my law class (took consumer and marketing law this sem). But i only managed to get to the class after a lot of poor orientation ard S3. Coz there was a clash in locations and our class changed venue but we din know.. so was 'chased' out by the other instructor and a bunch of lost sheep has to go n look for our correct class. Anyway, i got my acc proj back today. Sigh.. sad.. very horrible grades.. nv got so horrible grades for any of my assignments or even class tests.

Today's the 4th day. Lecture was quite okay. A very interesting lecturer with very boring content. Was wondering how am i going to survive this sem. At night met ailing n matt for meeting. Finally got to the place after much agony. OH.. n i lost my nalgene bottle......OMG.. i think its cursed.. Rena oso.. i hope i will get it back.. sigh....