my cousins

i suddenly felt like showing off my cousins. They are simply so cuteeeeeeee..... when they are not screaming and running around the place.. haha....

Let's start from my father's side. Since i do not want to post photos of all my cousins here which will be too much, i shall show you a photo of my family to give you an idea of the size of my family.... I think there was nearly 100% attendance here. Look how excited everyone was! It was taken during my uncle's wedding...

The baby of the family. He's so super cute loh. My goodness.. and he's getting spoilt by everyone. Except me... i will scold and beat when i think he is not behaving.. but he always have ppl to run to one lah...

He always post whenever he knows you are taking photos of him. One of his silly smiles...

The baby and his elder sister.... his sister used to be the baby of the family. Very cute too but now getting really terribly behaved... guess kids all have to pass this stage...

Now to my mummy's side. hmm.. not really close to them. At least not as much as my father's side. The main reason i think is due to age difference lah. My mum's the eldest and my eldest uncle's eldest daughter is even younger den my youngest bro. A bit confusing but i think you get the idea lah.... Plus we do not go back as often as before. Hmm.. i think the visits stopped getting frequent after i entered sec sch coz sch work and st john prevented me from leaving my house on sundays. so we stopped going back. Come to think of it.. like quite bad oso... anyway, i had more contact since my grandmother's funeral. Not a bad thing actually, blessing in disguise as it did pulled us back a little bit. Anyway, here's 2 of my cousins. They lived in M'sia so its not easy to see them.

This is the girl.. Her name is 淑柔 but everyone calls her 柔柔. she's very cute right? Esp with her hat with a sunflower. And she's very sweet too... really like her a lot.. think she will grow up to be a very pretty girl.. haha...

This is 柔柔's younger brother. Another super cute one.. This is a very nice photo coz he looks so sian....He's not as friendly as 柔柔 and doesnt't let me carry. But watching him is a joy too.

I have a lot of other cousins lah.. if i ever get a chance.. will post more photos here. Sigh.. all my cousins are so young right? Esp over at my mum's side, make me feel so old...... ewwww...

more birthday parties?

Jus came back from Pey Yng's birthday party not long ago. Only posting some photos here. I dun have those with the cake though. Waiting for Qiulin to send to me. The cake was nice and PY's sister was very funny.. haha.. PY's cake was like square so they were thinking of how to cut the cake such that everyone get a decent piece. And i thought i heard something like 7 by 7 and 7 by 8. I thought they might even need a ruler!!(",) Finally they decided to cut into 7 by 8 but py's mum only cut 6 pcs for the first row. Den when PY's sis came out from the room, she immediately exclaimed:" There isn't 7 pcs!". Her expression was so funny that qiulin and me started laughing. I thought she looked a bit embrassed. haha.. din meant to laugh but i guess we cannot help it. Anyway, its was a cozy party. And i was the only 4D exclusive person. Meaning i was the only one there connected to PY throught 4D only. Anyway, i stuck with the suona ppl and had some fun lah.

Qiulin and me. Taken a while after we had lemon vodka. Qiulin turned red soon after. And was veryyyyyy red. haha.. anyway she din looked so red in this photo though.

Self portrait. Coz sharon could not take properly lah.. den all the photos so blur.. waiting for qiulin's version. Anyway, pey yng looked squashed. and she purposely kneel down a little to accomodate qiulin and me who ain't as tall as her.

A second shot. Pey yng dun look so squashed but she dun look as happy. Maybe she likes to get squashed? haha...

Anyway, qiulin and me were talking about parties and counting how many parties we have been to so far. Initially i thought that i did not attend many parties this year, but after counting, i realised that there was quite a few. Include those that i was invited but could not make it but not including those mini-celebrations, i had a total of 13 parties (i only attended 11 of them and 12 of them are parties for a girl's birthday). Actually its not a lot considering the fact that nearly 90% of my friends are 21. Anyway, i anticipated that at least 2 more are on the way. I hope none of the parties clash with anything.. i hate having to miss out the fun and having to decide who's party to attend.

posts back-track

hey ppl.. jus to inform you that sometimes the date on my blog not accurate one.. dun be surprised if you are sure that you read my blog on this particular day but you did not see the psot. Sometimes i back track my blog coz i was too busy or too tired to blog. Sometimes it could also be because the blog took too long to post, especially those with photos. I apologize for any confusion caused. Dun worry, nothing is wrong with your browser.

essential brew

Been spending a lot of money these few days leh.. yesterday went changing appetite den today I went essential brew with HM. I was not supposed to be there one loh.. all Huimin loh. I was originally going to NUS to meet her to study coz she wants to go and photocopy books from NUS as NTU all loaned out. So she asked me if I wanna meet her to study. When I reached NUS, she say she hungry den want to eat. In the end, I only finished 1 tutorial question then we left to go Holland V for dinner. Ate at a small hawker but it was a bad choice coz the food quite bad. While waiting for HM to finish her food, I got bored and took a photo of this windmill.

And we saw quite a number of interesting ppl while sitting there for ard 30mins. First, we saw HM’s bio teacher in sec sch, followed by sin huey from project superstar, venetta lopez and mo xiaoling. Sin Huey was wearing such a super high pair of heels that we really wondered how she managed to get up the slope. She did not look comfortable in the shoes coz her steps were quite un-ladylike. And Vernetta lopez has such great skin! We din get to see mo xiaoling much coz she just passed by us in a taxi. I saw my friends too! Seems like Holland V quite small.

After dinner, we were supposed to continue studying but HM says she wants to visit this party place in Holland V. That place is really fun. We had a lot of fun looking at all the balloons and stuff. Huimin vowed to be back after exams to get her party stuff. After shopping, we finally got settled to find a place to study. Originally wanted to go coffeeclub but we settled for essential brew. We had 2 teas and apple crumble. Very nice!! Except that the crumble got too much apple. Eat until we very scared. And there was this waiter who was quite good looking and has very good service. BUT… alas... he smokes... so sian... There goes this chance and HM’s fantasy… haha…

The menu. The fingers belonged to HM.

Self portrait. I took this one and a couple more. The ones that HM took were all off centre one… haha… think her hands too short lah.. wahhahahah….

Gotta get back to my tutorial liao lah.. I only managed to finish 1 more question at essential brew coz we were talking… all HM’s fault lah… aiya…

changing appetites

I met the st john gals tonight for dinner at Changing Appetite. We shared 2 combos, 2 cups of their freezers, 1 mudpie and 1 other weird dish that's red bean paste with green tea ice cream (cannot rmb the name liao). The mussels and ribs were very good but the rest of the food was just passable loh. But the thing about the night is not the food. It’s the ppl. It felt so good being with this whole bunch of st john friends. They seemed to be the only constant thing in my life. We might have all grown older and more mature, but we are still the same group of crazy and noisy gals when we are together. It was very entertaining to just sit there and listen to crap. I dunno how to describe the feeling but it jus feels very comfortable whenever i was with them. Dun think anything can ever replace the kind of link that we have. Really really misses the days we had together. Anyway, here are some photos. XJ and me were so busy taking photos that the rest cant wait to kill us so that they are start eating... haha...

The first dish.... seafood combo...

The meat combo…

One of the freezers… called peach please... I din get a chance to take photo of the other coz the rest have already started drinking and it got a bit unsightly.. haha..

Look at mao mao.. she looked so pleased with the drink....

The mudpie before it was destroyed.

After the battle. I think we finished it in under 5 minutes.. But it was very nice… we had choc marshmallow. I dun eat marshmallow so I think the rest had a fun time eating up my share.

The weird dish was the last dish. The green tea ice cream tasted weird but the red bean was quite nice. This red bean even got us into a discussion of whether red or green bean is nicer. Conclusion was: very hard to compare but when cooked as a soup and is hot, most ppl preferred green bean to red bean.

The gang! There is only partial attendance here. Biyun and jiating have to rush report and lindsey and soohoo were not free. From the left: Old tortise, mao mao, potato, wenjun, tomato, me and banana. Sounds like a farm right? haha...

A silly photo taken while we were all in the toilet…

After dinner we went home coz it was Sunday and all of us have work to do. Being a group of lazy gals, we decided to wait for the shuttle bus. And while waiting, we took some photos. This is my fav one. Felt like old time when neo print was very popular. a bit ugly though.. but its quite funny lah... haha...

Finally the bus came after 15 mins or so of waiting. It was a special bus. Old, authentic and very cosy. The only drawback was the bus has a modern bell. Those yellow kind with a red button to press. But anyway, being so fascinated by the bus, we took a lot of photos too. Haha.. felt like some tourists loh… here are some of our shots.

The painted glass on top. Look at the ugly yellow bell!

Us again!

Candid shot of 老乌龟. Very arty hor? Haha.. nice nice…

2nd day out at orchard

okay... i should not be at orchard right at the beginning week and definitely not twice in a row. Especially if i haven do my homework and my lab report. But i cannot help myself lah.. haha...

On Monday, I met my uni class to watch Andy Lau's show: Wait Till You're Older, 童梦奇缘. (Yes, i said met coz i skipped lecture). This show talks about family and life. It depicts Andy Lau as a boy who blames his father and stepmother for the suicide of his mother. And one day, he found this special potion that enables him to speed up the process of growing. By accident, the potion was spilled over an open wound and his life changed forever.

I especially love the phrase in the show that says "Life is a forward process". We cannot change whatever that has already happened, but all we can do is to make the best of the remaining time that we have. The show was super touching. I cried loh.. omg.. i haven cried over a show for a very long time liao. I strongly recommend all girls to watch this. Guys probably wun think that this show is nice.

After movie we went to far east plaze for chicken rice and then to have secret recipe's cake. Buy one get one free wor.... so here's the cake gang....

Our cakes... wow.. yummy.....we had 2 white chocolate macademia, 1 tiramisu, 1 raspberry cheese, 1 choc cheesse and 1 mango delight... and 1 big cup of barley...look at josephine.. she cant wait to attack the cakes already...

hmmm... after monday at orchard, i met lele to go orchard today again. Not that i want to keep going orchard lah.. but we have birthday presents to buy. We din wanted to have dinner but when we passed by Wisma's new food court (it's called food republic), we decided to try the food there since nv try before. I only ate the normal food lah and i din think it was very good but i like the place coz it very nice.... we got to sit by the window and see ppl walk by underneath. Next time i am going back there to try other food. Seems nice... *feeling hungry*

After food, we continued our quest for presents. Lele bought taka vouchers (they do not have expiry dates one leh.. so nice.. next time i can consider this as presents...). However, i did not managed to find the book nor the cd which my friend wanted. So sad...

Anyway, other than buying birthday presents, our main purpose was actually to buy jeans from Levi's. Dun scold me mad first. We are going Levi's coz i have 25% birthday discount as i am a member. Since this membership was shared with lele, we went to buy together. Initially, I tried the jeans at taka but i cannot stand the salesgirl's attiude so i nv buy. In the end we went heeren's and after trying so many pairs, i eventually bought the first pair that i tried . hehe... quote lele "why are you so fickle minded". I bought their new square cut jeans. I have been eyeing them since they came out. I bought Marissa (bootcut) but i have no idea in which demin coz they only have 2 to choose from at the store. But its nice lah.. and pretty comfy...

After Levi's we went to HMV and i saw this very funny thing.. haha... Look what they have done to Boa's face.. they dun like her wor.. they thought that the price tag is more interesting than her face. I was literally laughing my head off.. haha...

After HMV and i managed to psycho lele into not buying step sun's album, we found ourselves in the NIKE store... AND i saw this terribly nice bag.. omg.. i cannot find photo or else i will show you all. Its veryyyyyyyyyyyy prettyyyyy... omg... sigh.. and its not too ex for a nike bag.. argh!! but i got a lot of bags liao.. cannot... but its so pretty!!!!!!

lele offered to lend me money to buy coz i say i spend too much money liao.. no money already. but OMG...... i was so tempted. sigh...

side note a bit.. his gesture made me realised that i have a lot of good friends around me who always offers help when i need them. I am really very fortunate to have so many ppl around me whom i can depend on. Especially my family and friends. I haven been appreciating them enough and sometimes i tend to take them for granted. Anyway, jus to tell all my friends and my family members, i love you ppl! Thanks for being there with me through all my problems and joy.

well.. the nike bag ends the day of my second day of shopping at orchard.. missing the bag... sigh.. any kind soul wanna buy it for me??

wat a week...

I had my birthday party last sat and i took really long to recover from the fatigue. For updates, refer to my birthday blog. To make things worst, i have my 301 lab sessions. SO tiring.... Last week was filled with labs labs and more labs. Not to forget my lab report.

Wed i had a meeting and in the end i was too tired when i got home that i did not do my 304 lab report till thurs afternoon. Den thurs evening met jing n jac for dinner at bukit timah. ate roti prata.. look at our plates.. clean...

But the only highlight was my birthday on Friday. Not really excited coz got class till very late.. And my dear could not spend the day with me... sad sad.. But luckily i have my friends. BUT.... i will always rmb this day coz i dropped my lappie!! omg.... i jus hope that it's alright...

Anyway, friday night supposed to go KTV but kbox too ex.. den chevrons cannot go in liao.. In the end we went IMM to sit there and rot..... and guess wat we did.. we had a sauce buffet...

All these sauce went with only 1 pkt of 6pc nuggets and fish dippers. And armed with this and a cup of lemon lime and lemon tea, we sat there and chat till 1130pm. Really wonder why do we have so much to talk abt.

Sat i went HQ to take measurements for my safari uniform den went for lunch and shopping at suntec with jing and jac while waiting for hz . We wanted to get jac a skirt but failed. However, i am determined to get her a skirt somehow. I dun believe that there are no skirts tt will suit her. And i saw this very nice levi's top which i nv buy that day. But i bought it today at metro with credit voucher. haha.. so happy....

Jac and jing no stamina one.. walk a couple of hours they say tired den we went mac to drink water. After that we went to walk around more and they were so lethargic.. haha.. should get them to come out with me more often. Walk more and eat less. Jing was like saying come out with me need a lot of stamina.

After shopping, we went geylang for dinner. Should have warned me lah. I was wearing a short skirt and spag top loh. So scared tt all the old ah pek who went there to ogle at the girls will think that i am part of them. If they ever dared to get near to me, I will slap them.... Anyway, we had nice pig organ soup, intestines and trotters.

Look at the amt of food we have.. wow!!

hmmm... finished already.. we even had 2 refills of the soup. feeling so satisfied.. *pat pat stomach*

3 very satisfied women.....

Den we went to eat the dou hua.. Wow.. really really very nice. But i was so full that i did not eat much... look who's been eating so much?? not me definitely.. haha..

Today i went out with hz. Din walk ard much but we went to marina square. WOW!! so different. It must have been a long while since i was there. Must find a time to go back there and walk more and get to know the place better. I totally lost my orientation there. We went back earlier coz he want to watch shanghai knights. But in the end when i got home, i realised that the show only showing next sun. Sian.. got ditched for nothing...

Tmr morn got no class.. happy happy.....

deja vu feeling

Why do i feel that despite years of seeing each other everyday but our chemistry is still not as strong or even non-existent. Something wrong with me?

Sometimes I can get really anti-social but I am really a very 群居 animal and i cannot stand doing things alone. But time and time again, i found myself doing things alone. I feel so lonely.

I finally appreciate my friends more now. I think I used to take them for granted but not anymore.

Oh.. i missed Hoi Tung and En En with all the Long John Silver days. All the neo print days and St John days.

I missed the pigs with all the training days and all the st john gals with all the silly things we do.

I missed Pey Yng and Qiulin who always help me to buy food when I have to skip lunch to do homework and who always help me with my work. I missed Liyong, Yong Kiat, Wei Liang, Xiaodun, Yu Juan, Zhang Hua and many more ppl who always helped me with my work esp physics and will never look down on me no matter how stupid my questions can do and when its obvious that i never listen in class.

I missed the pretty girls with all the stupid things in 1st 3 months. I missed Ting, Eli and Huimin who always slack with me but will force me to study but never told me that i deserve my bad results. I missed Kai Er, Eng Ying and Jenny for all the swimming and basketball. I missed Wei Theng who helped me with my work a lot but never scold me for asking so much stupid questions and dun give me tt kind of stupid look.

Ohhhhhh.... i jus missed those days. I really hate my life now.... feeling so sorry for myself...

humans

is it something wrong with that person (A) or me? Maybe i am too sensitive. But why do i feel like A very bu shuang me? I know i very parasitic but i dun think A need to do this to me loh. A was talking so nicely to someone den when i tried to help, A tone changed when talking to me. Like trying to tell me: What do you know?

Wah lau.. so pissed off. I hate it when ppl look down on me.

Irritated.

What's wrong with our education system?

Today my friend had her hp stolen. Right under her nose in the school library!! She left her hp on the table and took a short nap. When she woke up, her phone was gone. When her friend helped her to call her phone, it was off, indicating that someone has off her phone. Except for students, no one will enter that place loh.....

Usually i also leave my stuff on my table when i take a nap. I thought that as i was ard, i dun think anyone will dare to steal like this. Looks like i was very wrong. Unless you lock them up, all things can go missing.

I am so disgusted!! Even uni students steal!! OMG... what was wrong with our education system? How can someone who is so highly educated be so immoral? Stealing is wrong and somemore stealing under her nose?? Oh my...... sigh....

birthday updates...

hi all.. this post has been moved to here.

coz i realised that i do not want everyone to find out abt my blog.... so i shall have a new blog for my birthday...

To be or not to be?

Forgot to blog abt this on Sunday. Recently in quite a bloggy mood.

Jac, jy and me decided that we want to run Basic NCO for the cadets this year. The problem is, I have to be the chairperson since i am the most senior because i passed my OTC 2 years earlier than them.

I am very apprehensive about taking on this post. To begin with, jac n jy have more experience with NCO course than me. Besides, i am jus a small fly in the zone. All the chairpersons so far are senior officers. Whether the Zone will allow me to be chairperson is still a question. Another thing is commitment. Will i be able to spare the time? I have to really balance school and meetings as the course starts in my exam month meaning that i have to study and plan at the same time. Can i do it?

Should I or should i not take on the challenge? The idea of running the course is so exciting as i finally have control over the quality of the course. In the past, I always have comments about sending my cadets to terrible courses. But actually, what i am worried about is that i will make the same kind of mistakes that I've seen others made.

I stopped helping out in NCO course after the second time coz i was very disappointed with the chairperson. He was one of my most respected officer but he was a bad chairperson. I am so worried that i would be like him. In the end, i will jeapardise my relationship with my peers and lose all the respect from my juniors.

I am really so unsure of myself.

today's a happening day

today very happening. Let's start from the morning..

9.30am: lab class. The lecturer was very cool. He never post protocol and we have to download on the spot so I did not get to print it out. After a short introduction, he made us continue the prac on our own, assuming that we rmb everything and need to hand in report. We all do very slowly den last qn cannot finish. Had to go home and continue coz got another lab class at 12.30pm.

12.30pm: fly to lib 1 to print 301. Only got 23 slides this time. Got so many ppl at the printing shop tt the queue was outside the lib. Luckily i got my fren to help me get lunch and by the time i got back to school, i have 15 mins to take my lunch.

1.30pm: My dreaded lecture... BS301. Today guest lecturer again. Guess wat? He only finish ard 10 slides today and let us go early!!!! OMG!! I really dun think I've learnt anything except for the history of neuroscience. shit lah.. 301 is dead.

3pm: Go dentist take out my stitches. I was quite scared initially coz i tot would be quite painful. Hmm.. not very painful but it hurts quite a bit when he cut the strings. Scary. Now still got hole and i can feel with my tongue but should heal soon.

From here on i forgot wat time liao. Should be around 4pm. After dentist, huimin and i went to buy ting's present. hehe.. in case ting's reading this so i shall not disclose the present yet. At first we walked the whole of JP but cannot find. So in the end we went orchard to see. Actually our original intention was to print my invitation cards. (",)

We took bus to orchard and saw something that dishonoured HCJC's reputation. Initially I saw a HC student hugging her bf in public. She din have her badge on but the line in front of the shirt gave her away. I am very much against PDA (public display of affection) in school uniforms, no matter how old you can be. SO i was already pretty disgusted. Den they took same bus as us and guessed what!! They were hugging and french kissing on the bus!!! Such a disgrace... If you cannot respect yourself, please at least respect the uniform.

I am proud to say that i respect my uniform a lot. All these years that i was with hz, I only held his hand ONCE in my school uniform and that was coz i was trying to be rebellious. (",) Other than that, if i know i was going to meet him, i will go home and change or else no holding hands or anything.

Anyway, we reached Orchard and the search for ting's present continue. We were at Swarovski at Paragon when i saw this!!

MY god!!! It is so pretty!! It's mickey mouse and it's crystal. Shit loh... fell in love liao.. but its so damn expensive. Cost a whooping $449 for a 10cm figurine. For closer look can visit Swarovski. Wow.... very very nice and that's a whole series with Disney characters. I am a big fan of Disney especially mickey mouse. My greatest dream was to visit Disneyland...

Anyway, we managed to find ting's present in the end. Very ex but its okay lah.. Who ask her to be my good fren? So ting u better like it ok? If not huimin n i will be very sad one...

So after ting's present, we made our way to peace centre finally but sian... shop closed liao. I was very sian but huimin says we should go try the very nice 豆花 so we crossed the road. And i dunno wat was wrong with us, we crossed during the Red Man but we never pay attention to the on-coming cars. A car was like 10 cm away from us and horned when we realised tt the cars are coming. So scary... i saw the car coming but i did not have time to react. As huimin was nearer to car, i shouted her name first even before i thought of pulling her away. Think she was shocked by my shout and the car. I was shocked too. Luckily the car stopped in time or else... ew....

But we managed to make it to the shop for 豆花. It's really pretty nice leh. Soooo soft and smooth. But it's so weird loh.. we had dessert before our meal coz we had chicken rice after 豆花. The chicken rice is a very nice one too. Except for the fact that huimin was traumatised by a cat beside our table, our dinner was rather peaceful.

After food, it's home sweet home. And on the bus home. I met JOVEN!! haha.. so 巧. Met her only yesterday and i thought that it would be very long before i get to see her again and yet i met her the next day. Maybe i will meet ailing tmr or something?

Nothing happened on the way home and so that ends my happening day. Tmr morn got no lecture so i can go to school late. Maybe i can go and print my cards or help ailing buy watch den make my way to school. But have to depend on wat time i wake up coz this weekend i was super deprived of sleep.... tired...

my very pretty CPR chart

haha... i very long nv run chart already.. today play cheat a bit on the ventilation and got a very very pretty chart. haha..... so proud of myself.

last day of holidays

sigh.. today is the last day of my 1 week holiday and mid autumn festival. And guess how i spent my day? Not at home doing homework nor am i playing with candles and lanterns. I was at St John headquarters!!! For nearly a whole day from morn till the evening.

Today was walkathon mah. Zone 9 was the organiser this year so i had to reach HQ at 7am for a briefing. It was raining very heavily when i got out of the house and was still raining at Lavender. So i braced the heavy rain and got to HQ at 715am. In the end, no briefing loh and i got my shoes and pants all wet and dirty. Irritating....

Anyway, trouble not finished yet. So heavy rain right? seems like my handphone does not agree with the rain and decided not to work. wah lao eh... sms come in i also cannot read. Thanks a lot to jac who loan me a phone for the remaining of the day. Not only that, she also helped me send my phone for servicing and waited 4 hrs to collect it for me. She even helped me bought socks. *muacks*..

Well, i cant send it for servicing on my own coz i have public BLS class. Its actually a complete CPR class for the public. Got pay lah.. but it's very hard work. Den got this candidate refuses to leave after many tries. In the end we all stayed till very late loh. Supposed to end at 530pm but in the end i left at 730pm and the rest left at 8pm.

So i was terribly late for my meeting with ailing n jov at holland v at 630pm so i took cab now. Very cheap leh. From HQ to there only $7.10. We had dinner at Essentials Brew. A very nice place.. next time gotta bring my friends there. A little on the ex side but its very cosy and can sit and chat. Somemore sit on the floor leh. So fun.. haha...

tmr still got lab in the morn.. so sian.. sigh.. end of holidays and no more mid autumn festival..

some updates

more time to blog now coz it's recess week. But it ending soon and i din do any studying at all.. omg.. sigh...

anyway, a couple of days back i was trying to be a nice daughter and wanted to wash my own jacket and lab coat. Since i was lazy to hand wash ( i already hand washed a lot of other clothes before this), i decided to throw them into the washing machine together with some other clothes.. BUT BUT.. haha.. i very cleverly forgot to add washing powder but i only realised it after the washing was finished coz the clothes smelled weird. So in the end i wasted mummy's water and have to wash the clothes all over again.

Last night I went for 7A gathering. This time we set it in NUS since most of our class ppl are there for class. Hmm... Turnout not too bad lah.. ard 10 plus ppl. We went Munchie Monkey for dinner. The pasta not that fantastic but the brownie very very niceeeeeeeeeeeee. I want to go back and try again. After dinner at proper table, we decided to change to their sofa to chat since long tables dun encourage conversation. But from our original location, we changed seat to another sofa coz it was too cold. So we sat there and chat about a lot of things. Some are qutie disgusting coz we were discussing innovative ways to murder ppl. OMG.. so disgusting.. haha... but the good part about discussion was that i get a banner for my birthday!! yeah! thanks huimin n rena!

And since a fren of mine had to leave early, another fren n me decided to accompany her out to the bus stop since it was quite dark. Along the way, my fren's back knocked into a pregnant lady. Den we kept looking at her, worried abt whether she would be fine coz she was very pregnant. But i think we looked too much den her hubby came along and shouted at us whether that was a problem. At first hm commented that the girl looked young but I nv notice anything. Until the guy's violent reaction, everything fell into place. Anyway, dun wanna gossip too much lah. But i urge anyone who wants to do it to use contraceptives ok? Not only to prevent unwanted pregancies, but also AIDS. (",)

tmr got tuition.. sian... sunday whole day with st john.. sian.. but i get to meet joven!! yeah.. looking forward to it.

My birthday!

hey ppl!

look at the top of the page.. haha.. i added a ticker to count-down my 21st birthday. Feeling excited and sad at the same time. I am excited coz i am having a birthday party! After like 9 years coz my last party was when i was 12. Sad coz i am getting old... *sob sob*

But anyway, i am looking forward to my party! Look out for my invitation!

Quite an experience

today was quite a fufilling day. I went to school at 830 am today to hand in my 305 assignment. Luckily the box was still around. And the traffic was so great coz its the term break and no sane person will be going to school. No long queue at 8am!! I am going to miss it once school starts.

Anyway, after handing in my report, i went to lib 2 to photocopy 303 n 304 reading materials. Oso very shiok coz no need to fight with ppl for the books and there isn't anyone at the photocopy shop den i can take my own sweet time to photocopy. After that i went macdonalds to get breakfast. Haha.. so niceeeeee.. very long nv eat mac breakfast liao.

After breakfast i wanted to start editing Fundamental Neuroscience's mistakes but i realised that i cannot access the site from the school. OMG... seems like they blocked it loh... sian... in the end i brought the big n heavy book to sch for nothing.

So after rotting in front of the computer for a while, i decided to see the dentist for my swollen gums. And guessed what i did?? I decided to take out my wisdom tooth there and then. So i sat there, without much preparation and sat through the mini operation. Was quite scared actually but it turned out to be rather fine.

It was quite an experience actually. I have never had anesthetic before and this time i had a local one and one side of my mouth felt so weird. My tongue fell swollen and my lips dun feel like they are there. Anyway, the whole thing was pretty fast. My tooth came out in less then 15mins and it was in a one whole piece. I even took it home. Haha... At first i was so worried that once the anesthetic effect wear off i will hurt like mad. But now, nearly 5 hrs after the jab, i am still feeling very well. The only thing is that i cannot open my mouth too wide. I hope it will not start to hurt over these few days. Anyway, I am going to remove the stitches next monday and i will have 1 less tooth, less wisdom and less money. Sigh...

SBS sucks!!

what the hell am i doing in such a school paying so much and getting so unhappy?? argh!! i hate my lecturers!! what the hell is wrong with them? Either they cannot teach, cannot post lecture notes properly at a humane time or they simply sucks. argh!!

To think i was still so sure that NTU would be better than NUS. I should have just gone NUS. At least i know a lot of ppl there.

Feeling so unhappy....................

Culprit

i had a full blown flu on Sunday. Felt so sick that i cannot stand for too long and I will feel faint. The suspects are below:

You can see our lecture notes in the background with a cuo of tea that's compliments of the ppl who are running for the BS club. I really think i ate too much choc and drank too little water. But they taste really good!!

good news!

Before i get to the good news, here's some updates. I was very blur today loh. I thought lab was at 930 den i happily thought i was early for class. Turned out that class was at 9am. OMG.. missed the whole briefing. I was never late for lab before loh.. sian.. but lab pretty easy lah.. Jus section and stain. Den draw cross section of stem and leaf. Haha.. i intend to copy A'level stuff.

anyway... i was sick today liao.. sian.. flu... no wonder my headache wouldn't go away. sigh...

But got good news!! haha.. next mon supposed to be half day but in the end my lecturer cancelled my lab!!!! haha.. so happy!!

Bukit Timah Nature Reserve Trip on 15 Aug

Big buttress roots. The tree is really huge!!

This is a leaf litter plant. It does not have any branches but have spiralling leaves. They trap falling leaves and absorb nutrients directly as the leaves decompose. COOL right?

The group of us walking up the stairs. Can you see the fog? That's something u see only after the rain. Feels so good! Like deep inside some mysterious forest.

A big rotting log. Its very funny to see a whole group of us standing there and trying to imagine wat's happening in the log.

More fog. So pretty! imagine looking at the hills in the midst of fog through branches right in Singapore!

Steep slope! SO scary. Towards the middle for the walk, we were so busy trying to watch our steps to notice the trees around us!

Nature's traffic light. Very pretty right? Its artificial lah. In the sense that they were not arranged this place naturally. But the colours are very nice.

This tree is amazing. Its very very tall but the trunk is hollow! The oblong holes are formed naturally to give the stem a lattice like effect. Gradually the trunk becomes hollow like this. I wonder how it supports the tree and how it transport water and food. I mean, where are the xylems and phloems??

Yeah!! We are finally at the summit!

A budding new life... I manged to spot it amongst mess.

A very long millipede/centipede or watever pede lah. Its very big but cant really see well coz got no comparing objects. I dare not put my finger there for comparision coz its too scary. But u can compare with the leaves ard it. Those are std size leaves. THe pede wa abt 4 to 5 inches long.

Well, i never fully appreciate trees and our nature reserve until the trip. Should reall go back again.

library trip

The directory. Look out for the weird names like the imagination room, possibility room and the retreat.

The courtyard!

Attempt to catch pretty mei mei in bikinis but cannot see. Huimin's camera only got 2x zoom. And my arms too short. too bad lah.

One of the funny photo taken. From the state of my hair, you can deduce that its rather windy up there. I was feeling so good!!

back!

wow.. i 2 weeks never write anything liao. Apologies to my loyal readers... here i am, back with more news.

St John

i decided to blog abt this first since it affects me the most at the moment. My pulse rate and breathing rate is so high i am going to get a heart attack soon. I am SOOOOOOOO angry with my juniors. I think that i am being simply unsympathetic. But i just cannot understand how much can a couple of days of studying do to help you pass your exams with flying colours??? They sure they will study if they dun go for competition? ARGH!!!

The story is like this... this year Footdrill com has a limit to the number of teams that one school can send. They set it as 3 and since i have 4 teams, i either appealed or 1 team cannot go. Obviously i will appeal for all the teams to go right? Since they already spent time to train and i dun want to waste their time. So nice, it happens that my juniors heard about the limitation and they decided to make full use of the chance to shrink themselves the responsiblity of competition and gave me all sorts of excuses. @#$%^. So angry with them. Its seems to them that they dun care about the time they have put in before this and jus want to get away from it since they have a perfect excuse to. The sec 2s standard is not very good and footdrill com has a great deal of competition. They told me that they have DECIDED not to join. Like they have a choice?? If they can make all the decisions den still need me for wat?? SO ANGRY... Anyway, I told them that its their choice and if we lose the challenge trophy again, twice in under 5 years, i will hold them responsible for it. Pissed off.. @##$$!!@@#@#.......

School

Well, school's the main reason i am not blogging. As it could be seen, tutorials and lab reports are coming. This sem not much of a report so far but got a lot of assignments. So sian. This coming monday i was at home doing a lab report and an assignment. I thought it would only take me a little while but i did not expect to spend so much more time on it. I forgot to go for my lab session until my fren called and asked me where am i. I even have to get a fren to help me hand in my assignment that's due at 5pm coz i cannot get to school in time. On top of that, i missed a meeting with chung sang who's back in sg for a while coz i cant finish my report.

sian... den not finish yet, i still got a marked assignment to hand in on tuesday. and tuesday n wed are tutorial days. So, its 3 days straight of madness. sigh... But the problem i haven been doing much tutorial. I mean i got try to do but the lecture notes are totally useless. So in the end, i copied a ans, very messily, on my qn paper. And i haven got time to read thru all the notes that i photocopied. Its not much of no time but no energy. I am really feeling very tired.... But i know that if i dun do it now and leave everything till exams, my results are going to turn out as well as my last sem. argh! so stressed! and its only the 5th week of school. Save me!!

But the only good thing abt school is the Bukit Timah trip. So fun. At first it was raining very heavily and i thought that they will cancel the trip but did not. The place is so cooling and nice after the rain. I want to go there again. After a heavy rain. (",) Will post some photos later. Taken using my fren's phone. Very nice. I wan tt phone oso. K750i.

Tuition

My p6 kids are getting worst. Actually its only the troublemakers but they make up 50% of the class coz the class is small. Now theyeven bother to pretend to listen to me. I cannot even hear myself in class loh... Sigh.. last friday one of them jus broke the fluoroscent lamp along the corridor coz they thought that it was fun to throw my shoe. Apparenly they do not know that my shoe is very sturdy. Its one of my long lasting pair. Anyway, trouble is not over. I accidentally torn the zip of a student's bag coz i was trying to pull her back into the class to clear some stuff. In the end she asked me for money today and i have to pay $12 for her to get a new bag. @#$%. wat the hell.

Life

I cannot rmb much social life in the past 2 weeks. Last mon supposed to meet tingting but she forgot that we are going to nus to find her and left the place to her BF's place. Was quite upset but in the end huimin n i decided to entertain ourselves and go the national lib. hehe.. i borrowed 4 books when i dun even have time to do homework. haha..

Anyway, i went there once with hz but we did not explore the place. I feel weird doing mad things with him ard. I always feel compelled to be prim and proper with him. But with huimin no need image lah.. haha.. we did stupid things like taking photos in front of the floor directory. Felt like a tourist. But its really interesting if you study the directory coz there is some floors without anything and they have weird names like the possibility room which is actually a seminar room. Den we took the lift which shocked the 2 of us coz it was going so fast. So scary. And we found this incredible place - The Courtyard. Its a garden that can be used as an outdoor performance area and is at the 6th floor AND can see the pool of intercontinental hotel. Cool... haha.. took a couple of funny photos there oso. post later.

And supposed to meet liyong to get my book from him since i m in nus and since i nv go nus, he has to find a way to pass me the book. So we decided to meet at Bukit Panjang at night. And he DROVE me home.. haha.. i never knew he can drive. I always learn new stuff when i meet him. haha.. den friday i met him again. To get another book and to return wei liang's book. This time i met up with alvin and qiulin oso. I met alvin at ntu's bus stop and jus drag him to nus with me since he's free. Really gotta thank liyong and wei liang. I have 2 very very very nice guy friends who are so nice to me. ALways helping me to get books. and have to go to so much trouble. But dun worry.. i wun fall for them one. i dun want them to stop being nice to me.. hehe....

General

Well... i am feeling really so tired...and so worn out. I need rest, sleep and some fun. Please ppl.. ask me to come out okay? i am getting such a bad headache now. help!

sleepless night

I do not dare to go to bed. If i do, morning is going to come faster and i am going to realise that i have 2 tutorials to attend and i haven do my tutorials yet.

Sigh.. not that i never try. But the problem is, how do you do the tutorial when the lecturer never teach u anything? Or at least nothing related to the lecture that he conducted? Tmr or rather later's tutorial are BS301 Neurobiology and BS303 Principles and Methods of Structural Biology.

Well, the 301 lecturer sucks like mad. His lecture notes are so damn big that they hang my computer when i try to download. The first set was 265 mb. Yes... its MEGABYTE! The 2nd one was much better but still it was157 mb. Not only that, his lecture is.. er hmmm.... And when i looked at his tutorial questions, the first thing i thought of was whether he mentioned it in class and i realised that i cannot recall anything being mentioned in class. Cool... No textbooks coz its all sold out plus i no money to buy and i have to rely on the net and i hate searching internet. How nice...

303 not much better lah. First lecturer was Julian Lescar, one of my year 1 lecturers. Sigh... i never liked him. If not for my reliable textbook and HC's notes, i would have died under him. I shall not complain much abt him during my computer lab this monday. It was so confusing that i got a really bad headache. His tutorials very cool leh... ask me to do maths!! oh please.. i haven touch maths for so long and no one could understand his questions and i dunno wat's wrong with his questions such that even maths major students cannot do!! OMG... i am a BIOSCIENCE student, not some PHYSICS or MATHS student. Why do i have to go through physics and maths so many times. 102 and 206 was enough for me already. I slogged my life out for these 2 modules. Another one?? Save me...

sigh.. I din want to talk abt school work. BUT... i have a real bad splitting headache now. If i dun complain, i will jus die.. sigh... another 7 hrs to tutorials.... HATE SCHOOL!!!

Reach out for the skies!

This year's NDP was quite nice. Actually every year also quite nice lah. I have always enjoyed watching NDP. It really makes me feel belonged to this place that i call home. This is this year's theme song. I like the lyrics as it inspires me to reach for my dreams! Its like what was said in Initial D: 人最重要是找到属于自己的世界 只有找到自己的世界 人生才有意义.To find our own world, we have to dream to get to where we want. I want to find out where i belong and I want to live happier.... I want to dream....

Reach Out For the Skies
Composed by: Elaine Chan

Lyrics by: Selena Tan

Arranged by: Joshua Wan

At a time when hope was low

The journey seems unsure

But through it all

We’ve kept the flame alive

Now standing proud and tall

Our spirit strong and free

Building on hopes and dreams

It’s here we want to be

Chorus:
Let’s reach out for the skies

With wings we soar up high

Our dreams we’ll all achieve

We’ll make our destiny

Let’s reach out for the skies

With wings we soar up high

Our dreams we’ll all achieve

Let’s soar and reach for the skies

When I think about my dreams

The future it can be

The time has come for me

To strive and to achieve

With hopes within our hearts

As one hand in hand

For family and our friends

Let’s do the best we can

Chorus:

Let’s reach out for the skies

With wings we soar up high

Our dreams we’ll all achieve

We’ll make our destiny

Let’s reach out for the skies

With wings we soar up high

Our dreams we’ll all achieve

Let’s soar and reach for the skies

Our dreams we’ll all achieve

Let’s soar and reach for the skies

We can touch the skies

happy birthday weiling, liyong, lin xu and alvin!

today i went for Weiling's 21st birthday party. It was at the Cafe at the Quad in NTU. At first i thought it was a weird place to have a party but after the party, i realised that its a very good place coz its big and have air con. Maybe i can consider that? hmmm...

anyway, we got her a pair of Levis Jeans and i m so glad that it fit her nicely. I was scared that the size would be wrong. Phew....

The party was like a mini gathering for our class. Other den attending Weiling's party, we had a little celebration for Liyong and Weiling's birthday. BUT i forgot all abt lin xu's. OMG.. and he was there.. feel so bad... Anyway, the gathering was quite a success. This year we met thrice already and the attendance was pretty good. Excluduing Weiling got 12 people leh. Not bad ah And it was so funny... coz we were all kept really entertained by poh. Wahahaahahaa....

Talking abt the class, I realised that some ppl in the class changed. Some for the better and some for the worse.. Take Lele for example. Haha... that guy never change.. dunno abt his thinking but behaviour wise, he's still the out-going guy that i know.. and Weiliang oso and lam too... esp lam. I think lam has became more out-spoken, which i think is very nice. I prefer the current lam den the old lam that i know in school. At least we can communicate now. haha...

Really love this class a great deal. The kind of friendship that we have between us is so unlike those that i have with my other classes. We jus click with everyone and chat like that. wow... Love you all 4D!!!*MUACK*

pissed off

argh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! why is he always doing this to me? i am so super pissed off now.. maybe i should jus end this once and for all.. i drag anymore i am going to get heart attack sooner or later.... argh!!!!

make it happen!

Some people see a closed door and turn away.
Others see a closed door, try the knob... if it doesn't work they turn away.
Still others see a closed door, try the knob... if it doesn't open, they find a key. If the key doesn't fit, they turn away.
A rare few see a closed door, try the knob... if it doesn't open, they find a key. If it doesn't fit, they make one.~

never give up, even when you meet with obstacles. find ways to overcome it. dont wait for miracles to happen. make it happen~

quotes of the day

Begin with praise and honest appreciation. Call attention to people's mistakes indirectly. Talk about your own mistakes before criticizing the other person. Ask questions instead of giving direct orders...Make the fault easy to correct. Make the other person happy about doing what you suggest.

~ Dale Carnegie

A healthy attitude is contagious but don't wait to catch it from others. Be a carrier.

~ Anonymous

Human beings can alter their lives by altering their attitudes of mind.

~William James

This is my favourite:

When you get to the end of your rope, tie a knot and hang on~

singapore youngsters

i wonder what is wrong with our education system or with our upbringing. How come i suddenly realised that singaporeans, in particular the younger generation is getting more and more inconsiderate? This past one week, i have come to notice two very irritating things that they do.

First, students in NTU do not like to move to the rear of the bus. There was once i was on the bus on the way to school. There was so much space at the rear but the students jus refused to move in. We were standing with so much space between us at the end while those in the front have to squeeze like mad to get onto the bus. Com'on, we are all going to school for classes at the same time most probably. So i think the least you can do is to move in and make space for other people to get on. And many people, including me, get irritated when some aunties try to squeeze to the rear of the bus but have it ever occurred to us that if we had bothered to move in at the same time, they will not have to squeeze like that and we can all be happier!

Secondly, i really cannot stand people who blast their music so loud that the whole bus and train can hear what they are listening to. Worst still, with the current advancement in technology, some people play their mp3 using the loudspeaker coz they do not have a ear phone. Oh please, not the whole world like what you are playing okay? Worst still, they like to play all the rock music which i hate like mad. It really gives me a very bad headache and puts me in a very bad mood. Can they jus be more sensitive to the people around them??

I really wonder what happened to all the education in school? What happened to all the things about graciousness and courtesy? We seemed to have forgotten the basics during the scramble for good grades and a better education.

my man

wat's the matter with him? how come he always managed to make me feel bad abt complaining after i did.

Dun understand leh.. but he seems to be able to read my mind coz everytime i complain, the next day or soon after, he will do something to make me happy and make me so guilty abt complaining?

Or has he been reading my blog? dunno.. tot he dun read one...

anyway.. i really miss him a lot.. hope i can have more time with him even though school's started...

weird feelings

why do i feel so neglected?

Yesterday went for dinner with my jc gang and ting's bf met her after the dinner and i wonder when has i ever met him at night after i met my friends. Today, wanted to go with BY n CP to Paya Lebar to collect the trophy but i could not get there in time. Wanted to meet them at orchard instead by CP has to leave at 6pm den BY gg to meet WK after tt so i decided tt i should jus stay at home. BY is always meeting WK and i was thinking how long i haven gone out with him liao.

No doubt harry has made me flew to the top of the world but i still feel like i m not on the top of his important list. Am i asking too much? dunno.. i jus hope tt i can at least go out with him once a week, can chat on the phone properly and at least get a reply to my sms. Sigh... really wish tt i could be his computer. At least i will get to see him everyday and he pays a lot more attention to me than any other things.

first day of school

Today's the first day of school. I'm pretty lucky lah coz i had a late afternoon lecture. I purposely went to school earlier to print notes and luckily i went earlier coz there was a lot of ppl. I waited for a while before i managed to get a computer terminal. And this year, the printing shop sort of upgraded leh coz now can use ez-link card to pay. So cool!! haha.... anyway, the first lecture was quite crap coz lescar is still in paris and joe yoon came to relief and he cannot cover must coz most are to be covered by lescar. In the end, he managed to drag the lesson for 1.5 hrs and finally let us off at 5pm.

After class, i went to Jurong Point to meet Ting, Eli n Huimin. Wow.. so very super long haven met ting ting... We had dinner at Crystal Jade but my La Mian was not very nice. Next time i will rmb not to order the si chuan one. After dinner we went to Swensons for desert. Wow.. so sinful but we had a lot of fun. Was chatting chatting and chatting. haha... so fun!! really missed the girls. After dessert we even got to meet ting ting's bf. We all agree that he looks compatible with ting ting so he passed the test. (",) haha.. And singapore is so super small... we saw rena when we were going home.. haha. so qiao..

anyway.. i had great fun but nv take photos coz huimin's camera no batt lah... sian.. but nvm.. i rmb everything in my mind...looking forward to another gathering with them..

school reopens

school's starting tmr... sian.. first lecture at 330pm... omg...

but actually i am a little looking forward to school.. haha.. rest enough liao lah.. time to work hard..

harry potter completed!

i finally finished potter on friday. Took me 2 days. coz i effectively only started on wed as i got the book on tues night and i still have another book to finish that night.

wow! i must say that i am so impressed with rowling this time. This book is such a far cry from the order of phoenix. I love it so much... I was so carried away by the book that i was beginning to imagine myself in the story and i freak out when i walk alone outside at night coz i was afraid that the Death Eaters might jus appear out of nowhere.

The only bad thing about the book is that Dumbledore died. Killed by Snape, someone he really trusted. Dumbledore is the Headmaster of Hogwarts, the school of magic that Harry goes to. OMG.. i was so sad.. felt like crying also. After having read all the other books, I am beginning to like and respect Dumbledore. I felt like i could really relate to him. Sometimes i really envy Harry for having someone who's so nice and wise to guide him along. sigh....

I am really looking forward to the last book. I cannot wait to see how Harry is going to destroy Voldemort without Dumbledore's guidance. I guess it will be very exciting. Hope that it will not be too disappointing.

I would advise all who wants to read this book to read the previous few books first. If not you might get confused coz rowling kept refering to events which happened in the past. But i can really assure you that you will enjoy the story a lot. Its funny, touching and trilling.

xiaxue's blog part 2

well.. she recovered pretty soon.. late yesterday..her pink trademark was back. apparently the news was so big tt it was on Life! and TODAY. Anyway, i hope that the police catches the guy... mad man.

xiaxue's blog

As most would know, xiaxue is a blogger in singapore who got famous from blogging. Well, we were in the same secondary school and in fact we are from the same batch of students. We used to be on talking terms coz her class was jus next to mine but ever since we got to upper secondary, we stopped talking to each other coz i cannot stand her "ah lian" look and i think she do not want friends in a nerd class like me.

Recently i started to read xiaxue's blog quite regularly. I was never a fan of her but i have to admit that i found her blog entertaining even though i do not agree with some of the things that she says. I am beginning to realise that i quite like her style coz she's very open with what she says and i like the straight forward nature.

Yesterday, as usual, i would click on the link on my blog and read her blog and to my surprise, the pink trade-mark look did not appear. Instead, replaced by it was a template page. At first, i thought that she changed look. However, as i read on, i realised that someone has hacked into her account and deleted her whole blog and all the other blog that she has created!! The person also hacked into her gmail and deleted all 3,000 of her emails which includes impt biz contacts.

Apparently, this person hates xiaxue which i gathered is from what she says on her blog. Even though i do not really like her but i think that what this person did was too much. This is an idiot. I believe that you have to an adult or someone who is proficient in computers in order to learn to hack. OMG.. this guy is totally childish. Why do you have to hurt a person that you hate? Are you going to kill someone whom you cannot stand the look of? OMG.... this guy is mad.

I really feel so sorry for xiaxue coz it was all her effort for the past few years. I would be very angry if i have put in so much effort and *ding* it jus gone like that. Hope that she can get the culprit soon.

gathering day

not a bad day leh...

i started the day by going to youyi's house to play mahjong. Lost like mad but nvm.. din play a lot of money.. den after tt met 7A for dinner at the glass house. A bit pathetic coz only got ard 8 ppl initially den increased to abt 11. But we ended the day early coz the guys wanted to go and play game. duh....

after that i went esplanade to meet the st john gals. haha.. had so much fun with them even though its only for a little while. a bunch of mad gals but i really loveeee them.. (",) looking forward to another day with them. We literallly did nothing except to take photos and sat there and rot. got quite a couple of weird looks from other ppl but i guess we jus bo chup lah...

quite a fufilling day.. feeling good abt it...

new look!

i did something drastic today... well i changed my look.. guessed wat i did?

i rebonded my hair!

i pondered for a long time before i finally made up my mind to do it. Even when i was at the hairdresser, kylie kept asking me if i am sure.

well.. some ppl said that my curly hair looks better but some other ppl think otherwise. For myself.. i am alright with both straight and curly hair lah. Straight hair easier to maintain coz i no need to curl in the morn and i can finally comb my hair. But I have to rmb not to tuck behind my ear and cannot tie.

Anyway, i still cannot get use to this new look. Missed my curls!

it finally came

yeah... harry finally came!! Going to start reading it today. SO exciting.....

BUT i broke my mum's vase in the process. Dunno what happened but i guess i pulled on something when i signed the dumb receipt... so irritated. Going to find the same one or a nicer one for my mum...

and.. i think my little bro is in love.. haha.. with my cousin.. dunno why.. but i feel so happy for him. haha...

so disapointed

abt a week ago.. i blog abt this mysterious person who sent me harry potter. the book was supposed to come on saturday but i was busy with my granny's wake and wasn't at home.

today.. supposed to come today one... waited whole day at home anticipating its arrival. and in the end?? NEVER COME!!

wah.. so disappointed and angry. i even called to check and the person said my book is on its way. first thing tmr morning. COMPLAIN!

so sad.... *sobzzz*... was looking forward to the book so much...

tired..

my 外婆 was peacefully buried yesterday at lim chu kang cemetery.. sigh.. really cannot stand her going.. and the undertaker sucks leh.. all so messy.. and my ah ma keep complaining that a lot of things were wrong but too late liao.. so we 将错就错 loh.. luckily my 外婆 very 随便 one.. anything oso can..

anyway, after the burial we came home.. like very bad coz like got some stuff haven finish den my 姑姑 keep pushing us to come home coz she wants to go back. Den she keep saying that leave the things there for them to do. Its so bad leh.. coz the four of us are the eldest but never help much.. like not part of the family like that. 外孙 so wat? not part of the family meh.. .sian.. some drawbacks of chinese traditions..

After got time bath and sleep for 12 hours!! Was super late for tuition in the morning.. such a bad teacher coz i am late for nearly all my lessons.. sian..

Anyway, i would really like to thank everyone who have came down and offered their support. esp to my dear who have been there nearly everyday. Thanks everyone!

she's free now

my po po(mother's mum) passed away today at noon. Sigh.... cry? sad? yes.. but somehow i am so relieved. Coz she's finally not suffering anymore.

She first got a stroke in 2000 and at first she can still talk and recognise us. But gradually, over the years, she was confined to bed and cannot talk or recognise us anymore. Last month, she was diagnosed with ovarian cancer. Doctor say cannot operate coz she was too weak. So we literally are waiting for her to go. Last Friday, her body swollen but doctor refused to admit her coz he says he cannot help her also. So we moved her from my uncle's place back to her own house and were literally preparing for her funeral already.

This morn daddy scared me out of my sleep, saying that po po is critical so we went over. Den i sat there and watched her breathing got slower and her pulse getting weaker. Finally, she let go at noon. Even though we expected it but everyone was still very sad.

She used to dote on us a lot even thou she always scold us. But before she got a stroke, she always bring my siblings and me to the provision shop and buy ice cream for us. And her house is always properly "stocked" with toys. I always rmb that the first thing we do when we got to her house is to sneak underneath the 神台 where all the toys are and start playing until mummy nagged us to greet granny and grandpa. That was very long ago. As we got older, our weekly visits got lesser and lesser until we only go there a couple of times a year. Feel so bad...

Anyway, i am still glad that at least she's relieved. I cannot stand seeing her in such pain and cannot do anything abt it.

Bye bye granny! You will always be in our hearts...

thanks!

thanks darling! i realised that i really missed him a lot.. sigh...

National Competition 2005

Today's the day. The last time my sec 3s are going to be involved in a first aid compeition. This year, we went there to win. My boys wanted to get champion coz i told them we have nv got champion before. My girls expect at least a third coz of pressure from the seniors last year.

I went to send them into the compeititon in the morn and rushed back to hougang for tuition. Den after tuition, i flew back to watch them compete. I missed ivy's nursing case and half of angela's nursing case. But overall i thought Angela's was quite okay, Ivy a little not up to their standard and Shi Wei's was sigh.......

By the end of the day, i was so sure that we are not gg to get anything. I was so sad.

Then it was time for the results. WOW!! They really shocked me!!

Shi Wei's team took part in the Ambulance Adult Category and they got:
1. Best CPR
2. Best First Aid Long Case
3. Runner up for Transportation of casulty

4. Overall 2nd (being 3.5 marks away from champion coz their short case was too terrible. They got last loh)

Angela's team went for Nursing Adult and got:
1. Best CPR
2. Runner up for First Aid
3. Best Foot Drill
4. Overall 2nd

Ivy's team went for Nursing Cadet and got:
1. Runner up for First Aid

Ivy's team was so sad coz they did not even get 3rd but they were only 2 marks away. Not their fault lah coz NC always has very tough competition.

BUT i am still so proud of my juniors! They got trophies in both the adult categories even though they are the hardest. Really really so proud of them.

RV SJAB ROCKS!

blood donation...... SUCCESSFUL!!

i finally managed to donate blood today!! after 2 failed attempts... got free brands chicken essence somemore.. (",)

at first i tot cannot donate coz my blood droplet floated on the solution! den the nurse went to use the meter and realised tt i can donate afterall!

And today my vein nv run away. Next time should ask the nurse to use my left hand lah.. last time i used my right hand den vein ran away so i got a big bruise AND nv managed to donate blood.

My next donation is after 1st Oct. I think i will go and donate on my 21st birthday. Quite a meaningful way to spend my birthday.. haha...

mysterious person

2 days ago, i received this email:

BUT the problem is:
1. I was at home but i did not on my computer until late at night.
2. I have no money lah... how to pay?
3. I do not intend to buy Harry Potter, yet.. so how can i order this??

So i emailed them an ask if there was any problem. But they sent me an email with my correct particulars. If you type the wrong email add, you cannot probably get all the details wrong right?

And so i emailed them and ask if payment has been made and they said yes. Apparently someone purposely sent this to me.

BUT WHO?? i do not know of anybody who will send things to me for no particular reason. Some ppl suggested my bf then i said that he will not do these kind of things. Then a friend said that i oso said the same thing during v-day that he will not give me flowers but i got a bouquet for v-day. That time i was so happy. SO maybe it could be him... but wat spurred him to do this?

Meanwhile, can anyone tell me if they are the mysterious person? Thanks!

relationship

i guess ppl of my age now are all busy looking for a partner. even the most nerdy ones are trying to think of gg into relationships.

having been in a co-ed school all my life, i was always surrounded by guys. Frankly speaking, i have never tot of gg into a relationship. i jus cannot stand the guys that i see around me. the good ones either will nv notice me or are already attached. some better ones are better off as friends den bf... i have already decided to try in JC until he came along...

sigh.. its really so easy to be in a relationship but its really hard to maintain a relationship. i realised that compromise is really impt and you have to believe in what you compromise with. When one party gives in too much, it gets really tiring. sigh... i m very tired now....

Sometimes i really wonder where i stand in his life. I feel like i am never appreciated. There is always a problem with me. What's wrong with me??

Miss him so much but i very long nv see him liao.. the last time i saw him was last last sunday and its really SAW coz we met for less than 10 mins and talk for no more den 2 sentences. The last time we really went out was nearly a month ago. We could have talked on the phone right? But the last time we talked was exactly a week ago. How come so long ago? Coz i am waiting for him to realise that i am missing from his life. His computer is probably more interesting than i am. Does he ever miss me??? sigh... I really wonder what is he busy with.

Somehow I have this feeling that we are both waiting for the other party to call. That's the problem when 2 parties are so stubborn... sigh... maybe we have a problem...